notes about a neoliberal society by a class uprising girl

– the glass castle by jeannette walls is an autobiography about her life between poverty and adventure. in her second story ‘an unfinished life’ is a dialogue between her grandma and her dad about god’s will. the response is, that god distributes the cards, but how we play is up to us. i’m not very religious, but like these image how to deal with destiny and life. it shouldn’t swing in the direction of neoliberalism: ‘man forges his own destiny’ because our cards are distributes by destiny/ society/ environment/ class/ race/ gender/ ability we are born with/ into. but it keeps the balance between you’re not responsible for everything, but you should be aware of your skills and opportunities and self-responsibility. 

– don’t know why but at christmas time i could cry all the time, especially every movie or commercial spot makes me cry. the last days before christmas, together with my mom in a room and a sentimental word out of the tv means a total heartbreak for me. yeah, maybe i’ve got more things to reappraise.

– in the end of the year i'm sitting there without happy feelings. there was just too much and checking social media, doesn’t help to honor what you’ve reached the last year. be a little bit more concentrated on yourself. a really good person collected all my resources, my life-questions and what helped me to come over problematically situations. when i saw this i realized i have strategies to come over problems and it’s possible to leave a few themes in the old year.

Henry David Thoreau

– okay, for sure i had girl dreams like being famous or working for a musician, but the music industry is the hardest game. don’t be so shocked that people in this scene are full of drugs and can’t handle the pressure. if you don’t get your number one song in time you will be forever a low-paid little random artist. sure you can work as musician but you can’t spread your messages and then newcomer will overtake you and after a short time maybe nobody is interested in you anymore. and the people who work for these guys? they put all their energy and power into the life and career of others, what a strange business. 

rest in peace juice wrld 

– sometimes just give people the chance to be mad with you and if you know it’s not reasonable how the person confronted you and you make clear: you’re totally open for a discussion but you’re not a peace of shit, the person will apologize for the way of the dispute, ...if it’s not a complete jerk. 

– i was asked on a party while others were playing a stupid drinking game: “white or black boys?” i just said, that i’m not involved in the game, but i had to think about a correct answer the next days. also because a white girl responded really insecure “white boys”, maybe because it’s her reality, to be surrounded only by white boys. but if i would be asked again, i would say: “no matter what i'm answering, it can be only a racist answer, so i’m not allowed to answer”. and my explanation would be: there shouldn’t be a generalization out of my point of view. if i would say white boys, it would be racist, because to define people only about their skin color as something better is called racism. if i would say black boys, i generalize black men as a sexual object. this is what happens often to black people. they’re sexualized, people make them to an “exotic” object, there are a lot of prejudices in context of black people and sex. something it’s better to shut up and think about privileges, before you answer. 

– had a pretty interesting discussion about rap and female artists. people said they don’t like the rough tone of female rappers. but why? because women have to be soft and cute? there was the argument that hiphop is a culture dominated by men, so it’s rather normal to see women as strangers. that’s the point, men dominated everything, but slowly we should be accustomed to women in every part of life. at work, in politics, at the management floor, as heads of families, bus drivers, as doctors, scientist, in hiphop, just everywhere.

 – what’s the position of a first lady? it’s an old patriarchal image, of a strong man having a devoting and caring wife on the side. often these women stop to work in their old jobs during the president time and accompany the powerful men as a pretty arm decoration what brings grace and elegance into the hard world of politics. there is no term for a husband of a female head of state. i just hope in a few hundred years we will laugh about while being accompanied by our first gents or a homosexual president with a first lady or his/her/its first gent or no head of state, but thousand of first ladies in basis democracy... 

– the mafia, gangs, clans, they all have something fascinating. it’s about fast easy money, power, corruption and being against the law and order. people, excluded by society, who build their own rules and hierarchies. we love watching movies about, maybe to escape the simple life or you were raised in a neighborhood where some of your school friends suddenly drove big cars and couldn't hold their heads high, because of all the jewelries. but the game is disgusting and we have to protect children, who get usually a few dollars per day and then start to interact with those people and get more to help their families. in the end they’re often cannon fodder, the lowest down in the food chain and play a dangerous game of dependencies and death. so it’s not only your netflix  entertainment and you don’t have to look in “poor undeveloped” countries: in your neighborhood next door are criminal structures which go so well, because nobody cares about the marginalized people, if they’re not a cool protagonists in a new serie which seems to be so far away from “normal life”.