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⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆I Write For⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺

ִ ࣪₊˚A song of ice and fire-

Game Of Thrones, House Of The Dragon, A Knight Of The Seven Kingdoms

ִ ₊˚Slashers-

scream, halloween, the boy, friday the 13th, hannibal (series), american psycho, taxes chainsaw massacre, candyman, house of wax, the lost boys, it, the thing, stranger things, chucky, fear street, bates motel, terrifier.

࣪₊˚Marvel-

MCU movies, X men, Moon knight, Daredevil

ִ ࣪₊˚Historical Figures-

The Tudors, The Borgias, Magnificent century, Kingdom of heaven, Gladiator 1&2, Alexander the great, Napoleon, Julius Caesar, Magnificent century: kosem, Rise of empires: ottoman.

ִ ࣪₊˚Greek Mythology-

Epic the musical, Troy 2004

ִ ࣪₊˚Lord Of The Rings-

ִ ࣪₊˚The Hobbit-

⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆Rules⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺

I don't write smut/NSFW, I simply don't know how to.

Send request through the ask box not through messages.

I only write for female.

Specific if it's Platonic or romantic, I'll just do romantic if not made clear.

Specific if it's yandere or not, if not specified I'll do yandere.

Please be patient.

⚠Warnings⚠ historical inaccuracies, soft yandere themes, paranoia and controlling behavior, self blaming! Reader, him being delulu,

✎Note✐ reader is a female in this. It's long as hell, I don't like how the last part turned out tbh 😔 might rewrite some things in it later (meaning 20 years later) 😜

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

How did you get into this scandalous mess in the first place? Where did it go wrong for you to be in such position? It's hard to pinpoint exactly where this mess began but let's rewind the story to understand better how you got here

It all began when you and your family moved all the way from Poland to Paris, in hopes of getting power and influence in the flourishing french court, it hadn't been long since Napoleon Bonaparte crowned himself emperor and that opened the door for foreign nobility to seek power and influence in this rising empire and your family happened to be one of these families

Moving there was easy enough but climbing your way to power isn't exactly as easy as Napoleon makes it sound like, while Poland and France are in good terms that doesn't mean it will guarantee your family anything really.. But your father is a determined man and would not leave easily, not without securing you or your siblings good matches!

Your father, may God forgive him, had tried pushing you and your younger sister into the empress's social circle in hopes that one of you will become a lady in waiting under the service of empress Joséphine. you two are well educated and well-mannered yet one giant problem stood in front of you specifically, your French is terrible

It's almost funny how that thought never came across your father's mind when he brought you into the french court.

When you can only manage one awkward conversation and nothing else due to your limited dictionary it's pretty clear that your chances at getting allies whom you can hardly communicate with will be from zero to maybe one or two percent

Your case is hard, really

Your sister, despite not being fluent either yet is better at french than you, had managed to make friends in court while your father is standing next to her proudly, you knew that her new social circle wasn't just due to the language abilities but also due to her being a social butterfly who mingled with everyone

You, even if we put the language barrier aside, you are socially awkward so yeah your case is really, really hard, especially when everytime you try to talk to someone the only thing coming out of your mouth is just nonsense no one can pick apart

You knew that even with a tutor it will easily take years until you can speak with french nobility and not even fluently at that, unlike your father you are aware that your place is no where near the french yet he is still determined that there is hope for youyou and sometimes you wish you had that trust in yourself

Things only got complicated when your sister's social circle extended to have some of the empress's friends in it, with that your father had decided that your shall not visit court till you had mastered the french language, you don't know if that's because of his disappointment in your tongue or fear of embarrassing your sister, you believe it's the latter but no one cares about your opinion, at least not your father

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

When you got a little better and what I mean by that is that you can now manage two awkward conversations instead of one your father calls that progress, I don't the ban has been lifted off and you were allowed to go with your sister only if you stick to her side and preferably not speak at all which you found ridiculous but dear papa refused to it from you unless you say it in perfect french

“I don't understand, what's the point of me being here if I'll just stand like a statue?” You could not help yourself but complain to your sister, helena, which only earned a sigh from her "so people can get familiar with you." You, not seeing the point still, wanted to complain about how this entire charade is ridiculous but the look she gave you made you drop it

After two months passing by and nothing of significance came out of your lessons your father has decided that this is a terrible investment ouch-, for you aren't making any actual progress and tutoring isn't exactly cheap. he decided that you probably will be better off at poland with your relatives and that you knew what that meant, going back there to your father's side who didn't like you because they disliked your mom is a living hell

That night you begged your sister to do something using her connections, anything, like get you in a group or throw in a word for a potential suitor, yes you're that desperate. You always knew that arranged marriages is how you will end up, there is no love in politics and you came to make peace with it long time ago so just anything but being stuck with people who don't even give you the courtesy of badmouthing your mother behind your back

After bugging her for hours till bedtime and her getting tired and wanting to sleep she gave in “I'll try to get something done but don't expect too much of me. now if you will, I need to sleep” 'now get out' is what she really meant but oh will now your chances are up from zero to.. Five? Well that's something I guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

It was a foggy morning in Tuileries Palace, Tension has been rising between Napoleon and Joséphine for the past few days or the past 3 years if we're being honest. Ever since he fathered a basterd son from eléonore denuelle, proving his family's claims that his wife of nearly 14 years is a barren, that marrying this 'old lady' as called by his family was terrible mistake. From the beginning they, especially his mother, have been whispering in his ears that he should do what his heart couldn't bear to even think about

That he should set Joséphine aside and take another to wife

“How is your schedule for the day?.” She asked, her voice sounding hopeful that maybe if she got to spend time with him away from his duties it would ease him “busy as always.” his tone is distant, he is clearly overthinking again, Sometimes he has been doing these days and obviously it's about their marriage, any blind man can see that

He noticed the frown on her face that his response has caused and he just sighs “what about you?.” he asked, trying to sound interested while his mind is somewhere else, she replied something about court and honestly he didn't hear her

His mind was focused on accepting the fact that his marriage is over and what's left is just making it official. He and Joséphine knew that it's just not working anymore..

Hours passed with Napoleon personally managing negotiations and Joséphine sitting between ladies of high birth and wealth, being there physically but not mentally, Mourning over a dead marriage of nearly 14 years

So she just nods her head along on a suggestion one of her ladies made about an addition to her ladies in waiting, not caring enough about who and what qualities this lady had. Not that she has much time left as empress anyway, so what's the harm?

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

When helena told you that you were accepted you made her swear on her soul that she is telling the truth, you were happy, really happy, According to your mother you had never smiled brighter before and how anyone could blame you? You had just escaped being shipped away to poland and your father side

‘This is worth a celebration’ you thought, till realization threw a prick at you without kissing it first, shattering your dreams into pieces

Even if you made it into the 'ladies in waiting' league, you'll be kicked out within a week because what use are you to a french empress when you can barely speak this cursed language? I guess you'll have to stick with your tutor till you can at least speak a little better...

You begin your service under the empress in early september, your speech abilities caught her off guard to say the least.. I mean your sponsor did lightly mention your 'limited speech' issue but at the time she had so much on her mind that she didn't ask follow up questions but she just shrugged this inconvenience off. She already has 12 other ladies in waiting, one who can't communicate properly won't hurt her that much

By now your situations with the french language got better due to your hard work and having companions you can talk to. Even though you still are no where near fluency and have a thick accent yet at last you can talk now to others and not stand in the background like a piece of furniture while all the others chat

With time your obvious accent had grown on her grace, reminding her of her husband's accent. Despite being the emperor of the french empire, he still had his damned corsican accent and sometimes at night joséphine would find this concept ridiculously funny and she would talk about it in a passive manner during her breakfast or supper with Napoleon, not that she found his accent silly dear, she's talking about yours

She did mention at least once if he remembers correctly about a lady in waiting of hers that has an accent, which made him raise an eyebrow because he himself has an accent but he just dismisses it, he already has a lot going on and didn't want to waste time on a frivolous matter

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

After a long afternoon of reading through letters and documents, trying to distract himself from his failing marriage and trying to run away from a conversation with Joséphine about it. He would have to be a fool to not notice her failed attempts at making this sinking ship stay afloat and it's killing him

With overworking himself he had finished all the duties he had on his schedule for the day, leaving him with nothing to focus on besides his thoughts and before he could stop himself he walked toward Joséphine's quarters, knowing that if this conversation doesn't happen he'll go mad

He entered without having his arrival being announced by the guards. There was no one inside the chambers except for one woman, a lady given by her fine clothe. Her expression is of shock and fear, she clearly didn't expect to see him here when the empress wasn't here

you never expected to ever engage in a conversation with the emperor himself, you were always in the background just like everyone else when he came by to see the empress “her grace isn't here, your majesty..” you had always paid attention to your accent but didn't think much of it since you didn't socialize that much anyway but now you wish you were mute instead

He just stared at you, letting the silence stretch before speaking “I could tell.” those three words felt like a personal attack which they are

You had always heard that the emperor is quite blunt at times or rude if you will, you even heard that he once told a noblewoman «Your dress is not of the cleanest. Do you never change your gown? I have seen you in that twenty times»

The emperor was never afraid of publicly humiliating others, you had always thought that these whispers were an exaggerations, you had never expected someone like him to be so.. Unmannerly

You had nothing to say which is for the better if we're being honest, you remained silent hoping he would leave or dismiss you but nothing ever goes like how we want so he stayed, probably waiting for the empress to return and you, oh miserable you, have to stay where you are until he dismisses you. You wanted to ask to be excused but after what just happened you're too stunned to speak

You stood there awkwardly as he paid you no mind and stared out the window to the landscape, the silence made you feel more awkward than you would have felt in a room full of french people. Then, without even turning back to look at you he asked “why are you not accompanying the empress? Isn't that your job?.”

