It’s 11/11/2025. Tumblr was my JOURNAL 10years ago in 2015. Wow. Looking back.. my ego was HUGE. Life has humbled me in an extreme way.

If I had the type of confidence that I had back then right now, I’d be unstoppable. Idk what the hell my issue was in 2015 bc my shit clearly didn’t stink then. I thought the world was against me. Now I know that the universe is on my side.. it’s ME against me.

Like I said, I don’t have much going on.. yet I feel very fulfilled despite the circumstances. I travel, work out, go and watch dance classes, spend time with my dad and family. I love to grocery shop lol. Been investing in makeup, practicing, watching tutorials, finding new brands that are good for my tones and skin. 

All in all, this recovery process isn’t bad. I have goals, and the stepping stones in place to get to those goals. That’s what keeps me focused, patient, positive, and happy. I’m very grateful today.

Happiness is a choice and I decide to choose it every day. Yes, I still have acrylic nails.

I am happy. I still have rough days with b/p once in a while but I haven’t been this comfortable with food since I relapsed when I was 19. I’ve been focusing on nourishing my body and eating for fuel instead of pleasure by sticking  to a vegetarian diet with an emphasis on raw fruits and veg. Seriously hitting up the west side market for AMAZING produce. Eating soooo much yellow squash, sweet potatos, beets, melon, plantains, zucchini, berries, brussle sprouts, radish, UGH seriously I have fallen in love with veggies and fruits! 

My energy is up SO much since I’ve made this change. I am happy with the people I have in my life. I have a support system. I like my jobs. I don’t rely on therapy or meds anymore. I’m exercising a healthy amount. I’ve rid of harmful behaviors like self harm, stealing, drugs (other than weed.. which I have learned so much about within the past few months and definitely support it).. I still struggle with b/p once in a while but it doesn’t run my life anymore and on those days where I do b/p I am able to get back on track THAT DAY.

I’ve been dancing a lot too. I’m teaching at 3 studios, go to Pittsburgh at least once a month to take classes at Millennium for a day or two, choreographing, finding and GOING to auditions. 

I am very proud of myself and I can’t wait to see where I am and how much I grow in these next few months