hope in the darkness

how many novelty mugs has martin given to jon i need to know

Don’t think about how Jon has no one who’s human who wants to talk to him about his issues right now. Don’t think about how Jon is looking for any kind of any kind of empathy and kindness that he’s looking through statement after statement to see himself, only to see monsters and madness reflected back at him. Don’t think about how Jon has at this point given up on trying to be human and is just trying not to feel not exhausted, horrible, and oh so lonely. Don’t think about how the only person who wants to talk about these things only wants him to fall into the path of the monster. Don’t think about the only person who knows what he’s going through right now and could talk with him is Martin, Martin who is avoiding him on purpose, Martin is becoming a monster for the sake of others, Martin who is planning on not surviving by the end of this. Don’t think about how if Jon and Martin just talked with each other they could both realize that neither path of self destruction is necessary and that neither of them are alone in this, none of them are. 

the idea of jane prentiss just having martin’s phone for three weeks is unbelievably funny do you think she read his 3 am notes app poetry out loud to the worms