Is he now seriously interrogating you?!

You feel offended by his questioning tone yet with no choice but to comply, you responded “I prefer to stay behind... Her grace allows it.” he just hummed in response then left the room which you made you feel relieved and were not shocked at all

After all, Napoleon had a habit of abandoning conversations he found boring, which again is unmannerly!

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

You had reported this incident to the empress to which she didn't pay any attention to it, so you just shrugged it off

But these incidents kept happening, the emperor kept coming to visit Joséphine and everytime she'd be somewhere else entirely and soon these brief chats you two shared became actual conversations, not long ones but definitely longer than before

These conversations were consistent of him talking about napoleonic stuff and you nodding along, for you know that Napoleon isn't someone who likes being disagreed with, becoming an emperor came with a huge ego in the full package in his defense

But you sometimes would share your thoughts, for some reason you felt more comfortable talking to him despite his status because he has an accent as well, it's silly you know that but it brings some sort of comfort that even the emperor of France has an accent and that it's not something to be insecure about

And despite his bluntness at times, he can be good company but you are not blind to what's happening. The relationship between the emperor and his wife is collapsing and tension is high as ever these days and you feel partly responsible even if you know that their marriage had died like years ago but still.. You feel like these talks you have with Napoleon is worsening his marriage situation even though there is nothing that happened between you two

You swear on your life

And the guilty only ate you alive when you saw that the empress had fainted upon hearing the news of her divorce, even though you now lost the position you begged for on your knees according to your sister you didn't care, you should have been sent away from the start..

The divorce was finalized in December, 4 months since you started having these small talks with him. News of the empress's grief was the latest topic in court, and yes empress for Napoleon had allowed or rather insisted on her still using the title

Now you are back to your house, back to your father whining about marriage matches and the thought of living with your father's side. Back to normal where you barely left the house and rarely visited court

Until one evening you come down for dinner like you normally would, just for everyone on the table to be sitting still. No one is reaching for the bread or the wine, instead everyone stares into their plates with something you didn't understand at the time till your father broke the news that made the whole world stop spinning to you

A marriage proposal by the emperor himself, apparently he had approached your father in court and went straightforward to business, asking for your hand in marriage

Your father, despite his shock on his face had agreed, obviously. This.. all of this nonsense is making your head spin around..

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Last time you saw Joséphine you were a lady in waiting following her around now you're an empress, the empress.. This title feels like a mockery more than anything else really. How can you be an empress when Joséphine is also called an empress?

You and Napoleon had been married for a few months to this current day, everything before the wedding felt like a blur except for one walk in the garden you had shared with him. You remember asking him ‘why?’ and him answering something along the lines of “you understand me better than most” as if that qualifies someone to become a wife, someone who he had few chats with and knew for a few months

With this position of yours, your family had been set for life. Soon after your marriage your sister had found a good match and your house rose up high, now courtiers who previously ignored you before are taking any chance to talk to you and the other ladies in waiting who you once served alongside with and had ridiculed your accent are now your ladies in waiting

Yet none of this ever felt right, you don't feel like you belong here... It's not your place or position.. Every time you try to ignore this growing pit inside you and just enjoy yourself as a fucking empress you just feel her gaze on you

Always in court, you can feel Joséphine's eyes staring at you... ‘she must think I seduced him.. Of course she would, why else would he chose a lady from a minor house over better matches..?.’ you'd think every night before going to bed. she's always there, of course it's court but she has never ever spoke directly to you, she's just there staring

One night your now husband came into your now quarters, giving the same look he gave on your first meeting, unreadable and stoic. “you've changed, you're not the same person I knew.” his audacity killed you, does this man ever feel shame?!

You had a good share of wine by then and you were tired, too tired to put on a mask and pretend everything is fine. Ever since you two got married and his presence has been suffocating you, you don't know if he is doing this to forget about his ex or what but you don't like how he is always acting towards you

He'd send you letters even when you two are in the same castle and oh boy those letters are long ass ones and he expects a reply, a written one and it should be ready half an hour since he sent the letter, not only that but he'd comment on the 'environment' you surrounded yourself with and how you should not interact with the courtiers ‘for they are wasting your time for their own goals’ and focus on your duties as empress more

Your family tells you to be grateful, ‘he did the same to Joséphine’, ‘this only proved his love to you’ but you know it's bullshit, someone who loves you normally won't hover over your head.. Besides, you're not Joséphine, he shouldn't love you like you're her

“how can you expect me to be warm when you're acting like this?. I don't know why you're doing this Napoleon but I'm not Joséphine.” you didn't raise your voice but your words had enough high volume and of course he'd just turn around and leave

A sign that he found this conversation boring

you believe that his huge ego had feasted on his sense of shame because there are no other explanations for this

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Even as empress you stayed rather introverted, whether because of the language barrier or just disliking the noble company remains a mystery to modern historians, not that you yourself know why, you just find this court exhausting and rather toxic.. So yeah you rather keep your distance from these ‘leeches’ as your husband would call them

Of course this behavior of yours toward the court is something he found pleasing, while you like to think that you are doing this for your mental health he's convinced otherwise, he believes that you are doing this due to his influence over you, that you obviously came to your senses when he spoke to you about keeping distance with nobles. And the fact he thinks so baffles you, men really like to gaslight themselves into believing they are the cause of everything women do

His feelings for you are something hard to explain or describe, it's not love, at least not the love he knows and had for Joséphine. It's more of a fixation, not with you but rather with the image of a second chance and Innocence he has of you, it's cruel to say this but when he looks at you he sees only a second chance at life rather than you

When he glances at you during breakfast or dinner he only sees a second marriage that could fix everything and he's doing everything he can to not screw it over and unfortunately by that he doesn't mean focusing on you and less work, it just means controlling every aspect possible of your life, to him if he keeps everything running smoothly under his leadership then this marriage will flourish

His biggest fear is you cheating on him just like his ex did as if he didn't cheat as well, that's probably why he also has something to say about male courtiers talking to you and it irritates you to a degree but who cares?

There are few rare times where you two would take a walk around the garden during the morning if the weather is clear and talk about whatever, even if you hate him for the most part you could never deny that those walks bring somewhat comfort to you, it makes you feel like.. Just you, no people watching you or giving you quick glances and no Joséphine.. And honestly this corsican man isn't that bad to talk to when he isn't being 'blunt'

“Life was easier before I was empress, and Joséphine's constant presence does not help” you confess, without thinking twice about the words coming out of your mouth and he just stands still, watching you as your fingertips skim the fountain surface, not looking at him

Ah?

So that's why you've been keeping distance? Guess he'll have to solve this problem before it blooms into something bigger he can't control

Rumors has it that Duchess Joséphine has fainted again once a edict has been issued, forbidding her from using the title 'empress' again, addressing her only as Duchess of Navarre

Even though you had not wished for it to happen, you can't lie and say that the weight on your shoulders has lifted a little, at least you don't feel mocked when addressed as empress

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

He had swore on the day he made the proposal to your father that this marriage will work, that this time he will do anything to make sure this ship doesn't sink. No one can deny that joséphine has a special place in his heart yet he won't allow even that to ruin his second chance

It pained him to write that edict but he knew that the acceptance from you about Joséphine will one day turn into resentment and that means another failed marriage, even if in the past decade and nearly half Joséphine's happiness has been his first thought when it came to such decisions yet now, yours took it place

Happy wife, happy life.. Right?

And honestly, after months passing by his love for Joséphine grew into resentment, if only she had been more like you none of this would have happened..

To word it better than before, he has this idolized image of you, probably because you're the literal opposite of joséphine. Where she's loud, you're quiet. where's she bold, you're reserved. Where's she charming, you're awkward. And you nod along with whatever he says, that's a plus in his mind

He only sees the parts he wants when looking at you, to him, you're what Joséphine could have been if she was less.. Joséphine...

