Secret Mind of Dan

Darling of mine. I’m still in awe that this has all become what it is. 5 months ago we met, and you only saw me as a young kid you liked having sex with. But I saw so much more.

I was patient and I waited. I let us ride out what we were becoming because for three months I had no idea what it was that we were doing.

Every day I’m learning more about myself and more about you. Last night we were playing a bar game, and the question was “drink if the partner you are currently with, is going to be the partner you marry”. And I took the swig. This weekend, I wished so many times that you were here. When the boys were saying “if they can’t survive in a room alone with us, they can’t marry you.” I know they would love you. So much more than the last guy.

I know so much has changed with it, and we still have so much more to learn about eachother. But if you proposed tomorrow, I would say yes. I want to start a family with you. I want to see you raise our children. I want to move in with you. I want to live in the city together. I want so many things that involve you. I want is to travel together. Right now, I want to go to your sisters wedding. Because I can feel that 5 years from now we will look back and think “why didn’t I just bring Dan?” Or “I wish we just bucked up and brought him” at least I hope that’s the case. I hope we can look back in the future and think how funny it was how we were so close to being us. And yet we didn’t make the jump.

I mean not for nothing. That is my birthday. And that’s like four months away. So who knows what could actually happen…

I just know the last two months together have been so real, so honest, and full of beautiful intentions. I’ve grown so much, and you have too. I know I want to be with you for a very long time. So please don’t get bored of me anytime soon. Because I’m nearly ready for you to ask me for your hand in marriage.