Abnormal

If there is anything I hate is probably falling. Whether its falling physically, falling when the world is against you, or falling for someone. In the end, it always ends negatively.

Why do I find it hilarious at times that when one says if anyone ever needs anybody. They will be there for them, yet when that one person actually does need someone. They all of a sudden do not exist or no where to be found.

I guess I lost her due to me having the fear of losing her.

The way she has with get words. So deadly it can shatter me within seconds. She managed to do that. Know and feeling how she feels it what manages to kill me even more. I see that she still has a lot more things to say to me but she rather have them not said. Honestly I wish I meant someone more important than how I see or feel. I wish I can regain my friendship with that one specific. She made me feel that the letter I could not survive alone. Made me use the amazing word of we to go through anything and everything. I wish the ride we had didn’t have to go through such a painful and horrible ending. She would make me feel so great, so safe, and so happy I wish that feeling would never end. I made the slips and mistakes. She could only take so much and I ended up doing much more than what was ever needed and lost one I know that can never be replaced.

I just hope the decision she made makes her happy, honestly don't care what happens to me at times. I wish there was a better outcome but things must come to an end.

Song of the evening/day Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down

Sleep, come to me don't leave me here all alone. When you try to sleep again but can't.

I guess I just figured myself out.