That Depression Feel

tdfw you're told "you're not depressed, you're just bored with your life!"

Tdf when you have no idea what not being depressed is supposed to feel like because you're pretty sure you have been this way since childhood

Tdf when you just don't know what you want anymore

tdfw you get into one of those rare, yet somewhat occasional, decent moods... But as soon as you realize what is happening you immediately ruin it with self-sabotage and obsessive thoughts about not being good enough or not deserving that slight hike of mood level... Also, "what's the point in attempting to nurture these better feelings? They'll be gone as soon as they came and then we'll be right back at square one... Stuck in torment and despair until the foreseeable foreverdom."

Tdfw you can feel the depression creeping back to you after a few good weeks

tdfw you've had depression since you were like 10 and your parents just dismissed it as you starting puberty

Tdfw you start recovering and it's what you've wanted for such a long time because you were going through hell but at the same time you feel empty without crying your eyes out every night or the fact that your self loathing isn't intense enough to make you want to kill yourself so you don't seem to have a "direction" anymore

tdfw your parents dismiss you because you start to get better and that sends you back into a spiral of depression

tdfw you're a teenage girl and your parents yell at you for always being on your phone even though it's your only way of communicating with your only friends and for staying up all night and sleeping late when you don't know how not to and for not showering for a long time because you can't bring yourself to get up and for not going out and socializing because you tried that and that just made everything worse

tdfw no

tdfw you feel guilty for enjoying things

TDFW your anti-depressant isn't working anymore, but you don't feel motivated to get it checked out... and you're terrified about your dependency on it... but then you're also terrified about how dysfunctional you are off of your meds... and you don't want to talk to therapists... and you would rather just curl up in bed and sleep for ages than actually face your problems or participate in life.

Tdfw you know you can't talk about suicidal thoughts or self harming cause then your parents will get told about and you can't talk about feelings to them

Tdfw you're only source of energy is random bursts of anger

Tdfw everything takes so much effort and you have exams but getting out of bed feels like a miracle