Acting was the first time I had a positive identity, the first time I had done something that I suspected I might be good at. But every time I would have to go on stageâas soon as I heard the audience murmurâI would throw up. I blacked out, I literally didnât have a thought in my head. I thought, âMaybe this is my body telling me that I canât do this. But the idea of quitting was just so depressing. I mean, everybody around me said I had changed since I found this path. It made me come alive as a person. It was everything. I went into it obsessed, like my life was dependent on it, I did it for five shows, didnât stumble on a word. Itâs that moment that I was able to overcome that demon. Happy 41st Birthday, Joel Kinnaman! (November 25th, 1979)
