Healher’s Realm🦇

than my presence ever could

I thought I was loved

but I so misunderstood

my feelings swallow me whole

allowing no one to digest

I fall into a deep dark black hole

from the weight on my chest

I carry all of this brokenness

leaving me vexed

tears running down my face

as I sit in distress

lost at sea

without a life vest

self destructive soul

is this me at best

all I’ve ever known

is my heart being swept

your hand reaches out towards me

at my deepest of depths

I try to hold on

but I start to drift west

please don’t let go

please I’m wrecked

eventually you’ll leave

as I watch the distance grow

I water the roots of your stem

while I wither away in the snow

no sunlight, no water

I am deprived of what I need

yet I give and I give

while your thorns make me bleed

in brokenness I hold on

in hopes of what could be

the silence so strong

I already start to grieve

it hurts so immensely

I can barely even breathe

you’re guarded so tensely

we can’t even plant a seed

we could of grew together

instead you pluck me like a weed

the comfort of my absence

speaks louder than your voice

yet love doesn’t speak like this

there shouldn’t be a void

all I feel is empty

incomplete and confused

wandering in my head

why you treat me the way you do

I am to be chosen everyday

not just in convenience

I am bruised and bleeding

from a love that is misleading

I’m living out a nightmare

and I’m not even dreaming

my heads underwater

my last breath is screaming

as I look in your eyes

it makes the air thick

and the silence

louder than the voices in my head

leaving my heart at the pit of my stomach

creating a void in my chest

a constant and familiar feeling

a result of neglect

I know love

I’ve shown love

and still at lows I am left

when will I be enough

to be embraced

at every depth