Words are not easy to use; like paint on a canvas, it’s easy to apply them, but if they aren’t blended, the picture remains unclear. I have been told that I don’t truly know someone because of my word choices. Words that lead to confrontation can strain even the strongest relationships. Did I not do a good enough job as a partner? I’ve managed to make my loved one feel misunderstood and distant, which makes me question my communication skills. My love feels like it's in jeopardy, and I want to repair and make amends.

The journey of love is no simple trip; it’s full of speed bumps and challenges. I’ve come to the conclusion that I may not be fit for relationships. I tend to push my loved ones away out of fear of disappointment and pain. Hurting those close to you is far worse than a simple prick from a sharp tack. The pain may be small, but it’s impactful—just like the words we choose to say. My heart is broken, and my confidence is shattering. It feels as if my words have been ripped from my throat. I’m lost and alone because I struggle to learn how to love someone properly and show them true love and affection.

It's sad to realize that I’ve found love, but it’s slipping away, sinking like a ship in the sea. As this ship sinks, so does my hope for my relationship. I feel like I’m the only one drowning, while poor choices and ego cloud my thoughts. I wonder how someone who seems so cold can manage to love so softly and smoothly, yet I continue to belittle the one person I hold dear. I constantly fail, to the point where I don’t love myself enough to share happiness with others. I find it difficult to express my feelings and often shut down.