forever snoozing

why is it that every plus size retailer lately has so many god damn wrap dresses????

- i’ve been in a somewhat tumultuous relationship on and off ever since

- we are taking a break right now (kind of) because of where we are in our lives and are also non-monogamous now

- my mental health has been a fucking horrific rollercoaster as per usual with a real bad downward spiral rn

- i’m in my fourth year of university and am as lost as ever

- i’ve become even worse at communication with people (if that’s even possible lmao)

- i’ve gotten a lot fatter

- i pierced my nose

- i recently got most of my hair cut off and bangs making me look either 25 or 18 depending on the day (there is no in between)

- i have become obsessed with instagram to an unhealthy degree

- going off my last point, my self-esteem is actually at an all time low despite what i post on social media saying otherwise (oops)

- i’ve joined dating apps to not only try and find dates but also just friends in general (bc guess what- 2 years later and i still have barely any of those, big surprise)

- i found out that i’m actually awful at making friends and any kind of social interaction

- i actually feel like any and all personality i used to have is slowly draining away (is this from being on anti-anxiety/depression meds for so many years? who knows!!!)

- both my dog and cat have died

- i’ve moved house since and never fully unpacked 2 years in bc i’m actually garbage

- i’ve gone into debt

- i’ve worked at three different part-time jobs

- i still haven’t tried weed or any drugs

- i still sleep constantly bc depression (so still living up to that url i guess)