Dating in the time of COVID
First week of February - Had a short trip to Jakarta with my cousin. Met a traveller from Taiwan. Had conversation. He seemed kinda interested. Yes. In that way. Gave me his email. Sent an email. We exchanged profile details on social media. Started talking. And talking. Since I don’t want how uncertain i’ve been feeling, and since Valentine’s is coming up, I told myself i’m going to ask him questions about his intention and why are we talking. His answers aren’t what i’m looking for. Expressed my dilemma to BJ. He said I shouldn’t invest time on someone if I see no possible future. And because he’s not making his intentions clear... I decided i’d stop it and whatever illusion i might be having at that point. Which led to BJ installing Bumble to my phone. And me using that app.
February 13 - First day at the app. Swiping. Conversations. Scheduled two dates. One date cancelled. First date on Feb 15 with a law student at Ludo’s. Thought it would lead to something. It didn’t. I was sad about it at the time. But i was able to move on pretty quickly. Been asked into 3 more dates. Said yes. To take off my mind out of frustration. And just because I can. More swiping. Convos here and there. Nothing that memorable.
The following week - All of my dates got cancelled. Several times. Not the best time because of work. Because of traffic. All valid reasons. I was pissed. At this point I didn’t care anymore. It felt like it was a game. I was detached. I just wanted to get it over with. Still swiping. Still having conversation.
February 21 - Friday. Butterfly night-out with work friends. And then suddenly, a date. With someone i’m not expecting. I somehow got tired because he cancelled not once but twice. He’s also pretty near as in Centris near. Initially thought he was just making excuses. At that time i wasn’t interested enough to care or even second guess. My goal was to be asked out and go on a lot of dates as much as possible. Because it was starting to feel like a game to me. This after just a week of using the app. Somehow I felt like the more i used it the more it all felt superficial. There’s also EJ trauma because I thought we had chemistry. Turned out we didn’t. Glad it ended that quickly. Phew.
