Lucifer is King

Introduction post

This is my about me, I'm @nova-astraea, you can find my blog master list there on the pinned post.

General about me

Name: Nova Astraea

Age: 19 - born 20/12/2005, I'm a winter baby

Gender: trans masc - he/they

Spiritual beliefs: polytheistic, eclectic Luciferian, witchcraft, paganism and stuff, duh

I have autism, potentially have ADHD too. I have chronic depression, OCD and anxiety and other undiagnosed mental health issues (thanks NHS for ignoring me :3) - I have trauma (childhood + other) and I tend to age regress so keep that in mind.

Favourite things

Shows: the walking dead, jojo's bizarre adventure, the witcher, arcane

Books: anything luciferian, witchy or demonology-esque, the witcher (again), the walking dead, jojo's bizarre adventure, lord of the rings, a language of dragon

Colours: orange, blue, red, pink and black

Season: winter

Music: goth, metal, rock

MAH PLUSHIES TOO. I got a cow, an otter, a seal or two, a dog... another dog... and another dog, a sheep and a cow and one (1) owl. I want more, it's an addictive collection.

About this blog

This blog is where I post my spiritual notes and story and stuff - I only post SFW content here and this blog is 100% safe for any age.

I worship Lucifer primarily, however my practise isn't going to be limited to just him. I find inspiration and idolisation with many many entities, mostly Infernal, but also some Norse, Egyptian and Greek deities - I'll go into more detail with it later on.

This blog is godspouse and LGBT friendly, any hate towards these won't be tolerated. My asks and DMs are open.

My 18+ spiritual devotion blog can be found here: @the-novaverse-18

DNI list

Homophobes, transphobes and TERFs

People who infantalise mental health issues and disabilities (physical or mental)

Fascists

Racists

Right wingers (fuck off)

People who demonise Lucifer and his kin

I went through another episode with my depression, which caused me to withdraw.

Now I'm coming off the tail end of it, and decided I'm going to stay withdrawn for a little while. I don't know when I'll come back but I need time to set something up that's important to me and time to rest and recuperate from the last month.

They forget that these years are probably some of the most crucial for self discovery and learning, growth, maturing and making mistakes.

Like sure if you see someone my age going towards toxic rhetoric gently reguide them, but don't call us morons or idiots for "making mistakes". Like so many older people look down on me for my views and my aggression towards political parties, so many people look down on me for my little "Lucifer is my daddy:3 (non sexual literally paternal)" views and think "okay well he's a god why would he want to be your dad?"

People are just so stuck up sometimes.

Like please remember what it was like to be 20 and going into adulthood and being able to make decisions that could influence not only your life but the lives around you and potentially future lives WHILST having the maturity of a teenager.

And don't get me started on my own problems with my maturity stuntedness, where im stuck at 15 mentally, permanently, like I'm at risk of making many many mistakes, and yet for some reason people are just brutal with me for making them.

Like oh I use the wrong terminology, Im a tad too aggressive, im not aggressive enough, I didn't do a good thing today, I did a good thing. Like fucking leave me alone.

I'm trying. I'm just trying to live. I'm trying to grow with what little wiggle room I have now thanks to my trauma and autism.

And I'm still not but I hate the name nova, I hate my dead name.

I'm literally nameless.

Like who the fuck am I? I don't know anymore I want a name.

I want to ask Lucifer to name me but I can't communicate with him well enough for that. I want a name.

Obviously, I'm not a Christian now, but fuck sometimes i do yearn for that little rosary again.

My mom doesn't seem to get how hard it is to find one and of course she doesn't, whilst she doesn't have a "good paying job" she was handed a job because of a family friend running a company nearby and he just took my mom as one of his employees.

He won't take me because my mom refuses to let me work there because "you don't want to work there" despite them constantly being short staffed.

I've applied for many jobs and only one fucking replied and they did technically say they were going to take me on and then just ghosted me.

I love seals.

I am not complaining.

Sometimes I think I am a seal. Don't get me started on selkies I get so much, I don't know how to describe how I feel with them but I get so much "MFNSASKFDJSNSM" whenever I hear about them </3

Anyway, uh, pretend you didn't read that.

But I love it.

My language without my autism masking is very different, like... incredibly different. I'm yet to reconnect with it but it was very... poetic? I guess that's the best word I've got for it.

Trying to unmask is hard but my practise already reflects my unmasking.

And that's beautiful to me.

Like i love the sentiment of "not everything needs to be a big thing" and for sure that's true in some aspects but for me most of my practise IS big things, big rituals.

My fanfictions are never really written for the general pleasure of the fandom, they're written for my pleasure, my indulgence.

So yeah, Schedule 1 is amazing, I love the game, I've completed all the quest lines, unlocked every single area, bought almost all the properties and I just truly enjoy the game and I'd play the shit out of it even when I'm considered "done". I'd play it until the sun explodes.

And I write fan content for it too.

Anything I watch or play or read , if it touched me in a certain way, has fan content I've made for it (and make for it)

My fandoms list, consequently, is quite small.

You've got schedule 1, the walking dead, jojo's bizarre adventure, arcane, the witcher (specifically game and book lore), quarantine zone (my beloved zombie game <3), White Knuckle, my religion (duh)

All of these make me, me.

So yeah I don't just play a game or watch a show once and call it a day, or complain about content not being fleshed out enough. If I think "damn they could've expanded that story..." I fucking write a fanfiction for it. If i think "hmmm Negan Smith would look like..." I draw fanart.

I'm constantly obsessing over games, shows, books.

Nothing is "finished" in my eyes, until my hyperfixation moves on a piece of media is going to be replayed, worshipped. Consumed and full of fancontent and headcanons until I digested every last atom of its creation and THEN some.

I don't have the same love for music bands and stuff, sure, but I have it for other things.