I am your confessor

❝ They had turned an innocent child into a monster skilled at concealment and full of suppressed anger. John had developed an extraordinary talent: He could show others the face that they wanted to see. In the eyes of his inquisitors, he had become a saint, a pure soul ❞

For as long as he could remember, John had learned to adapt to his surroundings. To become someone who he felt those around him wanted to see, who they needed to believe he was. He put would put on a mask of a man who had the best chance of acceptance and survival.

With the Duncan's, he was a sinful young boy who was eager to atone -- morphing himself into what they believed to be the perfect son. After their deaths, he morphed himself into a powerful lawyer. Nice clothes, expensive lifestyle, rubbing elbows with the rich and famous -- the role he needed to play to feed his addictive lifestyle. Making sure he was never left wanting for sex, drugs, or liquor.

❝ survival instincts had turned him into a chameleon, as heartless as he was shape shifting. ❞

When he reunited with his brothers, John again morphed into the role that he thought was expected of him. That of the inquisitor, the self-proclaimed baptist. Growing up with the Duncan s had not made it not a hard role to play. He became a man who could weed out those unworthy of the Eden that his brother Joseph had promised.

Physical Strength

John has never been a weak man; one of the many luxuries he could afford under the Duncan name was a personal trainer. Following his adoptive parents' death, he would see his trainer from 2 - 7 times a week, depending on his schedule.

Exercise is one of his lesser-known addictions, one that he is even unsure that his brothers are aware of -- seeing that it was one that he did not renounce when he joined Eden's gate.

One could argue that his need for a well-defined body would be committing the sin of pride, but no. Where it did help him find objects of lust during his days of John Duncan -- it was never vanity that leads him to want to be in peak physical shape.

The years of being victimized had left him with the overwhelming need to feel physically strong. To feel like if he were attacked, he would be able to defend himself. On that same note, he would be aware that if his adversary were unaware of his strength, he would have the upper hand -- which is why before the fall( end of FC5 ), he was sure to keep himself slim like that of a swimmer.

It would not be until after the bombs that he would allow himself to gain any real muscle mass. Feeling then, it would be more critical for survival to be intimidating.

Addictive Nature.

𝟎𝟏. ( ALIAS / NAME ) ——   Curry 𝟎𝟐.  ( BIRTHDAY ) ——   dec. 8th 𝟎𝟑.  ( ZODIAC SIGN ) ——    sagittarius  𝟎𝟒.  ( HEIGHT ) ——    5′6″ 𝟎𝟓.  ( HOBBIES ) ——   writing, graphic arts, animal training, gaming ( mostly AC and FC5 ) 𝟎𝟔.  ( FAVORITE COLOR ) ——    red 𝟎𝟕.  ( FAVORITE BOOKS ) ——   vampire academy ( first series ) 𝟎𝟖.  ( LAST SONG LISTENED TO ) —— wrong side of heaven by FFDP 𝟎𝟗.  ( LAST FILM OR SHOW WATCHED ) ——   Lucifer 𝟏𝟎.  ( INSPIRATION FOR MUSE ) ——   any sort of hard rock song, playing FC5 and tbh watching Lucifer and the red road has helped. 𝟏𝟏.  ( STORY BEHIND URL ) ——   he is the self proclaimed baptist. though have been considering changing to rightcoushell 

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