broom-shaped pleasure

i am feeeeling like 100000 things at once. so overwhelmed lately with the absolute amount of feeling i feel and can sit with and appreciate. what a fucking beautiful and messy and disgusting life we are living. it feels silly to be 24 and saying this and yet i’ve never felt anything more in my entire life.

i’m feeling this ADHD everyone tells me i have lately, am i just convincing myself of it or has my brain always been this scrambled?

i am really thankful of the way i’ve come to know and understand consent. my time as a caregiver definitely helped with this- like just the basic important of consent when you’re touching another person’s body. the same goes for their space and their emotions- you can only go as deep as another person will consent, no matter how bad you want to know the depths of them. and im happy that my desire is strong, but i’m happier that i can recognize when someone’s put up their boundary. and those boundaries still hurt sometimes but i’m working on not taking them personally, because they have nothing to do with me.