The Original Fifi

|| The Red Latte ☕️. . . . A tea disguised as coffee. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #Breakfast #RedLatte #Latte #honey #menu #muggandbean #breakfastmenus #lifestyle #tea #tealovers #instablogs #lifestyleblogger #wednesday #southafrican #Southafricanblogger #shotoniphone #vscofood #vscoedit #vscofilter #places #spaces #aesthetics (at Mug & Bean At Menlyn) https://www.instagram.com/p/B21dC8vgoAf/?igshid=1owf3ziausxcu

"Tea leaves Tea loves Loves tea Lives tea Leaves tea? Never.” -Uniek Swain 😌🍵 #TeaLover (at East Side 👑)

I've been trying to find the words to tell you what losing you meant to me, I think this is the closest I could come. Its all still strange to me even though I know you are no longer here I still find myself waiting on your text message to share a moment in your life with me or a phone call to ask where I am because you long to see my face. Now how the tables have turned, how I will forever long to see and feel your face in my hands. If find it to be a blessing that I spoke to you on that fateful day because looking back I see we said goodbye but never how I imagined it. You said see you later homie and I said the same to you but never did I think it would be in the literal sense of you leaving to meet our father. Later, I will see you later my friend, when this later will be I will never know but I know it will come to happen and  when it does oh how excited will I be to see you because as you would say "Ro rasa!" My nigga, you are forever. In my heart is where I will carry you because heaven could certainly not wait for you. They are blessed to have you up there and we were blessed to have known even the fraction of the being you were. Baddie K. Forver and ever my friend👭 💜🌸🌻🌼 #2015 x #04 × #20 ⌛ (at In My Heart 💜)

There's something about a good meal accompanied by great wine and scintillating conversation...... #FoodDiaries #TBT (at Tashas Brooklyn Design Square)

Eat Clean 🍏 Set Goals 📑 Train Hard 👟 Stay focused 😐 Don't give up 🙅 #Lifestyle #Health #Fitness #Nike (at Virgin Active Health Club Hatfield)

The Boy - Benji 😬😍 #MCM Man Crush Everyday 😊. Urgh my nephew is EVERYTHING. 😋😙 #LoveLivesHere ❤

“you tried to change didn’t you? closed your mouth more tried to be softer prettier less volatile, less awake but even when sleeping you could feel him traveling away from you in his dreams you can’t make homes out of human beings someone should have already told you that and if he wants to leave then let him leave you are terrifying and strange and beautiful something not everyone knows how to love.” — Warsan Shire, For Women Who Are Difficult to Love Because love begins with you Love lives within you Never doubt it Enjoy yourself ✌|| ❤|| 😊 (at The Road to Self Discovery ✌)

I hope I’m not asking for much. Just to be loved. Is it too much though? I know I’m not perfect, split at every possible end, fractures on every bone, bleeding from every pore but still all I ask is to be loved. To be loved by anyone but especially by you. Be the medicine to my healing , the sanity to my madness the life to my dark dusty soul. Look beyond the displeasures I present forth to you and see me for what I could really be, a beauty so magnificent with the world possibly at her feet. Love me because I love you I see you, I see beyond you, I see who you are to be so can you please do the same for me? So still I ask you, am I asking for too much? Just to be filled with life To have the glow of the sun reflect off my skin To have all the emptiness in me complete To just be loved By a being like you Is it still too much?

Nothing in life is guaranteed but that doesn't mean you shouldn't stop trying trying to get what it is that you want....

- and this is the life that has been given to me, release me from it cause I truly can't.

I've touched base with myself....I've learnt and this I'm OK with. I know I said it was all premeditated, broken glass and all but the bleeding cuts still can't help but hurt... Given my past I honestly thought this would all be easy just a simple walk in the park....I've lied to myself... Looking back now that "leap of faith" was all in vain cause look at how it all played out I mean I can only count the good that came out of this all on one hand... Everything else? Let's not even open that door... But now that the end credits are over all I know is I've come back to myself, belongong deeper to myself than ever before One thing I know better than anything, one thing I can never go wrong with but still I say thanks for letting me know parts of you that will forever remain a mystery to those who've only ever stood outside the window...