Welcome!

So yeah. Today’s episode is heavy. And I’ve been excited for it for a few reasons. Let’s talk about everything!

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First off: I was allowed to direct this episode, and that 3 minute segment of Joy inside her mindscape was directed/edited/planned out by me (with the help of 2 BAs - thank you Captain Sunny and Moonzy!). This was the first time I’ve ever directed anything ever + the first time I’ve ever edited something like that. I am insanely grateful for the opportunity and I am very happy with the feedback I’ve been seeing so far. There is a part 2, hopefully we will see it someday soon! I have been working on Joy and Mel’s lore for quite some time now, so I am more than thrilled to start being able to show them off some more.

As for the lore:

I need to make this part ABUNDANTLY clear for people, because it is important to me.

As Joy said: Joy and Mel worked in a hospice.

NOT a hospital.

Hospice is *very* different than hospital. It is something that is widely unknown about/undereducated about in the western world, and it is a topic that I am very qualified to speak about in real life.

Joy and Mel were designed to care for children who are on end-of-life care. Their location was an inpatient hospice facility; the purpose it served was to allow families to have a place for their children to receive specialized care at the ends of their lives. These children may have had incurable illnesses or disabilities that shortened their life expectancy; Joy and Mel were designed to care for children with intense medical and spiritual needs. They also offered respite services to give families/caretakers a break sometimes, but their main jobs were to assist children at the ends of their lives by making them comfortable whilst also creating a fun and nurturing environment.

The dream sequence segment had a *lot* of nuance/hidden meaning/layers to it. Every scene was symbolistic of something. It also showed a parallel that some of you may have picked up: the tune that Mel was humming…we’ve heard that somewhere before.

Mel went to maintenance…and started acting irritable? Something something brain fog…

Joy seems to…want to see the good in people, despite them having done horrible things. She seems to like to hold onto good memories, even at her own expense. Flaws are funny, aren’t they..

Sun meant well. But his bias of his own past experiences seems to be clouding his judgment.

I wonder who is lying. Is anyone lying? Mel said Joy harmed her, Joy said the opposite…but Mel said she wasn’t a murder but that she *almost* was, Joy recounted being nearly killed…

And…something about Joy wanting to rip her own chip out? Something about being overworked and unable to grieve…rock bottom…something…

Man.

Guess the full story still isn’t told.

OKAY WHY IS THIS ARC ACTUALLY PEAK THOUGH

Anyways onto the review!

I know I’m supposed to review the video in the order that things were brought up, but I frankly don’t care right now. SUN SAID IT OMG SHE FUCKING SAID IT SHE ADMITTED THAT SHE WANTED TO LEAVE MOON! SHE DOESNT EVEN CALL MOON A BROTHER EITHER SHE JUST SAYS “I should’ve stopped being Moon’s friend a long time ago.” NOT BROTHER, FRIEND.

ALSO THE FACT THAT SUN KNOWS THAT THE STATE OF MIND THAT JOY IS IN IS DESTROYING HER FROM THE INSIDE AND THAT SUN TELLS IT TO HER FACE!? PEAK JUST ABSOLUTE PEAK! Although Sun should’ve said it a lot nicer even though it came from a good place, it’s clear that Joy knows that somebody did something to Mel which is why she forgives her. She knows it’s not her fault. But Sun is right in the regard that Joy shouldn’t let herself be stuck in such a codependent mindset either. Sun has experienced it before. She knows that those feelings will destroy you. Which is why right when she hears about what Mel did to Joy, she immediately goes to insult her. Heck, she even says that Joy is the strongest person she knows! Which with her backstory is really fucking accurate! Was it right for Sun to say those things to Joy about Mel? ABSOLUTELY NOT! BUT MY GOD IS IT SATISFYING TO SEE SUN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT MOON IS A PIECE OF SHIT AND SEEING HER TRY TO SHOW JOY THAT WHAT MEL DID DOES NOT DESERVE FORGIVENESS!

Sun most definitely could’ve said it more nicely though.

