The Oncoming Storm

Here’s the thing.

I read a lot of scripts.  A lot.  From professionals to aspiring writers to complete newbies.  Features and pilots.  Specs and treatments.

And 8 times out of 10 the fan fic that I’ve read over the last, oh, 15 years is leagues better than this stuff.  It’s more inspired.  It’s more compelling.  It’s genre bending and creative and heartfelt.  It’s well-paced and intense and funny and sexy and meaningful.  It’s smart and thoughtful and good.  It’s novel-quality.  Better than, sometimes.

Rare is the script I don’t want to put down, but how often have we stayed up until 3am to get to the last chapter of a 100k fic? And it’s not even a fan fic author’s day job.  This is what they do on the side.  In their spare time.  For free.

So my point is, fan fic authors, you’re good.  You’re good writers and great storytellers.  I know it doesn’t always feel like it, especially if you’re one of the authors who’s not a BNF and doesn’t get the notes/hits that a few do.  And  because some people still view fic as “not real writing.” You guys know the shit that gets made into movies.  You’re better than that.  So be better than that.  If writing is what you think want to do, then just know you’re already doing it.   You’ve already started.

*************** ATTENTION ***************

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Baekhyun and Jongdae’s faithful encounter at their SM Audition ಥ▽ಥ

Themes: fluff, love, family, soulmates AU, accidental marriage AU, strings of fate, memories, childhood bffs, minor angst

Pairing: husband!Junmyeon x fem!Reader

Description: Inspired by an anon’s AU Mashup Game request I received for the “accidental marriage” and “soulmates” AUs. At first you thought it began with a pact, to marry one another if you hadn’t discovered your soulmates by the time Sehun had his first kid. But as you uncovered more, you realized that it had begun – and would end – with Junmyeon.

Word Count: ~5000

A/N: Thank you @jenmyeons​ for helping me procure this wonderful (colorful) photo of Jun, as well as Jun himself for giving me the title for this fic (it’s a line from Self-Portrait). Otherwise, unedited, but what else is new?

• Notes. Reblogs, likes.. the part that I can honestly call “drugs”, if you pay enough attention to it. It sucks you in, I’ve been there, I’ve done that. Start comparing your stuff to other people’s stuff and so on. Good thing I have a best friend who hit me in my head and told me to snap out of it. You can’t feel how you’re one day making it all for fun and another day you’re waiting for videos to gif asap just to get notes. Conclusion: not worth it. Make it if you want to make gifs, fanarts, video edits and so on. This platform is to enjoy, not compete. There’s a good reason why a lot of people hang out here, there’s a good reason you can’t see the followers count. 

• Following/Unfollowing. Follow who you want to follow. Your dashboard is the content you want to see. Mutuals for a long time and they started posting something you don’t want to see anymore? Unfollow them, no big deal, if they want to keep in touch, they will. I’ve dropped a lot of people like this, I’m usually not the one to reach out, really not after the shit I’ve been through because of this type of drama, but the guilt you feel when you unfollow a mutual or a friend just because you don’t like their content in general or anymore. Conclusion: tumblr is based on putting out content and sharing it. Your blog - your rules. 

• Blocking/Unblocking people. Now this is a very sensitive topic to a lot of people. I’ve blocked people, because they were mean to me or mean to people I care about. A lot of them. I block people for a reason, if they talk shit about my friends directly to me, well bye, you’re showing how much you respect others and I don’t like this kind of attitude. I’m not saying I’m the saint one here. People talk about people, that’s what we all do at the end of the day. I’ve been blocked by people because they didn’t like me, because I’m saying too much, because I’m random, because I’m “pain in the ass on tumblr for them”. Do I give a f*ck? Honestly, if I had no problems in my real life outside of this site, I maybe would give a shit about them. Now.. that’s what I tell all the time. If you don’t like me or my content - block me, no need to tell me your opinion. I’ve seen people who turned from “I love your work” to “you’re entitled, get a life”. Hurts? If it’s a person I know, yeah, hell yeah it hurts. If not then, well good for them. In the end, if you want to block someone, just do it. Some people will hate, some people will ignore it, some people will say “f*ck you” and forget it after a while. Conclusion: once again, it’s your blog, if you block people.. well that’s it. You have your reasons, move on. For the blocked people - feel however you want to feel and move on. Both of you, the person who blocked you and the blocked person, you’re not worth each other’s time, so why waste it. 