Well, such a shame things went like that, now if you excuse him he'll be writing you a letter from his office about something he can say in person and you better reply within the next hour

Also, stop talking to the friendly courtier, don't be such a Joséphine!!

Just wait and see how under his control this marriage will thrive, this time everything will go according to plan

Come here pookie 🫂💋

Planning on keeping it for the next Halloween or something cuz you like it and Im too lazy to change it

(I hope that by theme you mean my profile pic and yellow background and not something else or I'll die out of embarrassment)

My God tyyyyyy 🫂🫂🫂

I posted again by accident when I clicked on save not post GOD DAMMIT

I edited it fast, so sorry for anyone who saw it before being edited

⚠︎Warnings⚠︎ historically inaccurate, yandere themes,

✎Note✐reader is a female in this. This is not the actual historical figure but the figure from 'KOH'.

✎Tags✐ @jsprien213 , @lunamoonbby , @random4137 , @ashley22zak , @thebluehair23 , @jj-ma26 , @therussianinyourneighborhood , @random-bouts-of-randomness , @myede , @snorklingfae , @marina27826123 , @mel-vaz , @awshit , @fatpotatochip

✎Part 6✐✎Coming Soon✐

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You thought arriving at Aleppo will give you a break to think about your magnificent run away plan, but you thought wrong, terribly wrong. Before you even settled in your Chambers you were informed that some members of the council are demanding an audience with you, which you had to accept because it must be something important, right?

An elderly man was standing next to a sturdy guy, whom you assume are the grand vizier and the military commander, they were waiting for you in the council room, their faces stoic yet obviously troubled "our deepest condolences." The vizier began "but this matter is urgent. It's about the succession and it cannot be delayed any longer or things will get more complicated."

This part you were expecting, but what you didn't expect was them wanting to delay the entire funeral, saying that the body of your brother should be left unburied for the meantime "I don't understand.. What's the point of postponing his burial?."

The vizier sighs in exhaustion and rubs his eyes, it seems like he hadn't slept the entire night, this time the commander spoke up "Sultana, on your way you must have noticed how everyone in the market is going on their days like normal." You hadn't paid much attention to this detail.. But it is true, throughout the ride to the palace people on the street acted normal as if the state isn't falling apart "because to them, it is like any normal day."

"As you know, the absence of a ruler is the perfect condition for disorder."

And by disorder he means riots, and the people who wish to end the rule of the zengids would find it incredibly easy in this situation and unfortunately for you as a member of this doomed dynasty you are definitely eating shit unless you manage to slip away during the chaos which the chances of are as high as the chances of guy being an undermined genius this entire time

"And the council members are fighting between each other." The vizier stated, lowering his gaze, ashamed of the childish behavior coming from the council none the less "about the succession?, Shouldn't we just put the eldest and first in line which is Imad ad-Din Zengi and end this matter?." You point out the obvious choice but the troubled looks on their faces only became more grim

"Ah about that.." You raised an eyebrow at the nervous tone of the vizier "before the Sultan died, he had called all of his council on his deathbed and named the younger brother of Imad ad-Din Zengi, your youngest cousin Izz al-Din Mas'ud as his successor... That's why the council is arguing, one side wants to follow the wish of the deceased Sultan while the other side wants to follow the line of succession and traditions."

Great.. Just great. with everything that is happening, the council is fighting with each other like kids.. But you do get it, this is a tough situation and if you think about it, each one of your cousins would be usurping the other if they try to take the throne, because the throne should be izz by right because he was named heir but on the other hand the throne is also imad's right because he is the first in line and he could argue that As-Salih Ismail wasn't in the right of mind when making the decision

God!, this equation is hurting your brain, whatever! The state ends up in Saladin's hand at the end of the day so it doesn't matter! They both lost! Besides, what did they call you for? To vent to you as an unpaid therapist? Shouldn't they be busy figuring out a solution to this mess instead of causing you headaches and wasting time?

"What can I do to help?" You ask, trying to understand what they are trying to achieve from this entire meeting besides giving you a heart attack "to tell you about the decision we made as council, as you know even during all these problems, the sultanate cannot and won't wait for us to get up" the vizier spoke as the commander just stood there nodding "until the succession problem is solved, we need someone to be regent and since the council members are divided into two sides we all agreed that the most suitable person in such case is your highness."

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

At this point strangling syiblla in her sleep is easier than running away but at least it buys you time, how bad can it be? Just sitting down and reading boring documents all day, documents affects the lives of everyone on this land. But Come on! Don't be grumpy!

If a leper can do it, you definitely can!

Now you should start with cleaning up to make sure no rats ruin your plans, Since the news was never announced to the public there is no way for it to reach Jerusalem without spies being the little birdies that carry out the messages, you don't know whose spies but what you know for sure is that as long as there is spies near you, you will never be safe

So grab your broom and start swooping them out, But this is easier said than done in a short time. You called your support group into a meeting, subject line 'rats'. "I don't know how much time we have but we must act before any more information gets leaked, and we must act fast." You stood waiting for any suggestions as the silence stretched before Safiye spoke up "if we want to chase out spies we should start with the harem, but I prefer if you let us handle this ourselves, you already have a lot going on."

For once in this terrible 'vacation' you felt the weight on your shoulders feel a little lighter, you already have enough on your plate without having to worry about how to catch the spies and the fact that you can put this matter into trusted hands makes you relax, that at least there is one thing out of your hair. Sometimes you think of marrying safiye

Considering that the death of the Sultan is obviously very private information that few people staff included know of it, and 6 people is an easy list to start watching over..

Now, now let's not forget winbald during this hardship. you should send him a letter to inform him of this huge responsibility on your shoulders, that you can't just leave the people of your homeland in such desperate times! So.. Can we extend this vacation for a week or two?...

When using the seal to mark that this paper is legit, the thing felt inside you was oddly empowering... I mean when you think about it, by the seal in your hand you could do anything, literally. You believe it's the rush given by the vibes of writing a political letter to baldhead, during your time as queen overall you didn't do much. Yes you had some influence on the state sometimes when Baldwin would humor your comments but by looking at the expectations of you now..

You aren't just some influence, you are the state itself your ego is now bigger than any male's ego on earth

You just hope that you don't fuck yourself up, I mean let's be for real, you know nothing when it comes to ruling which is a given when considering that your biggest concern few weeks ago was how to piss off sibylla without getting poisoned in the process, and even back in the modern day you didn't pay attention to most of your classes whether in school or college and last time I checked they don't teach you how to rule a kingdom at school either so you get off the hook this time

So all you have to rely on is your best judgement here which isn't a lot if we're being honest here

But how hard can sitting on a desk and reading through lots and lots of documents? Nah you'll be fine. Now if we take a look at the long curtains, the fabric feels nice, do you think they would sell for a decent amount of coins without mentioning that you stole it from the palace? No?

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Sending Baldwin a letter telling him that you will have to take more time than what was originally agreed on could backfire horribly for you, there is a high chance of you finding him on your doorsteps the next day if be refuses this 'negotiation'

But unfortunately a woman gotta do what she gotta do when she is regent

Now, focusing on your plan. The best place you found to runaway to is escape to the kingdom of sicily, it is very far away From Jerusalem, from everything here which is exactly what needed and not only that but now it is in its golden age under William ii the good reign which is an advantage. And maybe after few years there you would return to stay in Damascus? For it will be under Saladin and Baldwin would have been dead by then.

But let's get through today first, tomorrow's plans can wait

While you were busy discovering that reading boring documents is harder than it looks like and doing the work that should have been handled by the old hags in the council. Safiya had given everyone a list of places and people to watch over like hawks, even if that didn't catch all the undercovers it, it will at least slow then down and maybe stop the leaking for some days since no one is dumb enough to send out letters when they are under watch

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Meanwhile in Jerusalem, Siyblla thought with you away for the meantime she could try to plant some seeds of doubt between you and the leper king, with things going on between you two as sweet as honey, it will cause her trouble along the way and what best way to ruin a relationship other than sliding in small amounts of poison?

And things isn't going as smoothly as she wished for, her pathetic excuse for a brother has being whining about your absence ever since you left, every dinner he'd always find ways to slide comments about you in whatever topic is being discussed, some part of her wanted to snap right off at him but her son being present on the table would hold her back

'You know? Her grace had enjoyed these.' He'd comment on the plate of tarts while she would be talking about everything new that happened in court which he doesn't exactly care about and some part of me tells me that this is his way of telling her to shut up but who knows?

