#rant tw

i actually am so fucking sick of these losers constantly trying to shame, humiliate, and bully us. why tf is this brigading promoting ass post STILL up 10 hours later?

its not even a screenshot, they directly shared the post within the other sub to shame the byler OP. im fuuuuming. this is what i commented and the following thread. under the cut bc its kind of long due to their comment lengths

non-binary people are only valid if their identities don't make me cringe or uncomfortable.

explain your identity to me right now so i can determine if you belong in the spaces you already existed in before I knew you.

yes I know you're a miniscule percentile but you confuse me so you're dangerous and need to be exiled and anyone who doesn't invalidate you is a bigot who hates REAL gay people.

other people's transphobia is because of non-binary people mingling in gay crowds I don't think they're binary enough for.

gender segregation is good.

non-binary people who refuse gender segregation are bigots.

I hate how people think that system origins will dictate how a system functions

People tend to think traumagenic means some form of disordered-ness, having dissociation, amnesia, splitting, etc.

And people tend to think endogenic means nothing disordering at all, perfect memory, being able to form headmates at will, no issues whatsoever

When neither of those are the case, at all. Even if we push aside the fact that endogenic systems can be disordered as well as have CDDs, that doesn't mean anything in the fact that they can experience amnesia, dissociation, plainly just trouble existing due to being a system. Even ones purposefully created! Just because you created a system, doesn't mean everything will be just peachy. The only thing you're doing is making a separate being to live with you, which can cause a lot of struggles

And traumagenic systems can be completely non-disordered, they can be what you'd imagine an endogenic system to be like, because the only thing separating the two is origin

By setting these ideas within the plural community, it's only further separating traumagenic and endogenic systems, which, yes, while I believe that endogenic and traumagenic systems should have their own spaces, I don't believe that we as a community should further the idea that we're nothing alike, when that's really not the case.

An endogenic system that has amnesia might believe they're actually traumagenic due to how the community makes it out to be, same with a traumagenic system, one that has no disordering features might believe they're endogenic because they fit the standard for it

And while that's not the worst thing in the world, it's not good either.

I just really feel like we should be lessening the stereotyping that goes on within the system community, it's only going to cause more issues and infighting in the long run

//imma be real a moment folks and address what that I’ve noticed in recent days and my stance on it:

//If you are an adult in the Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss community, there is no business in interacting with minors, let alone inviting them to interact on your RP blog. On Prime the show is 16+, but I do not believe it to be reasonable to bring them into the adult spaced community. The minors already have their own groups within the rpc and have no business to try interacting with the adults. Inviting them in is risky to not only the minors, but you and your other rp partners.

//another thing that honestly baffles me as to why an adult would state that minors are welcome to rp/interact, but then also state or imply that nsft content such as severe violence & sex are going to be present on the blog for those that are 18+? It’s still exposing minors knowingly on the dash to nsft. It’s literally providing it to them.

//maybe it’s cultural differences because adults in some places are as young as 16/17. However Tumblr is a US site with rules that function under US law, which to be a legal adult must be 18+, so that’s just basic common sense to follow the sites rules ya know? But recently I’ve seen 21+ blogs stating in rules that they are open to rping with minors and that nsft content (both violent & sexual) is also present on the same blog with other adults. It’s just a seriously bad idea and is an open door for those minors to get into adult spaces.

The terms misogynoir, lesbophobia and trans-misogyny highlight 2 forms of bigotry and how they intersect with each other to create one form of bigotry. They don't specifically describe 2 forms of systematic oppression and how they intersect with each other to create one form of oppression.

For example "merrian webster" defines the term misogynoir as follows: "Hatred of, aversion to, or prejudice against Black women" This definition only requires the intersection of 2 forms of bigotry. In the case of misogynoir the bigotry against people for being women and the bigotry against people for being black create one form of bigotry together. They didn't write in the definition the forms of bigotry need to be systematic.

Also transandrophobia does indeed exist. Trans men OFTEN get discriminated against on the basis of their manhood and transness together. For example some people discriminate against trans men on the basis of them transitioning to the "evil gender." This is discrimination against them for their manhood by calling manhood evil and discrimination against them for transitioning. This fits the criteria for transandrophobia. This example denies your claim, that transmisandry/transandrophobia can't exist.

Also misandry sometimes is a structural force in some cases, which means it exists. Especially towards men who are disadvantaged like trans men. For example the written in the law discrimination of male victims/survivors of SA/CSA in MANY COUNTRIES is misandristic.

This means transmisandry/transandrophobia exists, even according to your definition of it being an intersection of 2 systemic forms of oppression, which creates one form of oppression, which isn't it's real definition by the way. Because sometimes misandry affects some men structurally obviously not nearly to the extent misogyny affects women structurally, but you get my point.

Also this isn't MRA shit, which makes trans men hate trans women. It's the reality of what trans men live through.

So uh, sorry for the lack of updates! I got settled with life and was hanging out on Discord and stuff (and also watching Miraculous Ladybug and trying to finish up the seasons, so currently I'm on season 6, LOL, but that isn't the point of this post...) so anyway, it's time to talk about why I'm making this post!

*COUGH COUGH*

So uh... it all started yesterday! My mom had a conversation with me and it happened while I was pulling out weeds.

Yesterday, my mom asked if I had voices in my head! I was confused by what she meant and I said "I mean I have stuff that I have watched replay in my mind now and then, cause my brain is never quiet, and I do roleplay stuff of like characters and so on doing scenarios and so on and stuff".

