Explosions in the Sky

“just because I don’t have feelings for you doesn’t mean you aren’t special idiot” WHAT DO YOU ACTUALLY MEAN. you’ve been talking to me for months now. i thought we moved past this. why do you keep confusing me every god damn year. 

"I'm sorry for being an asshole a lot of the time" - an apology sent at 2am after 8 years of bullshit. Why can't I get rid of these thoughts.

I only use this to keep track of all my insane past relationship stuff. So I get an apology after 8 years of hurting me. I hope he's sincere. He knows he keeps changing his mind about everything but it seems like he's aware. It might be that he just wants to do stuff but I honestly believe his apology. Hopefully he continues to not be an asshole.

after 8 long years, i think it’s finally over. that chapter of my life is complete. rejection hurts but at the end of the day, it was never going to happen. so much hope was poured into this and i thought for a second things were different now that we’re older. i’m glad we’re still going to be friends. eventually i’ll be okay. i just wish it didn’t end like this.