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hmmmmmm i am once again unhappy with these pages story-wise, but i need to stop myself from being a perfectionist. this is my fun comic i made for fun to have fun. we move on

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Digital preservation is the only process that can and will preserve everything you love that (currently) only exists in the digital realm. It’s not 100% guaranteed to work, but let’s be real—your own painstakingly, personally, manually cultivated digital archive is all you’ll have left of the images, blogs, recipes, videos, fics, fanzines, games, servers, forums, articles, peer-reviewed scientific studies, “illegal” musicals and even the friends you found online, when the internet is completely gone.

And yes, you can trust me on this, because I've had to help family friends create a personal digital archive of their own. She chose to pay for archiving software in the end, but that's not important.

The basics of/anticipating potential roadblocks to adequate digital preservation:

What to expect from the quality of your digital archive in the future:

Also! Fun fact: you can download the files that make up your entire tumblr blog!

Any additional resources you have or know of would be greatly appreciated, so please don't hesitate to share them.

Please keep in mind that I know very very little about sewing, and the result I got came from me winging most of it and making a lot of mistakes. I don't at all suggest you follow this directly or use the exact same measurements as I did (which as you will notice, do not make any sense), so probably just use this to get a gist of what to do if you want it. Also note that the carapace patterns were originally for a movie Rocky plush and they just came out wrong for me, so you may want to alter the carapace side panels when you make your own.

These are the wangjangled patterns I made, the excess paper outside the red shapes are the seam allowance which I gave myself a lot of to prepare for mistakes, but you can have as much or as little as you want. The red lines mark where I intended to sew, not where I cut the fabric (or really ended up sewing).

You can see how the measurements really don't make sense (the carapace top/bottom sides being different lengths, and different lengths than the top of the side panels and the suchlike), so for your own sanity, please make yours better than I did. Also, the arms are disproportionate to the carapace, if you're aiming to make it more book accurate maybe make them around 30cm long instead of 40.

Incoherent and vague tutorial with some simplified drawings under the cut:

I like the idea in general of Simon dealing with this stuff, even outside bloodymary lenses.

Just curious what you think.

Simon & Psychosis ft. Bloodymary

If you are sensitive to talks of delusion or paranoia, do not read.

Asking a whump writer for abnormal mental health insights is a great idea if you want a wall of text's worth of information dumping, by the way! I'm laying down the "hurt" so you can lay down your "comfort"!

Simon going through psychosis after having his consciousness ripped out of his vaporized body, meeting The Red-Eyed God, hearing it call his name, enter some kind of ambiguous agreement with it, and then getting blipped back like nothing happened, having been (supposedly) kept in it's domain as a forlorn soul for days... is not a far leap to make at all. And that's not even including the rest of the shit he went through during his venture.

Big reason why I HC he'd be mute too. What the hell do you even say after something like that? It would be one sentence total per month, maybe, and it would be to warn people that God is Real, and He is Blood, or The Stars are in the Blood, and They Contain God. Some form of that.

Simon would be considered a nutcase to everyone around him. Especially the COI. Maybe not so much to Grace. I think Grace would see Simon as a very disturbed man, but there's just a scared softie under it all who needs someone to be patient with him. Grace is heavily an optimist. It would be healthy for Simon to not be seen as weak over something like this. Grace may not understand where Simon is coming from all the time, but he'd rather die than let this guy self-destruct on his watch.

Here's a scene that happens directly after Simon "wakes up" from witnessing the God. Homeboy was not okay. Reality wasn't very steady and it was clear he was going into some kind of fugue towards the end as he started to "teleport" around the SM-13 (as visualized by jump-cuts). Those kinds of "loss of time" moments, and Simon' world blurring together, would happen a lot.

Simon's mental state would be near-catatonic, if he survived. He'd suffer from Cotard's Delusion (the belief that he is dead, or a ghost). In neuropsychology, Cotard’s often stems from a disconnect between reality and emotional recognition. Simon wouldn't be able to reconcile the memory of total obliteration with the reality of being alive. I mean, you can hear how absolutely shattered he sounds trying to recount what happened to Ava.

Because of this, Simon would exhibit some strange behaviors:

Extreme nihilism (the "nothing matters" mindset; he'd be weirdly existential for a while after being pulled out of the submersible)

Would potentially hallucinate the smell of blood, or rotten flesh

Would struggle with self-neglect, like refusing food or water (why do self-care to a corpse?)

Simon would be incredibly convinced that his soul belongs to the Red-Eyed God, that it was stolen, or that the souls he damned as the Butcher are talking to him / plotting to "get him" (due to literally listening to them via the hive mind). He would be incredibly paranoid as a result. He would be perpetually waiting for the moment the God decides to drag him back to hell. A sense of being on borrowed time.

