a thorn in my own side

I worked a bit on Noelle and Li-Sar in their absolutely insane LT, so for today's offering I tempt you with a preview of them meeting alone in the woods:

noelle seems fine you guys she's Fine.

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This is what Nate is always asking her when she gets a faraway look in her eyes:

"What are you thinking about, Charlie?"

He kisses the back of her hand and she looks at him and smiles because she doesn't know how not to smile in Nate's presence. He has that effect on people. Everyone loves Nate. It's in his DNA to be loveable.

Yet, sometimes he shines so bright that he is like the Sun itself – she needs to squeeze her eyes shut because it's impossible to look at him without being blinded by the light.

Her knee-jerk reaction is always to lie at first. I'm fine or it's nothing. But today she doesn't have the desire to do so.

"I'm worried about Adam," is what she says and Nate's forehead wrinkles.

"Did something happen?" he asks, immediately concerned and her heart warms.

"No," she says. "I just wonder sometimes…"

Nate doesn't interrupt her.

"… if he is lonely."

hi, it's me again!!!! i mentioned yesterday that i wanted to write a seven pov about norion wedding and i accidentally blacked out and started writing it. 😭 i have too many wips at the moment, but what's one more!! i'm not sure where i'm going with this yet, but i have a few ideas! seven kissing niki right before the ceremony with a "i still love you, pls don't marry him" line but we'll see!! seven pov is sooooo scary though lmao

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The wedding invitation is beautiful.

That is possibly what depresses Seven the most. The red envelope, the carefully chosen golden font, the expensive quality of the carton, the neatly hand-signed names at the bottom. It's all so perfect.

Nikita Rose & Orion Quinn.

The perfect happy couple who are cordially inviting Seven to their perfect and happy fucking wedding.

He would actually rather kill himself than go.

He can admit to himself quietly inside his head that he doesn't want to watch Niki kiss another man and promise to love him forever and ever right in front of him. He can picture it so clearly. Niki's happy, loving smile that used to be reserved only for him – the way the corners of his mouth curl and his stupid blue eyes light up like the sea during a sunny day.

It's so messed up that he still remembers how soft Niki's lips were against his own when they kissed for the first time all those years ago when they were so fucking in love that nothing else mattered.

Seven is so lost in his thoughts that he jumps when his phone beeps loudly in sign of a text message. He sighs and picks it up. And stops.

Are you going?

Avina.

🎶 THE FANDOM MAIL-ORDER CD CLUB 🎶

I saw this idea on Vilna's blog and wanted to participate since my playlists keep growing

It is 11:30 p.m. on the evening of August first, and I am very tired.

I do not have to reinvent the wheel every time I write fanfiction

I do not have to make every chapter's word count above 1,000 in order for it to be good

It is okay if some things don't make sense

I can write whatever I want

I am writing this shit for free

If people don't like my stuff, they can block me. If they're being mean about it, I can block them.

The most important part of writing fanfiction is having fun

Writing fanfiction is supposed to be fun

I do not have to appeal to people

This shit is fun

thank you katie!

so. blackout to genesis is a story idea i've had rattling around in my brain for years; i'm talking as far back as 2009. naturally over time it's gone through a lot of changes, esp. as i've matured as both a person and a writer, but a lot of the vibes are the same.

it centers around the suasoria bureau and their ultimate goal of influencing the war between heaven and hell. on the surface, the bureau is seen as highly respectable by the general public — they take in those rare children born with magical ability and 'train' them to control their powers. of course, none of those children ever leave the bureau, but that's not so bad, right?

these children are eventually put to work fighting what the bureau calls 'nephilim'; they are not the giants depicted in the bible, but they are the result of a divine and mortal union. their true forms are unknown; they survive by devouring their victims and (to some degree) taking on their form, continuing this whenever their current form begins to break down and rot. in this story, the current team is led by tabris, who was created with angel-blood and acts as a conduit, enhancing the magical prowress of his other teammates.

another side plot is that the bureau has managed to track down the current reincarnations of adam and eve... the bad news is that adam and eve loathe one another, due to their differing views on humanity, and by eve's growing sympathies with hell's cause.

🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🩷🩷🩷🩷

pleading eyes emoji vesperva song is "green eyes" by JOSEPH. it's not just a vesperva spesific song, it's generally describes A and their romance so well, imo! also fits well with A because of their weird love for cars, lol

I can give you space if you need it You can walk away, I'm not leaving There's pride in my mouth, I got used to the taste

&

Those green eyes are my green light I'm giving up on control You see red lights I see me blowing straight through to you

i think these describe vesper's wish to get through to ava so well. esp the "i see me blowing straight through to you".

she rly wants to be patient with ava, but she's also getting lowkey frustrated by the constant push and pull and how she never knows what ava is thinking.

also:

Thought I could read you But I lost my place Now we're on different pages, I need you

OUCH...........

You know I don't need lights to decide I'm not changing my mind

<3

orion gets it together (?) song is "woke the f*ck up" by jon bellion! (didn't even realise i had two jon bellion songs in this, but they're good, so!!)

more under the cut:

Stay up late thinking about the character

Be haunted by the memory of the character

Wonder if you'll ever finish that fic you started (x 20)

Reread your old fic and ask if you'll ever write anything again

Be tormented by visions of a made-up guy (gn)