God or whoever: lemme just sprinkle some bodyshame in there, maybe some hate from your fam and maybe a little bit of YOUR BOYFRIEND HAVING A FOUR YEAR OLD CHILD and a tinsy tiny bit of YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO SEE THE CHILD CAUSE THE MOTHER IS A PEACE OF SHIT WHOS TRYING HER BEST TO FUCK YOU OVER and don't forget the best part where NOBODY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT WHAT YOU SAY BECAUSE YOUR IRRELEVANT TO THE FUCKING PLANET EVEN THOUGH ALL THEM BITCHES ARE ALLOWED TO SEE THE CHILD BECAUSE OF YOU but ya let's just mix in some depression right up in there with a tablespoon of anxiety and some fucked up work schedule in a hospital during a fucking pandemic. Yeah.

What the fuck should I do

What the fuck is going to happen

What the actual fuck is the point of all of this

Just WHAT THE FUCK

Fuck it all

FUCK IT

my heart has been torn again

the same in the past

He said it’s a break

will i have him back

or all these words he said fake

It’s hard to leave

especially when you love him to death and beyond

now I’m alone and have to grieve

since he took me my last breath and still I’m fond

I’ve broken once more

my last petal has fallen

now I’m just a dead fish that has swam up to shore

either way I ended up on the floor crawling

He was my life

now he’s gone

Maybe he’ll be back