body and fitness goals

I've been pretty quiet on here since Covid. I stopped really intentionally trying to eat well and work on my fitness goals because, of course, it was just going to be two weeks.

So.... Five years later, here we are with a brand new high weight and some fresh goals.

~~Updated 7/18/25~~

High weight: 245lbs (February 2025)

Current weight: 219lbs

Starting measurements: Bust 49" Waist 41" Hips 49"

Current measurements: Bust 44.5" Waist 37" Hips 45"

Weight Goal #1: back under 200lbs

Non-Weight Goal #1: fit back into size 12-14/L pants

My weight loss method this go-around is tracking only. So I'll be tracking everything I eat and weighing/measuring all the portions, but I'm not trying to hit any particular calorie goal or macro target.

This method tends to work well for me because I get big FOMO from feeling like I can't have or do something, and I get hyperfocused on food when I feel like it might run out or be limited. I did try to work on those things in therapy, but either the therapist didn't understand my goals or I didn't know how to explain it right so it didn't get fixed.

So far it's working well. I weighed myself to get the high weight on Feb 6, so it's been just over 2 weeks and 8lbs down. I've done this before, so I know this initial weight loss will slow down for sure, but tracking my portions really has highlighted for me how much I've been overeating and how missing breakfast (usually from sleeping in) gives me more food cravings later in the day.

The big learning so far is how to tell the difference in my body between "tummy empty" and "am hungry now". I'm more conscious of the feelings of satiety and when I've eaten enough.

That said, I'm consistently fitting into things a size down that I haven't been able to wear comfortably for a long time (years?) so I know my body composition is changing even though the scale isn't moving.

If my body wants to stay here for a while, that's just fine. Our bodies are meant to push us toward homeostasis, so to me this is part of the natural process. Fighting through the plateau is fighting biology, and that never really works out well.

One thing I've noticed recently is that my stomach no longer feels like it's in the way when I do forward folds in yoga. I don't remember exactly when it first started, but I do remember there was a time when I couldn't bend over as much as before because of my stomach. It feels nice to get a full fold again.

My mom also commented that my pants fall different from my hips now. I prefer looser pants, and the drape has really changed over time.

This month I've been around 221-222 and I'm hopeful that by the end of the month I could possibly get below 220.

This milestone in particular feels weird to me because this is what I thought I weighed when I hit my high weight. I never would have guessed I was even 20+lbs higher!

I'm in my last 3 meetings with my coach, and I'm really thinking about what comes next. I love the accountability, so I might look into other options to continue coaching.

The weather has been warmer so I pulled out a dress I got last year. With larger arms and a larger bust, I bought a XXL to be safe since some of my XL shirts were starting to fit tighter.

At this point, I can wear it but there are huge gaps when I move. It's clearly too big for me, and it's even roomy in the arms.

It's still super comfortable so I'll definitely keep it, but it's going to be a house dress that I don't wear out.

Weight update for this month~

(should have been for this week, but I guess I didn't update it last time I had the 3 month follow up with my coach)

I'm at 224.6 and have been here for.... nearly the entire month of May. Unlike the last few times my weight has plateaued, this time my body measurements have also stayed pretty much the same.

I've been tracking with Fitbit mostly because I have their scale and it's nice to be able to bluetooth my data, but I'm looking for something else.

I'm thinking of going back to MFP for convenience because I remember they had a much easier method for tracking and it was easier to modify things if the data in the app wasn't accurate.

The biggest issue I have with Fitbit is how clunky and inflexible the app is. With all the shrinkflation happening, it's a bit frustrating when a food has changed by a few ounces so the calories in the app are no longer accurate.

Plus now it's at its end of life and I don't really want my data attached to my Google account. I know Google already knows everything about me, but it's the principle of the thing, you know? They should have to steal it underhandedly like everyone else instead of me just giving it to them.

I was sick for much of last week, so I wasn't expecting much to have changed on the scale.

Current weight: 227.6lbs