idk life or whatever

Anyone want to do a (non-sexual) Star Wars roleplay with me?

system ask meme...

a set of questions I either haven’t seen, can’t remember, or thought would be a bit of a novelty, cause there aren’t many of these. here we go!

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1. is there anyone you consider the “host”? has there ever been one?

The core was the Host for a long time, and then they integrated with multiple others. Then for a short time it was Nova and Nico. Now the core integrated form is a co-host with Nico, and has a ‘blended name’. 

2. what was life like in the early days of realising you were more-than-one?

In the really early days we just thought we were role-playing. We’ve said this before, but the earliest we REMEMBER being a multiple/noticing dissociation was about 6/7 years ago. Then when we understood what dissociation WAS, we were in therapy and it was said to be a coping mechanism. 

It was scary. It was blurry. Headaches, emotions out of control. Spiraling depression, panic. But the alters were also helpful at times. There was just a lot. 

3. Describe the funniest thing you’ve seen happen between two alters.

One alter rickrolled Nova/Nico in the Inner World control room (we don’t know how to describe it.

There was a screen in the control room that usually had reminders on it and one day it suddenly just changed. To a rickroll. But lofi edition because they didn’t want to trigger and alter with a sudden noise. Quite an ordeal.

4. How many interpersonal bonds are there? Describe one (or a few!).

5. Who is the most protective?

Demon (Immortal, Protector, Persecutor)

6. Who is the most energetic?

Lill. She is two years old. She tries to cut our friend's shoelaces. Constantly.

7. Who holds the most anger? (We see you, and we love you)

Demon, probably. Amber (Solo), Eliora, and Nelson are very close, though.

8. Who needs the most support (and are they getting it)?

Probably all forms of Amber. Her character seems the most traumatised. Either her or Maria. 

Amber di Angelo is getting as much support as Nico is able to give, but...not what she needs. 

Maria is in no way getting the support she needs, and she never will. She doesn’t speak. Nobody even knows she exists. 

9. Describe what happened when an unusual fronter had a day in the limelight.

They got the police called on us.

The dungeon somehow didnt work and they were let out. The police were called. It was a horrible day.

10. If you are attending therapy, is it helping (eg. do you feel more grounded in the present? is there less amnesia, if any? is there more cooperation, communication, and sharing of tasks)?

N o p e 

Our therapist didn’t believe in dissociation and didn’t help us with it. 

We met a new therapist though and we’re starting with her so high hopes.

11. Who is prone to backseat driving, ie. directing the fronter without fronting themselves?

LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE ALTER WHO IS IN THE CONTROL ROOM

It’s easier to list those who don’t. 

Ryo, Lilli, Finn, Adaleyza (Fae) and Wes

12. Do you have any introjects (fictives/factives)? How are they similar to their source? How do they differ?

I’m not comfortable putting that information out about non-consenting alters. 

13. Describe the most drastic change a fictive has gone through since their first appearance.

They went from being a small, happy, cis female to a depressed, self-harming, OCD, darkgender who went through all kinds of abuse. Not to mention she’s not straight like dark though they were.

Went from curly blonde hair to black, red and purple. Style has changed. They’re polyfragmented. 

14. Does anyone have any special interests?

Yes. 

Music for most of them (one of them is actually pitch-perfect)

Graphic design

Writing

Psychology

15. Describe some of the kids!

Jade says that we shouldn’t post about our littles on the internet. We’re not comfortable with that question. 

16. Who is the most responsible and/or good at keeping track of and tackling daily tasks?

Hope, by far. She was formed to take care of certain children, and she does so well. She tracks eating, sleeping, and all physical things for everyone. Jade takes care of tracking our emotional states quite well. 

17. Who isn’t good at keeping track of the time and tasks to do?

Nico

Amber (in any form)

Ellana 

18. Elegant, suave, refined. Who did I just describe? 

Adaleyza Fawn (Fae)

19. Peaceful, brotherly, patient. Who did I just describe?

Will Solace or Percy

20. Angry, spitfire, vicious. Who did I just describe?

Demon or Nelson

21. Dejected, passive, tired. Who did I just describe?

Nico, Eliora and Amber

22. Free-spirited, active, protective. Who did I just describe?

Reyna

23. Describe another alter with three adjectives.

Traumatised, quiet, sweet- Ryo

24. Does anyone feel shame about their past? (as this is a symptom of trauma you don’t have to go into detail, or at all)

Yes. Most of us. All of us, really. Either because of trauma, or because of our switching. 

25. Who works together best to complete daily tasks? Is anyone good at washing up, but really bad at vacuuming?

We actually have pairs who work well together. Almost everyone in the System does chores, and in our case, we have a list of who works well and who doesn’t.

Annabeth and Ryo are the best at completing tasks. Add Percy and Will (Nico too)  to the mix and you’ve got a great combo

26. Who has the most issues completing tasks?

Amber, Ellana, the trauma-stuck alters or any of the kids.

27. Who, if anyone, creates memory blackouts?

Everyone. Literally everyone 

28. Who can’t keep their thoughts private to save their life?

Percy 

29. Are there any inseparable pairs/groups? Alternatively, what are the social groups like?

We have about 50 alters, so we’re like an entire community. We have besties, people who can;t stand eachother, all of that.

Finn and Ellana are inseparable. 

Nico and Amber are always together.

Reyna and Annabeth fight alot. 

Eliora, Nelson, Wes, and Deb are constantly in some sort of war. 

30. Is there any gender/sexuality variance in-system?

We go from super-straight homophobes to darkgender influencers. 

Sexuality is all of the place.

31. Describe, if any, an inhuman alter.

Some of our non-humans are Greek-style immortals

Others are magical beings from our own universes

32. How big is the system?

Around fifty

33. Describe what switching fronts feels like.

Pain and confusion. Blurry

34. How do different parts react to dissociation (ie. involuntarily switching fronts)?

Most are deeply traumatized and scared by it.

35. Is anyone a bit of a “control freak”?

Our trauma holders and protectors. Nelson, Eliora, Wes, Nico, Will, Deb, Demon, Jade, Amber, Rubi, Maria are the ones most often fighting to control it.

36. Is there a place, like a round table, where everyone can get together to communicate?

We have a ‘control room’, but it’s difficult to communicate more othen than not.

37. Does anyone have a fascination with numbers, shapes, or using repetition to self-soothe?

Many of the trauma holders, because they have OCD. 

38. Describe someone who doesn’t usually get a day in the limelight (if they consent).

Miki and Ryo, along with an alter who doesn’t want to be named. They’re the deepest trauma holders and prefer not to be seen.

39. What’s something you’ve managed to create as a team?

Our innerworld. It’s always expanding, it’s something that’s taken a lot of work. Alot of pain. 

We also managed to create a group of people who support us no matter what. 

40. Describe, in as few or as many words as you like, the journey from discovery of your multiplicity to the present.