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"You know, I don't think I'll ever move on from my first love. It's been 2 years. Yet I feel the same way I did 2 years before."

And this just reminded me of my own first love. And how I still haven't forgotten her yet. It's not because we are still talking or something but simply because the space she occupies in my heart, will never be able to accommodate anyone else. It's made for her and only her.

And sometimes I feel guilty about it. Because I know that whoever I will love next, will never get that version of me. The one I gave to her. The one who wasn't scared to voice her love out loud. The one who always texted first without ever letting ego or even self respect get in the way. I was down bad for her. And the craziest part is, I would do it all over again if given a chance. I wouldn't waste a second thinking about it.

I would let myself love her again. And this time, I'll try to love her better. Try to correct any of the mistakes I made. I would look at her with all the love of the world and I would make it very clear that the only person I want is her.

I will leave no blurred lines between us.