((OOC: this isnt canon but you can respond to this if you want, its after an argument with susie kris and noelle.))
Thatās the worst part. I know I was right.
Susie couldnāt answer me. Noelle couldnāt answer me. Kris just looked at me like Iād done something horrific and walked out.
So I won the fight, didnāt I?
I donāt need them anyways. Iāve never needed them. Iām perfectly capable of entertaining myself. My ponderings are far more intellectually stimulating without three people constantly interrupting them, actually.
Noelle has Kris and Susie now.
Kris has Susie and Noelle now.
Susie has Kris and Noelle now.
Iām smart. Iām useful. Iām entertaining. Iām accomplished. People ought to WANT someone like me around.
So why don't they, Berdly?
No. Obviously not. She says moronic, and utterly idiotic things when she's angry.
āBeing around you sucks.ā
It shouldnāt bother me.
Maybe Noelle didnāt forget about me.
Maybe she just stopped having a reason to remember.
Weāve been friends for years.
She only noticed after a month without me.
Why am I even thinking about this?
They left. Good. I wanted them to leave.
So why did some pathetic... part of me keep waiting for the door to open once again?
People have always found me annoying. Thatās hardly novel news.
āBerdly, nobody cares.ā
āBerdly, youāre annoying.ā
Maybe thatās all I am to people.
Not hated. That would almost be flattering. Hatred requires effort.
Just annoying enough that eventually it becomes easier not to invite me.
Easier not to notice Iām gone.
Easier to...
Tomorrow Iāll wake up, finish my work, play something, and everything will return to normal.
I really, really donāt.))
