The Little Idiot That Could

I entered a relationship very shortly after my wife died. (Hi, I haven’t been on tumblr in years and I don’t remember if I shared this. My wife died. Nearly 3 years ago. By suicide.)

And I lost some people with her death. Some that I needed to lose and others just…fell away. People don’t know how to handle suicide. I get it. But it was all traumatic as fuck. And my dear friend became my main community and my support and my love and somehow she became the tourniquet that kept me from bleeding out, so to speak, and then covid happened and my communities just got smaller and smaller and smaller but she was there and and and…

We broke up last week and the pain of both losses is all hitting me at once. I didn’t have to be *fully* alone when my wife died because I had this friend and person who had seen me through the traumas leading up to her death. Someone who was there. And now I’m just…here…in my little house…in this city where I don’t have many people anymore…avoiding going home to “family” because fuck if I’m gonna have to be around THAT in addition to all these feelings.

Survivors of US internment camps and German Holocaust camps: this man speaks of doing evil that the world tries to avoid doing again please dont vote for him

half the GOP and some thrid party ppl: we really dropped the ball and let someone very non qualified into our party

LBGT Americans: this man will take away everything we worked for the past 50+ years