welcome,

I feel like such an idiot. Thinking everything is going great when in reality I’m constantly being hurt by the ones closest to me- my own family. Someone you think you know, you really don’t. I don’t know what I did to deserve this type of disloyalty. For someone to not give a fuck about me and my feelings when all I’ve ever felt was killing someone for crossing you. The way I care about people isn’t the way people care for me. Last time, I was locked up in a mental institution, so why is this happening to me again? Because deep down people only give a fuck about themselves. Fuck me and my feelings, right? Maybe I’ll go on a bender and finally succeed- my one thing right.