My Life Is Paign

hotel? Trivago

sometimes you don’t want to get out of bed. you don’t wanna move. just lay under the covers in the dark. you’re exhausted. you haven’t done anything, yet so tired. you just wanna give up. no more motivation. you lost the motivation day 1. you get so sick. you don’t care to eat you just want to sleep. sleep sounds way better. you just wanna be happy. you wanna be home. anytime you try to go to bed you either could sleep for days or weeks or just not sleep at all and that would be okay, too. you get paranoid over everything. everrrrything. you wake up and you’re anxious. you’re scared. you keep having these nightmares. you wake up shaking, crying and it’s hard to breathe. you thought this was gonna be “cool”, but you took the wrong turn a long time ago. you start losing weight cause you don’t wanna eat. the small things you used to enjoy, don’t even bring a smile to your face. you thought you were gonna meet great friends and have fun, yet nothings excited you. you’ve been scared to tell because everything’s already falling apart, what’s gonna change? you’re either always numb and empty or full of tears and you can’t stop it. you’ve faked a smile so long you feel like you just get better and better at it. you haven’t been able to accept this change since day 1. nothings been easy. you constantly struggle with the voices in your head. these thoughts are slowly killing you. so you start to believe everything is always going to be bad. keep overthinking you’re great at it. it’s usually 90% of the time you have your head down becuase you just don’t want to be here anymore and you feel everything / everyone would be better without you.

Guy wanted me to make him a queen-size blanket.

via @takemymuse