This childish behavior from her brother makes her want to rip off her hair, like since when 'I miss my wife' became a personality? While his 'whining' about you isn't as dramatic as she make it sound like, it is quite obvious that the King has fondness for his wife and any comments sibylla makes her just gets ignored by him as if she is speaking a total different language but the joke is on him since determination was always siyblla's specialist guess stubbornness just runs in the family?

like any other evening siyblla brought her son to pay the sickly king a visit, it's highly unlikely that he would turn down his nephew who is named as his heir since winbald is unlikely to ever father a child. he would tell his nephew on the duties expected of a king, it's his way of bonding with him and teaching him as much as he could

Siyblla stood over Baldwin's desk while he and her son were playing chess in the balcony, her eyes scanning over the documents on the table 'nothing out of the ordinary' she thought until her eyes landed on a letter that had the seal of the zengid dynasty. Her body froze in it place, wondering how? She had been told that the Sultan had died and there has been no information on someone being chosen as a new sultan or a regent being placed. She glances over at Baldwin seeing him distracted by the chess and decides to 'borrow' the letter

"since the both of you seem to busy with the game, I'll leave you alone to enjoy more privacy. I'll send for a maid later to come pick my son at bedtime" she stated in that artificial honey voice and left without waiting for dismissal or a response which Baldwin didn't pay much attention to or just didn't care, properly the latter

As soon as she got in her chambers she let go of a breath of relief. this wasn't like anything she had done before and it's stupid in a way that could get her in serious trouble. what she had 'borrowed' could be identified as private state information and that is the easiest way to get charged with high treason and Baldwin doesn't exactly show mercy when it comes to such matters but she had a feeling that this letter would flip the table upside down and she was right unfortunately for your unlucky ass

Reading through the letter had replaced the fear inside her with a mix of satisfaction and smugness, this piece of paper is your death warrant and you unintentionally handed it to her on a plate of gold. She folds the letter and orders for a messenger to be brought before her, once this piece of paper has reached the hands of the person she has in mind it she'd have the last laugh

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

The messenger rode his horse day and night in order to reach northern syria as soon as he could, when he got there the guards were doubtful of the stranger yet his claims of carrying letters that hold treason in them has caught the attention of your dear cousin, Imad ad-Din Zengi. he had received two letters, one from princess Siyblla of Jerusalem and the second is an already opened letter from.. The Sultan?

The feeling of confusion soon turned into stillness, the princess wrote of usurpation and the proof is your opened letter. Imad stared into the letters then he ripped off Siyblla's letter in half while keeping yours as it is "tell your princess to not get involved in family problems." He dismisses the messenger, his tone calm yet his eyes held clear conflict

Even after being left alone in the room, he would read the letter over and over again, as if rereading it multiple times would change it, his eyes always stopped on a specific line

'My brother had named izz as his heir.'

It wasn't just rage for the fact he is being robbed from his right as he is the first in line according to the law and traditions. No, rage is chaotic and raw yet what he is feeling inside of him is mere stillness at the fact that once again someone else was chosen over him, when his father died he was shocked when his younger brother safy was named as successor in his father's will, disinheriting him and now the throne is being taken away from his grasp because he wasn't seen as good enough

Is he that bad? That terrible? That weak for him to be not only once robbed from his inheritance but twice by his own younger brothers?

He was going to rip your letter as well but something in him settled down, why does he have to stand in the side while someone else take what's his by law? If he moves faster than you and izz supporters he could stop this theft from happening, he has enough troops that would suffice and soon the rest of the army would join his side once they learn of this treason

If he has to march to the capital and claim what's rightfully his using force then so be it

Your escape plan better be ready on short noticefor when arrive, he will not show mercy for usurpers

I actually did 👽

It was a Baldwin series and i was writing and reached the final section of the fic but accidentally posted it without it being done so I had to delete it but don't worry this I screenshot it and copied everything so I'm not screwed I'll post it in a hour or two because I'm almost done with it

My heartbeat when I posted the unfinished fic:

(hope your doing well, stay safe)

My babies 🫂 I have a lot going on but don't worry I'm also writing lots of drafts that are close to an ending, hopefully today I'll post a thing or two.

Now come here my pookie

⚠Warnings⚠ historically inaccurate, yandere themes, sibylla being sibylla, character death mention, guy he does nothing I just hate him.

✎Note✐ reader is a female in this. This is not the actual historical figure but the figure from KoH movie.

✎Tags✐ @jsprien213 , @lunamoonbby , @random4137 , @thebluehair23 , @jj-ma26 , @therussianinyourneighborhood , @myede , @snorklingfae, @this-harl0t-shant-be-unalive , @krabzine , @eclipse9978, @thetwinarmageddons , @athena-roy , @acemisanthropist , @solarrandom , @gojolover4000 , @bbmgirll , @itwaszzmoon , @supersonicoxo , @pandoramorgottwife , @yona-luvs-u , @sylviavf , @marina27826123, @ashley22zak, @purplethingperson , @cryinginmyveil , @fatpotatochip ,

✎Part 5✐✎Part 7✐

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

You thought hearing any other name besides baldwin's would relief to you but no, no.. why did it have to be him? Out of all people... Why did have to be as-alih ismail? That ruins everything you worked hard for so far

He is supposed to die next year according to historical records.. Not now! Just how did this happen?!

What you find also odd is your sadness, why are you so so sad?.. Yes he is your younger 'brother' in this life but he is still a stranger to you in every sense that word means

You didn't make any memories with him nor you remember anything about him because simply you didn't live in life where he was a part of.. To you he is nothing more than a stranger so why is your body mourning him that much?..

..why does your heart feel so heavy...?

'This is wrong.. This is wrong... This is wrong..' these words kept repeating in your head as your head started to feel heavy and you can hardly breath..

The last thing you remember before everything fades into black is kasim yelling at ismat to call a physician

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

For guy, seeing sibylla smiling so happily, was a first. She wasn't a person who expressed strong emotions unless she was with her son or something good, real good, happened "what happened?." He asked to which she immediately replied with "a blessing in disguise."

He raised an eyebrow but smiled at her "did the leper king die?" She turned her head towards him, looking at him with a grin that was from ear to ear "no, at least not yet. The Queen's brother had passed away and the word is spreading around fast." That made guy's smile falter, he was now left confused

"as-alih ismail?, How does that benefit us?" She chuckled at his question as if it's the funniest thing she ever heard "well, Saladin will definitely take advantage of the situation and attack Aleppo and if he does, he would most definitely succeed and once that happen the marriage between the king and her will be annulled."

"I understand that but how is that useful for us? The Queen's situation is irrelevant to the line of succession." His comment made sibylla's smile disappear as irritation took over her face, replacing the happy expression she once had on

"God.. Do I have to explain everything to you? Get out of my sight, you're ruining my mood." She weaved her hand in dismissal, he just shrugged it off and left it with sibylla being herself

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

By the time you woke up the sun had already set and you were laying in bed, just for how long you were unconscious?. Doesn't matter, what matters now is coming up with a plan to fix this mess and you have to hurry up because you sure got no time to waste

You tried sitting up but you couldn't move, your body felt too heavy even for a simple act. Huda entered the inner chamber with a tray in her hands "Sultana, I came to wake you up. This is chamomile tea, it should help you relax your nerves." Her quiet voice and a gentle smile that made you feel at ease for a moment. she places the tray down on the table before helping you sit up, after that she left you to be alone on your request

This is a disaster, a disaster in the literal sense. You had planned your entire life and future depending on the fact that you had an entire year till as-alih ismail's death but now..

Everything just went wrong

A genuine question is: what now?. The only plan you see happening is you running away

You do not have the desired amount of money or anywhere near it so that's that and even if you took the jewelry box with you, you still can't sell it all at once because any merchant or jeweler with a working brain cell would immediately be skeptical of someone who wants to sell a big amount of jewelry at once

Even if you managed to find someone who would accept such a suspicious deal, it has to be a travelling merchant so no one can track down anyone and no clues get left behind

Still, even if somehow you got what you want, travelling anywhere with such amount of money with you is basically you asking to be robbed..

God, this is harder than it should be.

You were supposed to have an entire year to think about all these things but now you must come up with something because staying in Jerusalem is no longer safe for you and sibylla will make sure it's not

The fall of the zengid dynasty was immediately after as-alih ismail death, he died suddenly due to an illness, leaving no kids behind and that left the throne with no clear successor. Your cousins fought each other for the throne which cleared a path for Saladin to take over

Unfortunately for you, you can't stop for your cousins from fighting over the throne and you can't send a message to Saladin, telling him 'hey homie, can you just not take over Aleppo?. - y/n of Jerusalem.'

With your family power gone, all the alliances you worked hard for went down the drain because as said before, nobles always take the most convenient side. Now what is 90% going to happen now is the annulment of your marriage, even if you are on good terms with baldwin, his court and sister will keep pressuring him till he agrees to it

Just like what happened with baldwin's parents, when amalric first became king his court demanded he annul his marriage with agnes and he eventually accepted it despite having two kids with her

And from what you remember is that briefly after as-alih ismail died, baldwin's wife and him didn't get their marriage annulled because the poisoning incident happened soon after, so it's not just about annulment, it's about that staying here anymore with sibylla around is you signing your death warrant

The thought of everything overwhelms you, your heart started beating faster and your sight becomes slightly blurry.. 'No, hold yourself together now, you don't have time to waste on fainting around..'

