Sam // Helios

Hey yall, you can call me Sam :D Or Helios, whichever you'd prefer !!

If you know me IRL, shhhh, go away, you saw nothing here

Heres all the things about me:

‼️ Anti-censorship ‼️

Link to our PluralSpace:

Link to a post introducing everyone:

PLEASE send me asks, I'll answer pretty much anything, especially questions about my* system!

(I say mine because I'm the original (starwalker /ref) and its mostly just me on this account)

Pronouns: He/Him, It/Its, Xe/Xem

Identity shit: Panromantic, Aegosexual, Esthesiosexual, Transgender, Fox and Corvid Therian, Fae Otherkin

Divergences of the neuro: AuDHD, Severe Anxiety, cPTSD, OSDD, OCD, and Major Depressive Disorder

TWs for my blog: I swear a lot but it doesn't mean I'm upset, neither does all caps, I may post an occasional vent but I'll tag them as such, mentions of suicide or self harm in a non-mocking but joking context

Things I'd prefer to avoid/not interact with for my own sake: SH/EDs, SA, RQs

Hobbies:

I love writing, drawing, D&D, Magic: The Gathering, Minecraft, and watching YouTube (I love watching Waligug, AmbiguousAmphibian, and MagicTheNoah among other people)

Fandoms:

Twenty Øne Piløts (I fucking love twenty one pilots please talk to me about them ive been obsessed for 8 years)

Hermitcraft (Watching Grian, Mumbo, Etho, Tango, Impulse, Skizz, Scar, and Joel)

Indie Games (Favorites of all time include Chants Of Sennaar, Spiritfarer, Superhot: Mind Control Delete, and Unraveled/Unraveled 2)

Feel free to @ me in stuff or follow me, my main rules for moots are just:

Dont be shitty (racist, ableist, transphobic, etc)

Try to use tone tags, or at least something like lol or xd to signify a positive emotion :D

If you mainly post discourse thats for the sake of being upset, I probably wont interact with you/might block you. I dont want syscourse, shipcourse, kinkshaming, or any other non-constructive negativity or conflict.

Tags:

#TheoreticallyFunny (Stuff I find funny I suppose)

#TheoreticalReblog (Any post thats not mine)

#TheoreticalShitposting (Shitposts)

#TheoreticalPosting (A post that is mine but that is not a shitpost, like a genuine thing)

#ITARTTHGAWBTØP? (Is that a reference to the hit Grammy award winning band twenty one pilots?) (TØP posting)

#TheoreticalWritings (Writing, poems, etc)

#TheoreticalGameReview (If I finish a new indie game ill post what I think about it here)

#TheoreticalExtraShit (Stuff that fits none of these)

3: Thoughts on integration?

I am opting out of this question lol

4: Are you or any of the others in a relationship in or out of the system? How does dating work for you if you do it?

No one is dating that I know of within the system, and we dont date very often outside of it, but our syscovery and sort of getting to know ourselves has happened very recently to the point where we havent had any partners for a long period since then, so I guess we'll see (if we ever end up dating aomeone else #arospec)

5: How often do you switch? How often do you lose time? Talk a little about what dissociation is like for you.

On a good day where we have low stress, minimal responsibility, and very little human interaction, we probably switch 2-4 times, while higher stress or just on occasion we switch anywhere from 8-15 times. Amnesia is greyout between all alters and blackout with our delusion holder, so it makes things pretty difficult but not impossible. I feel really bad about it, but it gets in the way of our friendships and other relationships because no one believes we just lose time like we do, and most of the time we cant explain it.

Who knows about your system? Who do you want to know? What do you feel like it’s like coming out as multiple?

(Yes I know weve got osdd and not did but shh I want to do it)

Day 1: Describe your system. What kind of system, how big, anything you feel is a good introduction.

We're a traumagenic OSDD-1b system with 12 active headmates! Theres 8 brainmades, 3 fictives, and 1 Introject. I've got a post already thats everyones names, so I'm not gonna bother typing that all out.

The first and only time I cried about my cat,

I was sitting on my couch alone.

I had just gotten home from my friend's house,

I was there because I would've broken down if I was by myself,

And I had been trying to ignore the problem.

But that was much harder when

I was sitting on my couch alone.

And I couldnt breathe.

Every time I sobbed it was a scream,

And I couldnt stop it.

I was sitting on my couch alone,

And I realized just how alone I really was then.

I felt like I was suffocating.

My parents were outside burying him,

My sister was with them,

And I couldn't face it.

I was sitting on the couch alone.

I had stopped myself from crying by the time my family came inside.

I needed to cry more,

I still do, still feel it in my chest,

But I stopped myself anyway.

And now when I go downstairs,

Every time I'm in my living room,

I can only think about the time that