The thing that makes me feel sadder and frustrated about this, is that I’m not out to anyone, but people always seem to see it or wanting to get it out from me by just saying “I’m too shy, introvert or quiet” to be straight, and I despise it when that’s the only thing they can get from me, because I try really hard to show them I only need them to treat me and see me as a friend and as person for me to get comfortable with and around them.

I have never been “introvert” or “quiet” because of my sexuality, it is simply because ever since I remember, whenever I tried to be friends or get close with someone they always saw my sexuality as an obstacle for them to like me, even before I accepted and knew who I was; before I knew that loving and liking the same gender was not “normal” in our society.

And I have never truly showed or told people about it, but it is like not being able to cosplay or do the same things other boys do, has always give them a reason to point their fingers towards me and see me and my sexuality as threat or evil, and I have always tried not to hate myself for it but sometimes I just wish at least I could be able to pretend to be one of those toxic straight and stereotypical men, but then I’m at peace with the fact that I’ve never truly tried to be someone I’m not.

No suelo convivir o crear conexiones con toda persona que conozca, simplemente porqué siento profundamente cuando puedo, o no, hablar y entrar en confianza con alguien.