The best plan you could come up with is you heading from here to Aleppo, you will sell some things till you have enough to cover for a ship and then you will sell the rest once you're in a safe place and can relax

Wait... What about kasim and the others..?

Once you run away they will be tortured till they say something about your whereabouts, you can't just run away while someone else takes the hit... You must think of something..

After half an hour of staring into the wall, you managed to think of a plan.. You'll set them free and give each one of them enough money to run away and live a life far away from jerusalem..

This is the basic script, you'll think of the details later, now you gotta make the first step happen and you can figure out the rest

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

After managing to convincing huda that you're fine and can walk without assistance you wasted no time and went to baldwin's chamber, walking through the halls was a nightmare with everyone staring at you as if you can't see them, how shameless can this court get?

You barely hold yourself together in front of the door "inform his majesty that I want to see him." You spoke with a clear nervousness in your voice, looking everywhere but at the Chamberlain, trying to collect yourself and calm down

You definitely should have drank the chamomile tea instead of pouring it on a plant when huda wasn't looking..

"Your royal highness, princess sibylla is with his majesty, you can't enter." The Chamberlain's voice was filled with clear annoyance, as if you're just some servant that is wasting his time

You take a deep breath in and out, trying your best to not let emotions take control and beat the shit out of this man "listen very clearly, I got enough on my plate already. If you wish to keep your tongue in your mouth do as I say!." You lashed out at him, okay maybe you let some bit of frustration take control

Before he could respond the doors swung open and sibylla stepped out "what's wrong? I could hear your voice from the inside." She smirked, taking pleasure in seeing you in such a state

"I'm not in the mood for you." You muttered quietly before pushing her out of your way and grabbing the door handle, the sound of her laughter made you froze "I never knew you could be aggressive.."

You sigh, not even bothering yourself to look at her, not giving her the reaction she desires "I shouldn't waste time I don't have on you so I'll just pretend you don't exist for the meantime. And you, tell someone to bring chamomile tea." Without giving her the chance to make any further comments you got inside

"You should be in bed resting." was how baldwin greeted you, despite being displeased with you moving around after fainting not so long ago he is touched that you came to see him despite your tiredness. "Sit." He gestured toward the chair

"What is so urgent that you had to get out of bed?" he wasn't asking, he was scolding but you decided to answer him either way "I must head to Aleppo first thing in the morning."

That caught him off guard, as if he had forgotten that matter entirely "Ah.. Regarding that, my condolences. You fainted today, your health isn't in a good condition for you to travel."

What?. That's not what happened! You fainted because of the news, not because you are sick or something. "Your majesty.. I'm fine now, I'll definitely be even better in the morning so don't worry I'll be fine."

He tilted his head to the side, a gesture he does when being stubborn "still we shouldn't take any risks, you can't travel in this condition" His voice was stern as he insisted that you definitely shouldn't travel because you fainted once. How unreasonable he can get!

This illogical argument is so unlike him, what's wrong with him? Is he having some sort of episode? Can he just let you go already?

"Your majesty, I must be at the funeral." You explained, hoping that will make him stop being so stubborn "Besides, I'll be gone for a day or three at most so don't worry I won't be away for long." You added

This conversation went on and on for what seems to be hours with neither of you backing down, you had one last resort to this, if this card fails then forget it you'll try again later. "Your majesty, please.. Let me just go this once." You pleaded, hoping that seeing you beg might make him say yes

He sighs, seeing that you are not going to back down this time he decided to accept, but under one condition

'This is the last time you would ever leave for Aleppo, if your family wants to visit they're always welcomed in Jerusalem but you aren't leaving anymore'

You found this specific condition odd but agreed to it because it's not like you were planning on coming back anyway (￢‿￢ )

The first step is done successfully

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

⚠Warnings⚠ historically inaccurate, yandere themes, sibylla being evil.

✎Note✐ reader is a female in this. This is not the actual historical figure but the figure from KoH movie.

✎Tags✐ @jsprien213 , @lunamoonbby , @random4137 , @thebluehair23 , @jj-ma26 , @therussianinyourneighborhood , @myede , @snorklingfae, @this-harl0t-shant-be-unalive , @krabzine , @eclipse9978, @thetwinarmageddons , @athena-roy , @acemisanthropist , @solarrandom , @gojolover4000 , @bbmgirll , @itwaszzmoon , @supersonicoxo , @pandoramorgottwife , @yona-luvs-u , @sylviavf , @marina27826123, @ashley22zak, @purplethingperson , @cryinginmyveil , @fatpotatochip

✎Part 4✐✎Part 6✐࣪

ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

One of the things you found funny in court is that despite the clear disgust the noble class has for you, yet they still find many ways to get close to you, while you may not have a very strong standing currently yet no one is stupid enough to waste a chance of getting closer to the throne

You in your nature don't like people kissing your ass for favors with baldwin but getting on good terms with powerful people is important when you're against sibylla and you know that..

The good news is one of your cariyes (female servants or sometimes called concubines) managed to sell some jewelry, a necklace made of gold along with a ring to some Venetian merchant, getting 200 silver deniers

while it is a respectable sum it is nowhere near the amount you are saving for, But it would be enough for a comfortable yet modest month but the problem is that it's not something you can budget to last longer than a month or two even if you put away some of your eating habits like desserts but you don't mess with food.

You are looking for an amount that will last a few good years and invest in a business so the money keeps coming in. But genuinely 200 silver deniers is a good start and if you good going you will be able to make a decent amount in no time, now where to hide the money-

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Why sibylla hates you is not an easy question to ask, while she dislikes you in general she didn't actually hate you, well that was before, now all she sees is an obstacle to get rid of

sibylla was never one to be messed with, while you are the queen in title she was the one with the power of a queen. When you started acting differently from your usual quiet self she sensed something was wrong.. And she didn't like it one bit

When she saw you talking to maria.. She knew that your change is not just a simple, stupid change of a character that she should ignore.. No.. She saw that as a direct threat to her

Why else would you be talking to maria of all noblewomen in court?

Either you are trying to piss her off, which if so then congratulations you succeeded, or you are making allies in preparation to fight her. And one more thing about sibylla, she doesn't take in such challenges with mercy in mind

If you want to start a war then be prepared to finish it

To be honest what makes sibylla dangerous isn't just how much she cares for the throne to the point where she doesn't mind harming innocent people, it's that she genuinely believes that it is totally justified because it's for the greater good

And how delusional she is and self centered to the point where she sees your relationship with baldwin as threat to herself because of delusions she has in her head about scenarios that has 4% chance of happening

It's not just about the throne. it's about her son as well, she doesn't want anyone, including a pathetic excuse of a queen, ruining his destiny. Why she doesn't like seeing you getting close to her leper for a brother is because the idea of you getting pregnant absolutely terrifies her

Yeah she feels silly for that, while it is very risky for the two of you to even try to convince a child yet it is still a possibility and she doesn't like such possibilities, she wants to make sure this entire 'possibility' doesn't stand a chance to happen. And that is by making you two keep distance from each other so there never be a chance for you two to even try to do such a bizarre thing

And it worked for her until you began spending time with the king

And if such a thing were to happen, she doesn't know whether to cause you miscarriage by herbs or use something else..

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

At first baldwin didn't think much of you in general. he didn't hate you but he didn't love you either, you were just another person in his life but he did appreciate your quiet presence, it gave him some sort of comfort that there is at least one person who isn't coming down at his throat

When you started behaving oddly, he found it interesting, especially what happened between you in the hallway, that awkward exchange between you two and how you left without a word... He found it funny he still does and he isn't planning on forgetting that incident soon.

Something about your 'change of heart' and how you try getting closer to him is oddly enduring, especially when you think he doesn't understand the purpose of such actions. Baldwin always had that one 6th sense that allows him to see through people's bullshit

He doesn't know yet what your intentions are but he could tell that there is something you seek from getting closer to him. At first he played along with your requests to see you play the role of a loving wife till your mask cracks, revealing your true intentions

Don't get him wrong, he is used to seeing people perform entire charades in front of him just to get something, at this point he doesn't care, he just wants to know what you want from him

Can you honestly blame him? No one ever becomes fussy over someone out of nowhere for no reason and baldwin is no idiot

But as time passed by he grew used to these dinners and walks in the garden with you, he grew used to the idea of spending time with you, And he is quite fond of it

This man has never seen proper love from anyone, his mother died when he was young, his father was always too busy for his kids, his older sister hates him, his relationship with his younger sister and nephew are almost non existing, his court looks at him with doubt and pity..