For context, I have internal monologue/thoughts (OBVIOUSLY NORMAL), I replay memories and media (because my brain isn't quiet and almost never shuts up, especially considering I have ADHD, so you get the point), and I like to imagine scenarios and roleplay characters in my head (which could be considered normal creative thinking)!

BUT for some fucking reason, my mom wasn't satisfied with this answer! I then tried to answer it with "Sometimes when I'm home alone, I sometimes hear someone calling my name but it's more of a trick of the mind than anything else" (aka an super common auditory illusion which happens to most people)!

And that's when I realized she wanted a yes or no answer to be exact! So I answered "If you mean voices talking to me directly, then no!", it's not like I have actual voices telling me to do stuff like go kill people and so on (WHICH I DO NOT)! And she said she needed that info so she can talk to the doctor about it! Of course I was curious and asked why, and that's when she told me she was getting that info so she can ask the doctor to get me an new medicine!

According to her, the medicine will "make me concentrate more and not zone out so much, be more happier and less angry, and also wanna socialize more and make some irl friends" which may sound good, but it's not as excellent as it may seem.

My concerns in questions are that it will make my brain too quiet (aka losing my imagination and internal world), numb me emotionally (can't feel appropriate anger or sadness even when it's necessary), make me "too happy" in an artificial way, and force me to be more social IRL when I'm happy being an ambivert IRL. And just so you know, those are real concerns that people have with psych meds, especially ones that affect dopamine/serotonin (I'm not sure if the medication is psych meds, but still, I don't trust the new medication)! And for me (considering I'm a neurodivergent person), that internal world is a huge part of how I process things and stay entertained when I'M FUCKING BORED AND HAVE NOTHING TO DO!

Me and my mom have both came up with a goal which was to get me off meds eventually but THEN she wants to add MORE meds, which is contradictory! Like are we trying to reduce medication dependence or are we adding more into the mix?

And here's the thing, if that medicine would fundamentally change who I AM just to make ME MORE "NORMAL," that's not actually helping ME, that's helping other people be more comfortable with ME. And that isn't fucking fair at all! Like why should I have to be "more normal" just to fit in with society?!

And that's not the worst part! My mom had THE AUDACITY TO LIE THAT I HAD BIPOLAR DISORDER JUST SO SHE CAN GET THE DOCTOR TO GET ME MEDICINE (I know this because I peeked in on her what she was doing while she was filling out a form for a doctor) when I was never diagnosed with it! And it's not only sketchy, THAT'S LITERALLY MEDICAL FRAUD! She's telling doctors I have a condition I was NEVER diagnosed with just to get them to prescribe medication! And it's fucked up, you wanna know why?

First of all, doctors will treat me for the wrong thing, considering that bipolar meds are serious shit with serious side effects. And if you don't actually have bipolar (which I don't), those meds could fuck you up in ways you don't need (AND THEY WILL FUCK ME UP)! Second of all, it goes in my medical record, which means now I could have a false diagnosis following around that could affect future treatment, insurance, and EVERYTHING! Third of all, she's making medical decisions based on lies, like how are doctors supposed to help me if they're working with completely false information?? Also, this feels like a betrayal because she's literally lying about my mental health to medical professionals without my consent!

AND THE BITCH HAD THE AUDICITY TO SAY "I'll say whatever I need to so that the doctors can get you medication" LIKE I DIDN'T ASK FOR THAT!

My mom then said "Oh, don't worry, the medicine isn't addictive, so you'll be fine" when I expressed my worries about the medication! Because here is the thing... plenty of psych meds aren't chemically addictive but can still fuck with your brain chemistry in ways that are hard to reverse (and that fucking scares me)!

So yeah, you can see how fucked up this is and I'm literally upset right now! I would like you if you could comment on here just to talk with me about this (BECAUSE I NEED SUPPORT FROM MY ONLINE MOOTS)!

And if you can reblog, please reblog this post so that other people are aware of what's going on, THIS IS SERIOUS, I'M TELLING YOU! I wouldn't mean if you spread awareness of this (I want you to) because I feel like if this doesn't happen, then I'll have no support to back me up and no one to be aware of this (sorry if my logic sounds weird, but you get the point, just spread the post for awareness)! 😭💀

(P.S. if you could get your moots and anyone else to reblog this too, I would be happy)

Any support would be very good for me because I really need it right now! And don't worry, I'm not on the new medication (yet thankfully), but I'm kinda scared that I'll sooner or later end up on the new medication and it's terrifying because this new medication could change me for the worse and fuck me up! 😰

So yeah, sorry you had to read this, but I really needed to vent and rant about this!

I hate ICE.

I hate ICE so much.

It is CRUEL.

Doing THAT to an immigrant?? Even when they've done nothing wrong?? Like WHAT is the point of that??

They have lives too, and the stupid fuckass government decides it's a good idea to take people with HUMAN emotions, jobs, families, thoughts..

And treat them like absolute shit.

Not even people who have done ACTUAL WRONG are treated like this.

NOT EVEN RAPISTS

They take innocent people and imprison them just for their own satisfaction.

WHY IS THE GOVERNMENT EVEN ALLOWING THIS?? ARE THEY OUT OF THEIR MINDS??

IT'S ABUSING PEOPLE WHO DID NO WRONG

They don't deserve that.

Nothing like being called a dick rider in a TikTok dm because another fan foamed at the mouth and decided H.U.N.K is solely responsible for William’s death, Wesker’s actions and Leon’s trauma. 🤌