A Day In the Life

But not in a I need to get married kind of way, more in a, everyone has a person and I want a person too. Like in a Jo March kind of way but I have none of her ambition or passion, just all of her loneliness.

Please please please don’t let me suffer the fate of watching all my friends be in happy loving relationships while I’m perpetually single

But at least I don't feel like my friends all hate me! Just, like, one of them. It's always the same person. Maybe one day I'll be brave enough to sever this decades-long friendship.

But since I don't have a toxic significant other, a toxic friendship is my flaw to fight with.

When things are good, they're good. But when things are bad? Well, it feels like the sun will never shine again.

but that's because I can't possibly wrap my head around someone liking me.

I want to love someone like, truly love them

But I think that's just not in the cards for me.

I don't want to meet people through dating apps.

I feel like I'm so uninteresting.

No one responds when I say stuff in the group chats.

I'm not the life of the party.

I don't want to do weed or drink alcohol.

I just wish she'd put even a fraction of that effort to spend time with me that she does with her boyfriend.

They have weekly date days meanwhile I can't even get her to spend an hour with me.