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I’m Pregnant

A phone call. That’s all it took to transform my life from that of a carefree youth to a reluctant adult with a basketful of responsibilities. The ringing phone threatened to disrupt the engaging show I was watching on TV. For a moment, I considered ignoring the call. A glance informed me the caller was someone I enjoyed talking to. “Hello,” I spoke into the phone. “Hi. How are you doing?” she…

Break My Heart Again

We both know the drill.

You text me.

You ask to see me.

I say yes.

The answer is always yes for you. It’s always the same place, some hotel, and the same time, lunch hour. You always want the same thing. So just like the venue and the time, the price never changes. We just settle on the day of the week.

I always get ready for our meeting because you are impeccable and I try to be too. For…

It’s Okay, Babe

I was ready with the excuses.

You don’t give me sex on demand anymore. You don’t do that thing you used to do to me in bed. You don’t shave your legs anymore. You don’t smile and perform happiness when you come home from work. The list of don’ts was long. And I was ready to unleash it as soon as you found out about him.

I thought I would be using this list sooner than I did. I don’t understand…

Grow Up And Kiss Someone Else

I see how you look at him.

Lustful you.

I see how you want Philip to look at you. How you’re dying for eye contact so that he can finally see all those feelings you carry for him. Feelings that are wearing you down and that you don’t want to carry around anymore. Feelings that you are aching to pass over to him so that he can feel a little bit of the weight too. It’s only fair, isn’t it? You…

I’ll Cry For You Tonight

I wake up ready to face the day.

My eyes are a little bit swollen, but a splash of ice-cold water will fix that.

After my face bravely takes the freezing water on the chin, I’ll go in for a shower. I’ll sing in the shower even. I’ll have my breakfast, pack my lunch, and head out to work. In the office, I’ll haunch my head over my computer and focus on work. I’ll ignore the whispers and the…

I Can’t Leave My Husband

They say that the script goes like this.

Stage one, you get married.

Stage two, you are happy and even believe that marriage is the best thing you could ever have done with your life.

Stage three, you have babies. Those adorable cute angels.

Stage four, love fizzles out and your husband starts cheating on you. Or you start cheating on your husband, whichever comes first.

Stage five, after…

Ten Minutes of Incorrect

I need to be stopped.

Because it could happen.

I could be minding my own business. Wearing my mask, sanitizing, and washing my hands as frequently as possible, you know, keeping COVID at bay? I could be going the extra mile to social distance, and then it could happen.

One of these days, I could fall in love with you. And this is not a thought I care to entertain.

This script is not new to…

You warned me.

And I’ve been thinking about you.

You said, this is not the man you want to love. This is not the man you want to announce to the world loves you. This is not the man you want to take home to mum and dad. This is not the man you want to have a child with. This is not your man. You said.

You took a day out of your life to sit me down and list the number of things that made you…

You should pay attention more.

Because if you did, you’d notice what’s happening here.

You’d see how my skin crawls when you touch me. I bet you haven’t noticed my mm-hmm’s when you’re busy fabricating a lie. I’m agreeing with you. Right. I get insulted that your lies are so blatant. You don’t lie well. You don’t give me your best lies. Don’t I deserve your best lies, at least? You insult my…

The Letter That Stayed In My Purse

Dear Me,

Can you hear the music playing?

That’s good music right there, won’t you agree?

The band is called Mafikizolo. The song playing at this moment is called Love Potion. The song that will play after this one is Ndihamba Naweby the same band. When this song starts to play, the crowd will stand up and look towards the door expecting you to approach the altar. At the altar will stand a man…

Tell Them How Much You Love Me

I’ve wondered sometimes.

That if I left you, wouldn’t my life be better, much better than it is right now?

That today, this very day, if I looked at my image in the mirror and told myself, “Woman, you’ve had it. You deserve better. Enough, woman, is enough,” if I convinced myself to leave you and get myself a better marriage with a loving, non-cheating man, I’ve wondered, wouldn’t happiness find…

I Will Leave My Wife For You – Part 4

Ceiling.

I’m lying in bed. Facing up. Staring at it. Willing it to give me the answers I need.

I can hear my wife in the shower. The running water is all the sound I hear. This is unusual because the running water always performs a duet with my wife’s singing voice every morning. Not today. The water is singing, but my wife is mute.

And it is my fault. I killed her music.

I don’t know what I…

I Will Leave My Wife For You – Part 3

What is the place of truth in an affair?

Is there a place for truth in an affair?

How about in a marriage?

Because as Christina looks at me with tears in her eyes and with the realization that I have been cheating on her, I know for a fact that truth will not leave my lips tonight. How is truth supposed to sit with this thing that you and I have?

I’d rather be sleeping if you ask me. It’s been…

I Will Leave My Wife For You – Part 2

Up to this minute.

I have been a good husband.

That’s what I tell myself. Because that’s what I believe. And to believe this even more, I send my wife more flowers. For the past year, I’ve sent her flowers numerous times. Sometimes every week. For every smile that I’ve shared with you, for every joke that you have told me that I have laughed at, for every ride to college I have given you, and…

I will leave my wife for you – Part 1

I didn’t plan this.

When we took our vows, I did not take them with the intention of breaking them. I was a man so in love with my wife, I did everything my wife asked of me. On our wedding day, when she slipped this ring on my finger and I did the same on hers, I was done. That was it. Dating was behind me.

Our love story was to segue ever so smoothly from that point when we exchanged rings to…

I’m Sorry

I started to write a letter to you the other day.

I thought I was ready.

So I powered up my computer and flexed my fingers ready to start typing.

I knew what I wanted to say. I had given the letter a title. I’m sorry. It was an apology letter. Naturally, those are the first words I typed. I’m sorry.

And soon as I typed the Y in sorry, tears started to flow down my cheeks. I couldn’t stop…

I Love You, I Should Gouge Your Eyes Out

The last thing I want is to be away from you.

The last thing I need is for you to walk out that door and close it behind you.

I’d rather you sit with me for a minute. Look at me. See the tears in my eyes. Wipe them with your hand. Draw me to your chest and hold me there until my sobs subside.

Then pull away from me.

Take both my hands in yours and hold them tight. Make me feel like you will never…