He doesn't know anymore if you are actually playing the long game for something or you actually want to spend time with him.. But he doesn't really care, what matters is that he is getting a form of love. Whether it's sincere or not is irrelevant to him, he can't be picky now can he?

Baldwin isn't one to be desperate over love and affection, or that is what he tells himself but God once he tasted how it feels like for someone to care for you and spend time with you... He doesn't want it to stop

Whatever it is that you want from him, he will give. Just don't stop loving him, okay?.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Sitting in the outer chamber of your suite for a bedroom you love living in this luxury while you and safiya, one of your cariyes, are sorting out your jewelry box, looking for stuff that you don't use a lot and no one will notice if you never use it again

You pick up a pair of silver earrings, squinting your eyes trying to tell what kind of gemstones are used here, it's red but is it rubies or garnet? That would change things in value and you prefer not getting scammed by merchants who might take advantage of your lack of knowledge and buy it in half the price

While trying to determine the type of the stones using nothing but your eyesight, intensely focusing before you heard a murmured laugh coming from safiya, you raise an eyebrow at her which immediately made her return to her usual disciplined expression "forgive me, Sultana but I think it would be better to ask jeweler about it to be more sure."

You couldn't help but smile at her, you never saw her express actual feelings, always disciplined. And the thought that she felt at ease for once and let go of herself even if it was for mere seconds genuinely makes your happy

Safiya was the only one who stayed more on the professional side with you unlike the others who started to ease up around you after the second week "You should laugh more you know?." You say without looking up at her, setting the earrings aside and grabbing a golden necklace, eying it but you could feel her smile at you "I will if it pleases you, my sultana."

Now you think about it after they came with you from that 'family trip' and your life has never been.. lonely, while you visited winbald regularly but you never really talked to anyone else besides him.. Yet with them you always found yourself more comfortable..

Maybe it's because you finally let yourself trust people? Ever since you realized the situation you're in and you didn't allow yourself to trust anyone fearing that they're sibylla's dogs but now.. You finally feel like you could let your guard around people for the first time..

And the dynamic between this group brings you some sort of warmth, how kasim and ismat are always arguing and afifa trying to keep things civil and safiya just wanting to get the job done, and the quiet duo jamila and huda, they're quiet by nature unlike safiya who just doesn't like talking

You two kept working in silence, you wonder if you will miss this after running away.. Will you miss Safiya? What about kasim? What about afifa and the others? Yes they have been working for you for like a month but still, it was a first having someone looking out for you in this life and you will definitely miss that..

Okay you gotta stop thinking about that or you'll start crying.. Now chop chop and keep working!

After getting what you needed from the chest, you couldn't help but feel giddy inside as you think of the money you will be getting out of these goods. All you want now is to go and take a long ass nap but when kasim bursts in, with a look on his face that means something had gone wrong, fear started creeping inside you.

"Sultana! it's a disaster!!." He panted, Safiya immediately comes back from your inner chamber after returning the jewelry box to its place at the sound of kasim, looking at him with confusion "what happened? Did something happen to the king?.." Your voice was calm yet you were at uneasy, Your mind immediately went to the worst possible scenarios

Did he die?.

No.. Impossible.. He doesn't die now according to historical records if you remember.. And if Baldwin actually died you wouldn't have heard it from kasim..

"I don't know what to say.. but my condolences, sultana.." your heart is beating faster than ever, is it...?

He lowers his gaze, looking down at his feet before speaking the words that made you lose balance and almost fall on the floor if it weren't for safiya who caught you before you landed

"your brother, sultan as-alih ismail, has passad away."

should i add it to my list of requests under the historic category after i finish? i mean this one

Yan!mitsuri x kakushi!reader

⚠Warnings⚠ yandere themes, locked up reader, kidnapping?, mitsuri not understanding what personal space means, mitsuri bring delulu.

✎Note✐ reader is a female in this. hope got your request right, if not tell me 💞. you didn't mention whether yan or not so i went with yan.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

`♡´⋆.˚ Mitsuri met you while visiting shinobu at the butterfly mansion. as any kakushi working in the mansion, you were attending to the wounded slayers. you two briefly interacted before you went back to taking care of injured residents and she went back to talking with shinobu, babbling about a place she found that serves tasty dishes.

`♡´⋆.˚ You two kept coming across each other in the hallway whenever she visited and sure enough mitsuri did not mind such encounters, in fact she loved those small chats with you before each one continuing on their paths, it was innocent at first, really, being the love hashira herself is full of love.

`♡´⋆.˚ But soon she started visiting just to see you, you two would talk during any break time you have. you didn't mind at first, in fact you enjoyed her company. you two became close with time, she would vent to you about her dreams of finding a husband stronger than her and how she is insecure about her strength, you always tell her that a man can't handle her strength is a man unworthy of her.

`♡´⋆.˚ "You know how to make me feel better, that's why i love you!!."

`♡´⋆.˚ But everyone wants space and time for themselves and mitsuri is taking all of that to herself, not giving you any time for yourself.

`♡´⋆.˚ You tried hinting at wanting some space yet she doesn't respond to these hints at all, like at all. it has to be one of two, she is either ignoring it on propose or just really oblivious to your wishes. at this point you have to say it loud and clear, while you don't want to hurt her feelings being the emotional person that she is but you just can't do this anymore...

`♡´⋆.˚ "eh?.. i don't understand why you would think that... you must be so tried and overthinking stuff, you should take a break from work, no? i'll talk to shinobu myself!."

`♡´⋆.˚ You were beyond shocked when you found out that she asked for shinobu to give you a forever break from work not a simple day or two. with that you found yourself with no work or place to live, when you tried to talk to shinobu about this huge misunderstanding she just told you that you should focus on yourself and that mental health matters.. what has mitsuri told her..?

`♡´⋆.˚ You recall talking in one of your breaks about the stress that you deal with daily and joked even about how sometimes it is depressing dealing with open wounds and fatal injuries but you never imagined that your words would get twisted out of context.

`♡´⋆.˚ You are fuming with rage. despite falling the demon slayer exam you still managed to contribute to the demon slayer corps by providing them with whatever help you do.. aiding wounded slayers is not just a job in your eyes, it's a role you must fulfil, it's the least you could do to do to the heroes who is out there at night, saving lives.. you work day and night attending slayers so they can regain their health and slay those filthy demons.

`♡´⋆.˚ It's like your entire propose in life, and you wouldn't want it in any other way. that is just how you want to live.. yes you were tired most days but you never saw as a burden, it was worth every sleepless night.

`♡´⋆.˚ When you confronted mitsuri she immediately started apologizing, saying she would make everything clear with shinobu, that you can stay here her for the meantime till everything is set straight.. you were pissed but she kept insisting so you accepted her offer, your biggest mistake.

`♡´⋆.˚ You stayed in her estate, praying that the misunderstanding would clear out soon, but then a day turned into a week and the week into an entire month. by the time your patience had ran out it has already been a month and two weeks since you have been living with her. yes you received a good hospitality, breakfast being served to you immediately after waking up, dinner always containing your favorite dishes, your laundry being done without even asking some pieces of them are missing tho, it's feels like she is babying you.

`♡´⋆.˚ You are grateful to such a hospitality, but this is just too much.. and every time you bring up your job or just leaving, she pretends to not hear. you just can't.. you have to leave or escape at this point.

`♡´⋆.˚ "Where are you going? Don't be silly!! come inside, i made sakura mochi, come before i eat it all myself!."

`♡´⋆.˚ It's been two months by now, you are truly convinced that you are no longer a guest here but rather a prisoner. silly you indeed.. you were always a prisoner from the start.

`♡´⋆.˚ After a few failed escape attempts you came to accept that running away while mitsuri is around is impossible, your only chance is when she is sent away. despite being childlike sometimes that doesn't mean she is dumb enough to leave you free to wonder the estate with the escape gate is wide open.. no, you haven't earned her trust like that yet.

`♡´⋆.˚ You see, those last attempts at running away hurt mitsuri a lot, seeing you trying to run away from her love breaks her heart.. and she doesn't even understand why you would do that!! she has been nothing but loving!.

`♡´⋆.˚ And for that she can't trust you alone when she is away and she doesn't want to tie you down so the best solution is locking you in a room with food and a bucket, yes it's not ideal but you left her with no choice.

`♡´⋆.˚ She hopes you won't be mad at her when she comes back, it's you who couldn't behave and lead her to do this!!

`♡´⋆.˚ "Don't worry i'll be back soon so wait up for me, my love ♡!!."

enjoy pookies, i'll go back to writing after waking up from a 30 hour nap 💋💋💋

Yan!Baldwin iv x Reader

⚠Warnings⚠ historically inaccurate, yandere themes, slight mistreatment, death mentioned, slight sexist comments made (not by baldie)

✎Note✐ reader is a female in this. This is not the actual historical figure but the figure from KoH movie. i love you too pookie 💋💋.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Being alive in the 12th century was never ideal, now take the shit and double it 10 times. being born a girl was not really desirable when males was what needed, especially for a noble family like yours. well females were useful when it comes for political marriages but a blind one? sigh what are we going to do with you now?.

