rue grief re-igniting my el grief just as i was starting to heal

trying to find a gif of el in the epilogue but every tag of her name is filled with some bs omggggggggggggg

i cannot believe the well adjusted duffer wanted to keep el unambiguously alive and he just let the other one talk over him in the writers room. like i cant

like i just dont care if people are mad the version of the show they made up in their head isnt the consensus among all fans. will isnt el’s twin, he was barely her friend. he was meaner to her than lucas was in s1, and at least lucas had a reason to distrust her and eventually apologized. disregarding anything involving ships, will called her stupid, and a season later stood by and let her get bullied, then tried to frame her as a liar for keeping the bullying a secret, and never apologized for anything. with a twin like that, who needs enemies

i really cant believe the government just let them all walk. they werent even concerned about that box of evidence in the cabin about the experiments. like im actually confused why no one even attempted to use some kind of blackmail to get the government to leave el alone.

call her jane all you want, doesnt change the fact that she always has been and always will be el.

i think ive moved past that ending and then i see something that makes me realize i will never move on. i am nina, still at the train station, waiting for el to get the ending she deserved.

i feel like bylers shouldnt be allowed to talk about mike.

el’s ending just gets more and more fucked the more i think about it.