RIGHT THIS WAY, PINK LASAGNA

Photo dump after not uploading for two years.

Came out as genderqueer.

Beat cancer into remission.

Moved states.

Fell in love even more with my partner.

Fell in love even more with this grand adventure.

Hoping everyone is staying safe out there.🧡

HAPPY PRIDE🏳️‍🌈🌈💕

A pretty face, a vague idea I can't relate

And this is get what you get for pulling pins

Out of the hole

Inside the hole you're in

It's like I'm perched on the handle bars

Of a blind man's bike

No straws to grab, just the rushing wind

On the rolling mind

Of every judgment

So cold by the sweat that

You'll waste away

And you carry your enemies

But they're so familiar

I'm sick of the company

So I cull the shame

And I know you'll say how I'm a burden

Yeah, do your worst, all at once

I know what you want from me, from me

I know what you're thinking, thinking

And it's not the voice of all the others

You've only said it to yourself

I know what you want from me, from me

I know what you're thinking

(They come to feel like things we're saying to ourselves)

It's an inch from my ears again

You should be sorry

A solemn man

A better song to fix my problems

I'm tired of your questioning

You're cut down too easily

And I don't know what's good for me

I can't decide

Somebody like the other bodies on my screen I adore

And if I got a little love from you, was it just my luck?

Or do you actually believe I'm someone you could look up to?

'Cause I never really saw it in me, I don't believe

That you could see it in me either, I think I'm a copy

And see, I'm terrified that I don't really know myself well

I get too influenced and in over my head, I can't tell

What's really me or really you, the lines are always a blur

I feel this pity deep inside me, I'm self conscious, it hurts

So I keep living out my dreams of meeting people I love

But I can't tell if they think I'm somebody worthy of trust

I always dreamed about these moments

Now they're actually real

But somehow, I'm stuck in my head and I don't know how to feel

When something good comes crashing into me, it's like I can't breathe

'Cause all I think about is when that good thing finally leaves

I'll pay whatever but I can't, I can't

You're just outside the Lovefield

I knock on wood, blow on eyelashes

Are we still good?

Okay, try again

These damn 11:11s don't seem to do anything

I wished again and again, I can't touch it, it's delicate

At this point, you're just talkin', talkin'

You'll start all over in the morning

Happy birthday, I'm so sorry (did I lead you on?)

It hurts for me to wait on you

I bet you're waiting on me too

Always almost never ever

Wish I could get it but I can't (I can't), I can't (I can't)

You're just outside the Lovefield

Every time I hang with you

Don't know what we're supposed to do

God, is this forever ever?

Cried when I left the city

Hand on my shoulder, I recoiled

Is the Lovefield really getting smaller?

I don't wanna be untouchable anymore

It'll be winter soon and I'll be Twilight pale

I'll get my license and we'll go to Florida

I'll drive the same amount

Does that sound okay to you?

I don't know what's come over me, but it feels unescapable

And I'm so hard to love, but I don't wanna be alone

And I know there's a part of me that's afraid of coming home

Let me down and let me go

'Cause I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know

Curling up, ball on the floor

'Cause I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know

Let me down and let me go

'Cause I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know

Curling up, ball on the floor

'Cause I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know