just let it go

if so happens , that a photo of you appears before the darkness of my eyes. I can feel the faintness of a tear, not visible to anyone, yet. I can feel it . It’s there. To fall in love , for me. Was a one time thing. It’s never the same, nor will I ever feel again.

it burdens me , that those who lay beside me now, deserve so much more. They lay by an empty shell. They wish to believe. But the lowering of my eyes is enough to get by.

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I still hate the self, for it lost you. I still try to forgive, and sometimes I do, but the mind erases its calm, whenever I think if you. And it’s a daily thing. Not a days gone by. Where I feel the cold crawl against my arms.

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i always find myself scoffing over fools who demand entitlement for closure.

Nobody on our planet is entitled to anything. But the life they bear. And even then, the body is only ours temporarily, for eventually , even the self will one day give up on its body. And so what then, .

Or must you stay, attached, to a rotten corpse, for it so is entitled to your self. Lol, I scoff at anyone who demands entitlement .

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you may find that lights appear.

images sprout. and forgotten dreams relived.

understand the vices you bear. 

self control supersedes the body.

yet, we allow desires and reactions to take over our mind whenever the feeling comes. 

a time where all else are asleep,

you may find my mind racing through the struggles i face.

It is cooler at night.

so why should we suffer under the rays that ages us sooner,

when the shade of the stars grants us exactly what we need. 

to follow the norms of a society dictated by idiotic and selfish baboons is moronic.

be the self. follow the heart, and do not shun anyone.

take in whatever presents itself before you. 

but not accomplishing true meaning prior to inevitability. 

how can love outcome from a source derived of pride, discrimination, and selfishness.