At least you were born into a family with the needs to take care of you, house of toron, a daughter to lord Humphrey III of toron and Stephanie of Milly. born 1163, with two younger siblings, humphrey and isabella.

As a child you never felt the weight of your blindness, yes you didn't enjoy not seeing anything but you didn't think much of, kids don't always sense how things can be such a liability in the future. unfortunately reality soon hit you and it hit you hard.

When your father passed away you and your siblings were not even ten yet, with you being merely 7 yourself. your father, despite being a serious man who was strict and tough himself always gave you a gentler treatment which was something he never gave to anyone else.. that's what you remember of him at least..

Not a year passes by and your mother was remarried again, this time to a man called Miles of Plancy, you didn't like him, he was too.. conceited.. and he only married your mom because she was an heiress that made him lord of Transjordan. he always ignored you and brushed you off, saying a blind girl would only be a burden, saying whoever might marry you one day will demand a very high dowry even if the suitor was of the lowest of the lowest in ranks, he would ask a dowry worthy of a king the joke is on him.

1174 was an important year to you for two reasons, for one a new king was crowned meaning celebrations will be held meaning feasts will be hosted and who doesn't love food? other than the food you were not looking forward the social activity during the banquet, you don't like being in spaces filled with people especially when you can't see anything. oh the other reason was miles demise in this year as well.

He tried to rule on his own terms, without cooperating with other nobles and his arrogance and inability to compromise created enemies and Those enemies were powerful enough to have him killed, even as a blind person, you saw that coming.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Years passed and you became 19, in other words you should hurry up and get married. your younger sister isabella who is 18 is already married to a freaking prince while you barely visit court which pisses your dear mother a lot. your mother tend to lecture you about the importance of marriage and how you could live a nice life but you would always run away to your bedchamber the second she starts talking.

Your mother wasn't having the time of her life looking for a good match for you, no prince or a lord with high standing would accept to marry you because of your blindness which is not a preferred feature they want in a wife and any potential suitors were men with low standing only looking forward to marry you because after your mom die you make them a lord.

Stephanie invites herself into your room, her voice calm yet sharp "little dove, there an upcoming banquet held in the palace and you are attending. don't test my patience, I'm trying my best here." she seemed tired, you knew better than saying no when your mother is in such a state. while she is strict and sometimes overbearing and can be quite mean but she does love you in her own way even if her love to power can be stronger.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

As mentioned before, social activity was never your thing and never will be your thing. so as always you hide in the garden, as long as your mother doesn't pull you from the hair and throws you in front of a gentleman to chat you're fine. the garden was huge and with the help of your cane to make sure to not bump into anything you managed to find somewhere to sit. once you reached a stone bench you were relived to finally sit down in peace without the buzz of the court back inside the palace.

You sat in pure silence for few minutes before someone broke it "May i ask of your name, my lady?." you turned your head toward the voice in shock, you didn't notice that there was someone sitting next to you "I'm y/n of toron.. pardon me, i didn't notice you." you are kinda embarrassed, it's not like this was the first time such thing happened but still..

"The blind noblewoman?." well that was quite rude and unnecessary "Yes, I'm that blind noblewoman.. who are you?." you were offended by his words but you kept polite because you were not looking for a scene in a place like this where gossip spread faster than the plague. "I'm sure you heard of me before, baldwin iv, i don't believe we ever talked despite your family name and influence, though i met your brother before."

It took you a good minute to process what you just heard "baldwin iv..? as in the king..?." you may have been caught of guard but you swear you heard a murmured laugh, even if he is the king that doesn't give him the right to mock you, besides he is a leper himself so who is he to laugh at your situation.

You immediately rose from the bench but before you could curtsy and leave he took your hand in his, holding it gently yet firmly "I just had the pleasure of meeting you, don't leave yet." despite wanting to end this awkward interaction you know you can't just turn your back to a king and walk away without consequences "Your majesty... what is there to talk about? I'm sure you have more important matters to attend." he sighs, as if the mere mention of his duties exhausts him "believe me my dear, if i had work to do i would be attending to it but my duties right now are attending this banquet and humoring nobles so let me humor you."

'it's me humoring you actually but fine.. wait.. did he just call me-'

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

That first awkward conversation began what you like to call your first successful friendship or what your mother like to call a Once-in-a-lifetime opportunity when she saw you go more and more to court and even getting invited by the king himself just to spend time doing whatever you two do.

Your mother was really starting to lose hope with ever seeing you talking to a male other than your brother but seeing this makes her think of every possibility, if everything goes according to plan not only her youngest daughter would be a princess consort but her eldest will be a queen, a freaking queen consort.. her mind is already making plans that is does not involves you but also your brother, planning to wed him to princess isabella, sister of the king. if she succeeds... the power and influence she would have would be beyond what she ever dreamed of.

She is already hinting at a marriage alliance at any chance she gets to talk to the king and thankfully, he seems interested which kinda surprised her.

No offense, little dove - probably Stephanie.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

What attracted baldwin to you in the first place is surprisingly your blindness itself, why? because it's something he can relate to, something that actually connects him with someone. he is already one eye blind due to leprosy so he understands the lack of sight, his body doesn't always allow him walk freely without help from others so he understands your need for assistance in walking.. and considering that blindness isn't common among nobility he understands how it feels to be treated like an anomaly.

He understands you more than anyone ever has and ever will... it's as if you two were made for each other... yes, that must be it. you two match each other in a lot of ways so it is obviously that you two are meant to be.

It's not just your helplessness that reminds him of himself, but it's also your misfortune. blindness aside, you have very blessed life, a good standing in high society due to being born to parents who both came from equally strong households, money is no problem, you have a family that loves you in their own way.

You almost had it all, just like him.

Yet god had different plans for you two, making him a leper and you cursed with blindness which despite all the previous blessings mentioned before had quite literally doomed your fates, him dying young and you suffering till you die, never being able to truly enjoying any of those blessings..

Fate truly has a twisted humor.

Yet, he is thankful. having you by his side is enough, for him to die knowing that he had met you and spent his last years with you is more than enough.. you are the only blessing he gets to enjoy despite being a damn leper..

You are the blessing he won't allow anyone to take away.. he had already suffered enough so it's only fair for the universe to let him have the love of his life by his side till the day he passes away. while the court might disapprove of such a match, since your blindness won't allow you to really do much as queen but baldwin doesn't care, he doesn't mind doing your work for you since he is already holding everything together by himself so nothing will really change.

Besides, he is the king. whatever he says goes as law. this is the first time he enjoys being king in years so let him enjoy the moment.

Even if you don't agree with him about the marriage now, you will understand later that this was for the best.. maybe not today but surely one day you would come around and say i love you too ♡

Besides, he is saving you from marrying the wrong guy who doesn't know how to treat a precious thing such as yourself right, come on.. lay down and let him read you a book of your choosing.

Let him love you how you should be loved.

Yan!Alexander The Great x Reader

⚠Warning⚠ yandere themes, historical inaccuracies, alexi being egotistical.

✎Notes✐ i wrote this in one sitting so ignore any mistakes that i may have overlooked 😶‍🌫️, reader is female as in the request.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

You never saw this day coming, seeing The Great Darius running away from the battlefield and abandoning everyone in the palace, abandoning the entire empire to save himself.

You just never thought you'd ever see darius fleeing away without looking back like a coward, and running away from who? a boy? Well he isn't exactly a boy, he's 23 but he is no philip. No one ever expected a 23 year old who was barely king for 3 years just to go all out and conquer Persia?.

This is really starting to get on your nerves... you're angry at everything.. and alexander name is enough to make you wanna attempt murder.. everything is now gone, everything you worked hard for is gone.

The empire you spent years training to protect is now gone.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

Let's take few steps back, to see how things were before the battle of issus to understand the on going events.

Darius was confident in his army, truly, it was way bigger than the king of Macedonia's army by a lot. despite all that he couldn't shake this feeling.. what is it called? ah.. anxiety..

While confident, he was also deeply anxious, knowing that another defeat would be catastrophic. if he lost, the damage would be beyond repair.

He was too focused on the map, a single piece of paper laying on a wooden table yet his focus on it does not falter for a second as if he stared hard enough it would solve all his problems. he was too focused to the point where he didn't even notice you entering his tent. "Your majesty, you should rest. a big storm is coming on our way."

Your voice seemed to snap him out of his intense focus, turning his attention to you instead. "We need to talk. Sit." he gestures toward the seat in front his desk, the tent itself was luxurious, even during war your father could never let go of his comfort zone.