• Tumblr drama. It starts with one of the few reasons mentioned above. Notes, follows, blocking, I could add feedback too, but this is another world of “you treat me badly because you don’t care about me and my work so I’m gonna be pissed about it”. Other than that, addressing tumblr drama here is important to me. I just.. somehow happened to be in the middle of it. With a whole lot people. I don’t know how it became like this, but it’s another people I’ve kept only few people close to me when moving blogs. I was afraid of it. It hurt me a lot of times. That’s why I turned my chats off here. I’ve thought a lot when writing this part of this post and the only thing I can say about this, is stay away from drama. It’s a waste of your time and energy. The things I learned in a year.. this community is toxic for all of these reasons. However, not all people are bad, that’s why I try to think like them for a second when they say mean things or say shit about me or others. Just to try and feel how they are feeling at that moment. Conclusion: Tumblr is irrelevant kindergarden for teenagers and adults. Stay away from this part and if you see someone abusing you, telling you what to do, saying mean things or something like that - block them. 

but on a more serious note, never have i ever read anything as accurate as this in my whole entire life. some of yall really need to reevaluate your tumblr life for your sake and for the sake of everyone else as well. i’m sick and tired of seeing grown people who have actual jobs, actual priorities, etc making petty posts and indirecting other people. and even going as far as to ‘spilling tea’ to other people who have nothing to do with what’s even happening. it doesn’t help and it’s honestly childish as hell.

and to think the majority of things like this start off because someone was blocked or because another person got more notes than you. for starters, why else do you think the block button exists? just for the shits and giggles? no, it exists for people’s comfort and their safety. so if need be, use it. and in regards to the notes, some of yall need to stop acting as if the one who gets the most notes gets to go for dinner with the queen or somet,, like ? they ? dont ? matter ?

i understand frustration in regards to reblogs and i’ve been there, we all have. it’s a valid sense of frustration. but even then, that doesn’t give you the right to go make someone else feel like shit about it and blame them for you not getting attention on your posts.

reading all this honestly makes me laugh because the level of pettiness is just pathetic, like i can’t take some people seriously at all when they do things like this. like sending death threats, bullying, ganging up on someone because of notes? that ain’t it sis and youre a joke if you think youre a big man for doing somet like that.

i hope this sinks in for the people who desperately need it to because, even though right now it might not feel like it, you will regret it and you will want to kick yourself for all you’ve done i swear.

It turns my stomach with how people are treated in the editing world. I’m thankful I only do picture edits and not gifs bc of the hell I would have to go through. I know several people that are bullied everyday, get horrible hate anons (bc you are so weak you cant send one under your own name). I know a few that have stopped editing bc of it and a few now that have anxiety making them bc they know what kind of hate they will receive.

Do you not get that you are hurting someone, making them feel so low that one of the things they loved is now hurting them? Do you not get that your actions are disgusting and that you can cause them actual physical pain? People kill themselves over cyber bullying, we have seen idols take themselves out bc of the hate they have received. And what’s worse is that you’ve ‘mourned’ their loss, that you said how horrible someone was treated this way. When you, YOU are doing it yourself! Everytime my friend tells me about the hate she receives I mentally pray that she doesn’t hurt herself bc of it. That I’m beyond thankful that she has continued to keep her head up, continued to make the art that she loves. And still to this day offers help to others in making edits.

You started creating content bc you loved this group, that you had fun when making it and wanted to share your love with others. Love..not Hate. Stop it, stop being vile, stop being the reason someone is crying, stop being the reason someone leaves the fandom as a whole.

i left this blog for good, but i see the same stuff is still happening and i had to speak up. this seriously needs to stop. i was going to brush it off and just move on with my life, to keep my “peace” but peace right now is nothing but an imaginary concept when it comes to tumblr. especially when this place is filled with people that still keep acting like this is okay. 

tumblr is a platform where we all share the content we create, or the content we want to see. you want to make gifs? go ahead. you want to make fanarts? go ahead. you want to write stories? go ahead. you want to read? go ahead. the site offers all this for you, it works quite simple. if you like something, you express it. if you like doing something, you keep doing it. we’re all here to have fun, perhaps hone our skills in our own respective fields and to share content. fangirl over our idols. be updated of the latest news.

sounds good, right? and it is.

but the community is toxic.

i came here to tumblr to have fun, until one day it just isn’t that anymore. suddenly creating the content you want doesn’t feel the same anymore, or you no longer have freedom in your own blog. one way or another, people are gonna start sizing up one another, regarding content creator to another content creator and labeling them as either “more successful than me” or “less successful than me.” what you once did out of your passion, soon turns into competition.

notes start to become addicting. follower count starts to matter. things change, friends become threats, and things fall apart. it sounds childish, it sounds immature, however the painful truth is that these types of issues are prevalent and this type of mindset is spreading like a disease. i was gonna drop it, i really was. i never did like conflict, although i personally don’t mind when someone “hates” me because thats how you see me, i cant control that. im not gonna start pointing fingers and start labeling people as good guy bad guy. but i had to speak up because the result of all this envy and greed and mindless competition with one another has started to hurt people. that’s right, people are hurting others and saying these unnecessary words all because of what? notes? followers? blocking/unblocking? just sharing content, in general?

notes dont mean you suddenly become better than anyone. followers dont mean you get to have more power or influence, those people just want to see more from you. stop using “mutuals” to establish the connections you need to get where you want. the block button exists for people’s safety, comfort, and privacy. people share content because they want to. thats just it. this isnt a paradoxical epiphany. 

