The Master and His Monsters

anyone know what this is from been bugging me and a friend for days 

sometimes i feel like im seeing something which shouldnt exist in this world it never speaks but i know its there so i laugh it of turn a corner and there it is again hmmm curious no ...

There are times i step outside and it feels like i almost absorb energy itself from the world it makes me feel stronger more confident but it’s fleeting and doesn’t last anyone else get this or just me 

who ever knew just a name could incite such feelings of hatred betrayal disgust and pity all at the same time ... 4 years have passed since you broke me and yet you still cause me so much pain i just want this to stop i want to be me again i hate having to feel my heart break over and over while people reading this will just see whiny me but i'm nothing but nice to most people and if i am rude and obnoxious i don't mean to be but why do i keep getting hurt i just want to be happy again, i'm sorry for the status but typing what i feel helps me reorganize my mind, to everyone i know in a relationship i wish you nothing but happiness for your futures don’t get hurt like i did and if you do don’t let it kill you

Because reasons haha 

Honestly having multiple personalities fucking sucks i hate it yes I brave it smile make a joke but inside they tear me apart saying vile things making me remember things I would rather forget so if I'm ever tough on any of you in sorry and I don't mean it but you can only wear a mask so long before it starts to crack and I'm on the verge of shattering again

im sorry who is this ? but thank you 

I will be using this blog to vent how I feel daily also allowing me to keep track of my decent into madness