the seas, or maria

want to remember wish memory held tightly the time spent with you

inside silent screams breaking over and over then tears, and more tears

rotating feelings anger, sadness, exhaustion what you left me with

feels like nothing left wide awake 4 AM thoughts trying to let go

an August full moon face the fears and trust yourself let love be your guide

anniversary only I will remember what it meant to me

you didn’t have to break what was left of my heart leave me more broken

wish I could tell you the words my heart is screaming all the love and pain

you will heal your heart open your heart even more still believe in love

an early morning the missing you wakes me up how the day begins

will not fight to stay prove your worth, that you matter to them, anyone

it was hard to trust the voice deep inside that said it would be ok

pain has eclipsed me staying low in the shadows some days nothing helps

we were not remnants leftovers from other's pain we were always whole

to feel something else not just the pain all the time emotional drain

another morning anger, sadness for breakfast too many feelings

stayed in the darkness forgot who I used to be when I still felt things