I would like to mention the fact that right when Mel “died” she had everything thrown onto her shoulders. She couldn’t take a break. She couldn’t rest. If she did she would be scrapped which is exactly what was about to happen if it wasn’t for Dark Sun. She was running herself ragged but kept going for the children and so that she could stay alive. Not to mention, she had the hardest job in that hospital according to her. Which must’ve already been hell when it was just Joy and Mel working together. But with her by herself, I’m not even surprised Joy wanted to kill herself. After all, what does she have to live for? Mel? No, Joy thinks she’s dead. The children who were already halfway into their coffin? What’s the point if they’re about to die anyways? And the fact that she’s scared of heights makes it even worse. MEL FUCKING DROPPING HER SISTER MULTIPLE FEET OFF OF THE GROUND. The fact that she literally lied to staff to keep her sister safe makes it even sadder! Joy didn’t even want revenge! She didn’t feel any resentment either! She just wanted Mel to be okay! After all, without her she has nobody!

Sun talking to Dahlia and telling him that she knows what it’s like to be treated like that by a moon? No wonder why she said Mel should go screw herself! Sun literally said it to Dahlia’s face that the only difference is that her Moon didn’t try to kill her! Dahlia wants and needs Sun to acknowledge the fact that healing takes time and that everyone deals with it differently. Dahlia knows that Sun said those things about Mel because she cares about Joy and he just wants Sun to know that Dahlia also took years to get to where he is now with his trauma. Some healing takes longer than others. In all honesty, I expected Dahlia to get upset with Sun for what she said to Joy, but instead we got a way better outcome; understanding. Which just makes this video even better.

I would also like to point out a post that I made a few days ago on my ask blog.

My oc Soleil originally worked in a hospital as well which I find a really fun coincidence that I made him and Joy friends without us knowing that she also worked at a hospital at one point.

I’m definitely gonna be developing their friendship more because of this.

I drew a cooowboy, baaaby!

Moon: yeah I'm not gonna touch that

Moon why that fuck???! It so hilarious!!! Omg

Carmie out here almost breakdown and Moon just be like, I will pat his head from a far and then tell Sun later of how I handled the situation, I bet Sun will say I did such a good job

Bro sure feels good about himself with the way he constantly tells Sun about This is the lesson I learned

What lessons dude???? Your only lessons I see you constantly received is you fucked it up and then everyone else has to clean off your trash

Bro is defined of I don't care and it's too high of my paycheck and I actually see a little bit of Old Moon in him

Kinda like him this episode despite him being such a dick to Carmie

And I think it's a nice note how Carmine immediately stepped away from Sun the moment he heard Sun's voice....

Guess it triggered him back to his own Sun

Carmine: stay away from me

Sun: slowly step back ( I wonder if Sun saw a bit of Moon and Nexus in Carmie at this moment)

The episode is really the opposite. Usually it's Moon will go out the day and "try to save people". When Sun just does mere bare minimum and be real quiet

But this episode, Sun feels more tender with Carmie (look, I get whatever crumbs I can receive okay)

Also.... Sun Carmie is hilarious

It was supposed to be scary but I laughed!!!! My god who talks like that?????

Now I’m pretty neutral to characters and what not, what they do doesn’t really bother me tooooo much, unless it like reminds me of personal stuff. So when a character does something I don’t like I just brush it off or ignore it buttttttt Moon today…kinda sucked…?

Like Carme was literally having a panic attack and he doesn’t do anything to comfort him at all, he just told him to shut up cause that could get them caught. Like yea but you could at least be a little nicer man. I dunno, in all honesty I don’t know the best way to comfort people either but just telling them to shut up and like getting in their face is probably not helping at all, if anything getting right in their face would most likely make them panic more, it would for me.

Carme has clearly got some ptsd and trauma and I don’t know what the best way to help someone with that is but Moon just made me so upset and kinda uncomfortable? I guess? It just put a bad taste in my mouth.

On another note:

Uhhhh yea it’s not how it works.YOU MADE A DEAL!!!! YOU CAN’T JUST TAKE WHAT YOU TRADED BACK WHEN YOU DON’T LIKE THE CONSEQUENCES!!!!!