You raised an eyebrow at his serious tone, yes he was not one to be playful or goofy but he never had such a serious tone with you, a tone that meant business. "What's wrong? did something happen in the susa?." he sighed, you couldn't tell if it was out of exhaustion or worrying. susa is a big problem right now, it's where the royal family is staying and if this battle goes wrong, everyone will be captured.

He leaned back in his chair, avoiding eye contact with you "yes, it is about susa. you will be going back there." you suddenly felt like everything went numb, you didn't expect this at all. AT ALL. "wait what?.. but why?! Have i done something wrong?!!. YOU CAN NOT JUST EXLUCED ME FROM THE WAR NOW!!"

This is wrong... you have been there for every fight, for every battle against this cursed macedonian called 'alexander'. HE DOESN'T GET TO JUST TAKE AWAY THE RIGHT TO FIGHT AGANIST THOSE WHO THREAT YOUR HOMELAND.

Being born from a concubine with a weak standing was never fun, in front of everyone you weren't someone to spare a second of attention on. in the harem, your mother's place in the hierarchy determined your fate. kids whose mothers were nobodies were treated as nobodies, not that they are outcasted or shunned, no. it's just that you don't matter as much as the kids of women with power. and in other cultures, you are what they like to call a 'bastred'.

It is hard surviving in a place where your life is valued by your mother's power when your mother was as helpless as a crying infant. you had to make something out of your situation. since you are not a man, you can't even be useful as a soldier, or can you?.

You spent your entire childhood training to serve in the army, even though lots of people looked down at you being a female yet that became a motivation for you, to prove everyone wrong.

Your mother may not have a disciplined lady as a daughter, but she has a warrior for one.

Well, to be honest you didn't become a great commander on your own. you had teachers of course, while your father did not take this seriously yet he did not crush your dreams. he hired generals to train you, who had to train you even if they saw it as nonsense. yes, he wasn't the best father and he was neglectful to some extent but he wasn't a bad father as well, he just didn't know how to parent. he tried his best.

Yes, making a place for yourself was the reason for you to become a warrior, you had always dreamt of achieving glory by defeating the bad people who are a threat to your empire, yes you know that you will probably will take the throne considering your lack of supporters in court but doesn't change the fact that your are a daughter of a king and this is your empire to protect.

Daughters usually if not always serve their dynasty by marriages that strengthen political ties, but you found no interest in marrying a stuck up lord who can't handle a woman out witting him. so you decided to live your own life yet still serve the Achaemenid Dynasty by being a great commander where you are actually needed.. this isn't about glory anymore.. it's about having somewhere you are needed.. it's about having a place somewhere even if it's among old men talking about boring shit in meetings.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

"This is nonsense! My place is here, in the battlefield, fighting for the empire!." your voice was so loud that you think that you had waken the entire camp but you don't care, you had learned long ago to not care what others think of you. "I'm not asking you, I'm ordering you to go back to susa and i don't have to explain things to you." he waves his hand, dismissing you but you don't back off, not yet.

You rose from the chair, your hand griping the edge of the desk "you can't just tell me to go-" he cuts you off, for the first time, really for the first time, he raises his voice at you "I AM YOUR KING, MY WORD IS LAW AND I AM ORDERING YOU TO LEAVE AND HEAD TO SUSA."

That silenced you, this time you can't argue and get what you want. 'whatever, if not this battle then I'll join another later.' you leave the tent after that, not understanding nor happy about this command but what can you do? he is still the one with authority and unfortunately you are required to comply whether you want to or not.

In the same night you rode to susa, not wasting any time, even though he didn't ask of you to immediately you leave, you just couldn't stand staying any longer there than necessary after being told to go without any reason at all!!. besides, the journey from the camp to susa is long, 20 days long, maybe 16 if you don't stop unless for sleep.

But now... after everything is over, you understood it. Darius was always planning on running away from the battlefield the second things turned ugly, but knowing you'd never abandon it and will quite literally die fighting, he chose to send you away from the battle, somewhere you're less likely to get killed after being pierced by a spear.

You're somewhat touched but annoyed none the less, you prefer death over this.. whatever this is. being stuck in the palace where home once was but now it's a prison and now you have to kiss the ass of some Macedonian guy! at least you're not alone in this shit hole, you're stuck with everyone else who was in the palace, including your 'family', your father's wife Stateira I, grandmother Sisygambis, and sisters Stateira II and Drypetis. You don't hate any of them, in fact.. if you remember correctly, years ago when you and stateira used to play together being so close in age, playing dress up and hide and seek in the huge palace. it was nice.. but that was years ago, both of you are adults now and haven't talked much.. you wonder what happened, anyway.

To give this alexander some credit, he treated the royal family with respect which no one expected. but even that will never make you like him, nothing will. To you he always be the one who took over your empire.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

You were hiding under a tree's shadow from the shinning sun, at this point the garden is the only escape for you from the chaotic and loud life in the palace, everyday there is music playing and feasts being prepared in the kitchen. don't they have pride? no matter how nice they're being treated doesn't erase the fact that they're captives. "you're here again." your hand tightens it grip on the fabric of your clothing, it's him.. he has been bothering you ever since you made a comment on one of his war strategies, can't he just get lost? like there is about hundreds of women in the harem who are already throwing themselves at him and yet he seems to be targeting you specifically.

You turn your head towards him, you don't bother to curtsy , he can get you whipped all he wants for your 'insolence' but you can never bring yourself to bend the knee for him, what even makes him great again?. "i was going to leave anyway." you help yourself up before he raised a hand, stopping you. "i didn't dismiss you yet, i thought that they taught you basic court manners, or were you too busy playing swords?." damn it.. he's at it again, that teasing is the sole reason of you wanting to poke his stupid eyes with a needle. "Playing swords taught me to never bend the knee for half witted kings."

Anyone who hears this conversation without any proper context might say you're getting yourself killed but really this is the nature of the 'relationship' between you two, you don't want anything to do with him but you will never pass up a chance to insult him so you play along with his nonsense. "Half witted? says the one that makes barbarians look civilized." you look at him with a scowl "Now I'm truly convinced that you're half witted."

"Sometimes i wonder, why do you hate me so much?" alexander looks at you with actual curiosity, his voice seemed serious "there's a lot of reasons really, if i started counting we'll be here for the next moon. for one, you're annoying, other than that? glad you asked! he didn't you're ugly he isn't, you have a terrible sense of humor maybe? and you are not charming as you think you are."

Despite your playful voice, his seriousness doesn't seem to fade. "i wasn't joking." his deadpan tone killed the silly vibe going on "is it because of the fact i took over perisa?." your eyes meeting his, his tone making you somewhat uneasy "of course anyone would hate the person who took over their homeland but also because of your constant presence and interference in my life." you don't understand why but the look he has makes you do whatever he wants so it goes away.

"So if i were to disappear, you would be at peace?."

You didn't respond to his question, but he seems to make up his mind. "well thank you for your honesty but i don't plan on acting on it." he says with a smile that sends a chill down your spine. yes you have seen alexander smile before but never like that.. it's always something playful or something stupid, never something.. so unsettling.

It wasn't a 'scary' smile or anything, it's just you never saw this side from him before... you never saw a smile that didn't reach his eyes.. it just caught you of guard, that's it.

࣪ ִֶָ☾.｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙࣪ ִֶָ☾.࣪ ִֶָ࣪𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡𖦹°‧✮⋆˙｡ ִֶָ☾.

The reason of alexander's infatuation with you is something not even he know for sure. the first time he ever saw you was during battle. a woman fighting? that caught his attention, while he always heard different tales about goddess athena and amazon warriors but he had never seen an actual woman fight in battles. you remind him a lot of Penthesilea, you know? the amazon queen who died at Achilles' hands who he may had fallen in love with her after killing her (you don't like this comparison because you rather not have a weirdo fall in love with you after killing you).

well unluckily for you, alexander is quite fond of the Iliad and is very much fond of his beloved achilles. So here is the deal, he would be the fearless achilles and you would be the fierce penthesilea.

Of course his fascination with you is not only because of his fixation with achilles, but also because your personality itself fascinates him, he never met someone, a woman none the less, so bold, so smug as if he is one to talk, so witty, so snarky even when talking to him. he never had someone be like this around him and even if there was such person, he would have them whipped for such audacity yet part of him finds this behavior from you pleasurable, he doesn't want it to end nor is planning on ending it.

Well he is planning on legitimize his rule over Persia soon and in order to do that is by marrying your half sister Stateira and the youngest daughter of Artaxerxes, Parysatis?, whatever her name is. and after a lot of thinking, he decided to marry you as well, why? well he said so and that is enough of a reason.

Your opinion? alexander never heard of her.

Why don't you get it? he is son of zeus, he always gets what he want and he wants you.

So he shall have you.