simplicity.

the worst part about that is even though it’s an easy “friends come &go” or “fuck it i’m better off without them” or “not everyone’s on ur same energy”

i’ve gotten to a point where i don’t think i’ll ever accept myself or be happy. happiness is just a Moment, it’s not lasting; at least for me anyway.

i’m so lost in my head i don’t see a way out.

i’ve mastered masking how i truly feel. i don’t want to hurt anyone. i want to… ???

idk what i want, what i like, WHO I AM.

have i been dissociating this whole time? all these years?

wondering if i’ll ever be happy seems pointless when i feel/know that i won’t be truly.

most of the time i feel maybe there isn’t someone for me & im meant to be alone.

i’ve become comfortable in this dark hole.

when i feel joy… i’m already counting down the minutes when it’ll leave because it never lasts..

you say “yes” to someone you’ve been talking to for half that time?

you belong to someone else.

you laugh & joke with me on the phone while having a gf.

you say you don’t know why you said yes..

you say you weren’t drunk..

you say you’re not ready to commit..

you say you were scared to tell me..

but where are you now?

porque las mentiras