im not gonna try and make myself look like a saint when i know im not. i’ve had my fair share of becoming the toxic person in the community, such as shaming other writers and nitpicking everything they do. i thought that it was fine, because my environment told me it was fine. i was new, i was young, i was gullible. i thought it’s okay to be indirectly mean, this is what writers really do. and i hated myself for that. i hate how i had started to become like the rest of the people, but then i realized: why do i have to be friends with someone in order to treat them decently? why was this mindset engraved to me by this place, where all malicious acts have started to become acceptable because “its a dark world out there”? 

when you know the world is bad, the answer isnt to just go with the flow because this type of treatment have become so common that we have fooled ourselves into thinking we have to hurt one another just to “survive.” this aint the hunger games. 

the truth is, a lot of people here think kindness has to be earned. that treating someone respectfully has to be earned. that somehow people have to work hard in order to be deserving of being treated as an equal. why do we think this way? why must we disassociate ourselves from one another, creating roadblocks and ridges? why is there so much hate, drama, and conflict?

thats not how it should be.

people really need to mind their own business. im not saying to push people away and live in solitary. it means that you have enough common sense and basic human morality in which you let people do whatever they want on their blog. let them create the gifs they want. let them write whatever they want. let them move blogs if they want to. let them take hours to respond or unfollow you or block you, because at the end of the day, it’s their blog. why do someone’s actions bother you so much? especially when that someone isnt even trying to do anything remotely harmful to anyone? theyre just doing what they want on their own blog. thats their blog. 

and its really not that hard to unfollow or block someone. dont like what im posting? click the button, barely takes a second, and it’ll save the both of us some despair. im not gonna mind, we can still be friends and im not gonna go around bawling my eyes out because a mutual decided they didnt wanna see my stuff anymore. its simple, its easy, its not rocket science. 

so then why do people have to make it so hard? 

tumblr was supposed to be a happy content sharing platform, but the people have turned it into some warzone where its either kill or be killed. in simpler words, its just a race on whoever gets the more notes or followers or whatever. i never even saw it that way. writing to me was not a race, it was a passion. this isnt some sort of marathon. i have my journey, you have yours. in the end we’re all just doing what we love. its as simple as that. theres nothing more to it. 

understand that youre not better than anyone, and neither am i. in the end, we’re all just content creators. its really not that hard to mind your own business.

so its downright unacceptable that several others have experienced online harassment all for this stupid thing. yall need to get yourselves checked. tumblr isnt a race, its not a competition, its a platform where we’re all supposed to express ourselves freely and enjoy the fandom. dont become someone who kills someones passion, thats not any less worse than killing the person themself. this is a real, tyrant issue that never stops. whats the point of becoming a great content creator when your personality says otherwise? 

this is why i left my blog. i wanted a better environment for not only myself, but my readers, and friends as well. is it a crime to want that? no, so i dont owe anyone an explanation, i couldn’t care less if people start blocking me or sending me hate. is that what you wanna do? alright then, thats your blog, thats your thing.

but im tired of this tumblr drama. i dont have the energy to waste my time on this. so many good things are out there in the world waiting to be loved and appreciated. i came here for content, thats all there is. i dont care about anything else because this was supposed to be a harmless website and also because i have an actual life i focus more on. do yourself a favor and free yourself from your own negativity and all this childish nonsense. 

so just stop this madness, okay? stop hurting others for your own greed. stop harassing anyone because youre envious. stop sending rude anons. stop pretending to be friends with anyone because you know they can give you this popularity you oh so crave like a starved man. stop messing with others and looking down on people who were just minding their own business. stop playing the victim role when you have no idea of the damage youve done. stop saying you want to be treated the way you treat others because you think youre so perfect. if i treated you the way you treated others, you would beg me to stop considering the lack of respect people have here. but i wont do any of that, because im not wasting my time on it. i still have a long way ahead of myself, so many things i still have to learn and experience. i still have an actual life to tend my matters to.

im just gonna move on and have fun with my friends, because thats how it should be. we have fun, we share love, not drag each other down out of hate. i mind my own stuff, you mind yours. im not gonna do anything else because this is nature. nature has a natural state of equilibrium where all things fall into place. with every action, there is either a consequence or a reaction. theres no need for me to make this worse than it already is or make anyone pay for hurting and using my friends because everything you’ve done will find its way back to you. hence the not so conundrum of causality.

many of you will immediately label me as an enemy, but thats not my point. im not fighting anyone. im not trying to hurt anyone. im sharing a conjectural statement in hopes people finally gain back their devoid sense of humanity. so again, mind your own business, get a life, and start being nicer. whether its someone you label as inferior or superior, kindness knows no limits.

and i would rather be a kind person than a popular content creator.

in addition:

leave my friends alone. leave my readers alone. leave other content creators alone to their own lives. and again, leave my friends alone, irregardless of their status here. they are good people whom i care about, good people who deserve their happiness and freedom. had it just been me that went through this, i wouldnt have minded. but involve my friends into your own toxicity, and i wont hesitate to speak up.

i know i had also fallen into bad habits, which is why im no longer letting anyone influence me to brush away my morals because i need to be “stronger.” that being nice will only hurt me. whatever people do, thats not my business anymore. theres no need to shame other people for their own success. 

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