The Ceshire Cat

Well… Hi again.

(probably no one will read this).

I was clean for like a month, but today i messed up, and that’s so funny that i could die. Hah.

Normally i would cry and say “oh no i did it again…” but today was like “there was a good reason to do it!”.

I met my ex best friend yesterday and now i feel like shit because he’s been my crush for 3 years, but he said “you aren’t what i want” and i understand that, but then he has a boyfriend that has AIDS, and it’s a drug d3aler. He changed a lot, he was interested in good things, he talked about his fav shows and books, now the only thing he wants to talk about are drugs, and it’s kinda sad because he was such an interesting person.

I’m starting to lose attraction for him, because he changed a lot and honestly he’s not the same person after drugs.

It’s depressing because i remember the good days when he wanted to be a painter and go to Paris to study and have an apartment with me, it was cool, now he only wants to loose his mind in the park taking care there’s no cops.

He offered me some, but i’m honestly scared to drugs and what they can do to u…

No thanks, I’m good with my vodka and wine.

Ufff yeah.. i need my polyamorous romance.

Hii unstable readers.

Just to show that i draw this, i was bored and really wanted to draw something to make me feel better.

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I’m not gonna lie, i have a big obsession with eating my skin after pulling it out, the taste it’s better when you grease it with blood.

Since i was a kid i loved eating my skin, harming myself with my own nails until the skin starts to bleed, i take a little piece of it and when eat it, i taste it with me tongue and i even play with it in my mouth until there’s no flavour.

Almost all my friends know i do this, but no one ‘helps’ me, my boyfriend looks at me when i do it, and i annoy him saying if he wants to taste me.

i’m just ashamed when i show my scars (looks like holes on the skin) and people think i born with them or if it’s an illness.

Btw: sorry if my English it’s not the best, English it’s not my first language.

I need to tell this.