worrying about things that are out of my control yet again

damn it, i do want to live. i want to see that movie that’s coming out at thanksgiving. i want to know what it’s like to go to greece. i want to see my dog grow old. i want to be a part of my best friend’s wedding. damn it, i want to live!!

not only is it not friday it’s not even thursday. or wednesday

The most sentimental girl in the room

wdym you looked at another girl

when people say my name im like.   cant believe i exist

Just try your best, get off your phone as much as you can, honor your hurt feelings and also the hurt feelings of others, favor sincerity over nonchalance whenever it’s appropriate to, reach out to people you miss, let go of people when it’s time, operate from a deeply rooted self respect rather than from a lens of what people think, try your best to read the room, sit in the sun on overcast days (with sunscreen on), drink lots of water, pursue everything you want aggressively, accept that your timeline will be different, welcome detours if circumstances call for them, hold both yourself and others accountable, try to move your body as much as you can and you will be okay diva

crazy how i find myself thinking i've got a handle on it all finally and then i see the ways that other people tangle their lives together so easily and live so easily together with their friends and i feel like that girl at the top of the stairs painting by norman rockwell

i know exactly who i am i dont eat i dont sleep im an angel im a public danger im losing my goddamn mind

fuck you and your weird little rat dog of a boyfriend too

biting wounds into myself and then licking them like a parody of apology