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I'm not sulking my leads didn't gave me a proper send off party. I wasn't expecting really, besides it not being my thing. But this unscripted, independently-prepared "send-off" from these people, made me let go of the tears I tried so hard to keep in. I was grounded and reminded na hindi ko kailangang makilala ng lahat to prove I was still good. These are the people I work with closely and evidently knows me more than anyone else in the organization. They know me not just the person who gets the work done but also that person na napapagod, napaparant, nanghihina rin when things go south. Those who knew me truly; the beauty and the horrors. And hearing how they appreciated me and the things I've done, is just more than enough to wash away my uncertainty to leave.

Apparently, lahat ng pag aalinlangan sa puso kong umalis, hindi dahil sa pakiramdam ko I left a huge opportunity for an uncertain job somewhere else. No. I've already made peace with that possibility. I was actually scared of losing the bond I shared with this through-thick-and-thin clique, na baka sa pag alis ko, mawala na yun; na baka sa bago ko, walang katulad nila run.

But I'll be strong there. Salamat sa mga pabaon. It might be heavy to the heart, and it might feel weird not seeing familiar names pop up sa kung san sang chats sa MS Teams but I will be alright, we will all be. We'll surely keep in touch and have this bond going for a long long time. I'll stick around, la kayo choice. Hahahahaha!

Pasasalamat! I appreciate you all, sobra. Magkikitang muli. Labyu. Hihi.

Salamat, Pearson para sa mga taong 'to.

Questioning other people's love for you because they 'left' at your 'darkest' like they never offered some help and you never declined, was just unsettling and unfair.

We can't go around telling people they did not stayed true to their promise of staying, after you did exactly what they hate, like you never knew.

Letting people choose you over their own principles was the kind of love you don't force to receive. This is too much to ask by the way.

We can't tell people to put aside their hurt, to give way to our feelings like we weren't the reason they are in pain too.

If you are this self-centered, maybe these people don't deserve you either and maybe it's for the better.

Manipulation and lies: these are the very same things that may be hard to see but were just enough reasons to make people leave. If you still blame them for finally doing it, know that this isn't an overnight decision they made, better do some thinking, you made them do this.

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