Anything regarding the Tree and Eden's doctrine lost all meaning to Simon after that happened. How do you imagine a tree and equate it to the same level as the sky cracking open to make way for a moon-sized eyeball? How do you compare the words of a man (the Father) to witnessing the Absolute? Simon's whole world view got thrown on its head because he saw something no human should have.

Simon was on his way to being an atheist after he left Eden, but then he met the Red-Eyed God. Simon's a "see it to believe it" kind of person after Eden. He definitely saw this.

Simon would full-stop have no idea how to rationalize being saved by Grace and Rocky, and would believe that nothing is real on the Hail Mary / Erid's biodome. Simon might be paranoid that he's suffocating and that it's all a dream. Grace would be dealing with a man who believes he is still in the ocean, and would probably have to try and break him out of PTSD flashback episodes every now and then.

Grace wouldn't mind a little "successfully navigating the tunnels together" roleplay if it helps Simon come out of it.

Simon would be terrified of the water. He'd rather die than go back anywhere near water. Showers are hard. Enclosed spaces are hard. Hearing any kind of mechanical radar blip, flickering light or mechanical voice (GOD FORBID "hull breach" or "BLIP DETECTED") would have him adrenaline dumping. Even if he doesn't mentally respond, the physiological impact of having something so dangerous be engraved into your brain's survival reflex would take a hot minute to kick.

Simon would be standing around like, "...huh. Why am I sweating so much?"

Simon would catch himself staring up into the corners of rooms aboard the Hail Mary, waiting for Grace's voice to come from an overhead speaker, even when Grace is standing right in front of him. He'd catch himself refusing water because there "isn't enough" even when there is. Grace would have to warn the Eridians to not gift Simon synthesized alcohol, even if he begs for it, or at least only offer it in moderation.

Simon would likely experience dissociative episodes where the linear progression of time stops making sense for him (again "time skipping" or feeling like he's teleporting.) He might sit entirely still for up to an hour like a statue, lost in his own head, or become a ghost in the night with his wanderings. He sees The Eye peering back at him every time he closes his own. Simon would be in terror without help. Rocky might be more attuned to watching Simon closely and keeping him safe during these episodes. I imagine Rocky casually staying nearby but not too close in case Simon spooks, likening it to the "paralyzed" state of Eridian sleep patterns.

Simon snapping out of it after a long while, just sort of blinking and noticing Rocky in the corner silently watching him, realizing he wasn't alone that entire time. Ugh. My soul.

To address Simon "worshiping" Grace, it just wouldn't happen. Do I think Simon would assume he's COI and beg for his life? Yes. Do I think Simon might confuse Grace with a hallucination? Also yes.

There may be times where Simon gets confused and believes Grace to be a front for the Red-Eyed God, but, begging and sucking-up to a god for freedom, for forgiveness, for mercy, to be unchained from the ocean, is not worship. Grace accepting any form of this so-called "praise" would be very out-of-character for him. It would be an immediate, "WOAH, buddy, hey let's reel that in for a minute and talk this out" sort of thing.

When You Look at Dr. Grace

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im a liaaarrrrrr i made more. anyway i put em together cuz i think on their own they're kinda underwhelming

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From that, they concluded that I must be able to see the Petrova line. They're smart. [pg.148] They connected my airlock to theirs, with a wall in the middle. Clever. [pg.166] "I like you, Rocky! You're a genius!" And he is! [pg.183] Brilliant. Simply brilliant. [pg.186] I bet Rocky's the captain! He puts himself at risk by talking to the scary alien. Everyone else stays back on the ship. That's what Captain Kirk would do. [pg.195] I've never seen him be wrong on arithmetic. [pg.211] Wow, he's quick. [pg.254] The closer we get, the more I respect Rocky's astronomy skills. [pg.278] "You're an amazing engineer." [pg.287] Rocky - ever the talented engineer [pg.309] He really is a genius. I wonder if all Eridians are like that, or if he's special. [pg.310] "Smart," I say. [pg.348] Rocky seems to be able to do pretty much anything. Either he's gifted, or all Eridians are like that. Either way, I'm incredibly lucky. [pg.365] the world's best engineer [pg.377] I don't doubt him for a second. The guy knows engineering. [pg.388] Rocky delivered on the testing apparatus as promised. As always, everything worked flawlessly. [pg.388] At this point I trust Rocky to do any engineering task. Heck, if he wanted to do open-heart surgery on me, I'd probably let him. [pg.410] Rocky's ad-hoc fuel bays are perfect, of course. [pg.419] "you're my best friend." [pg.425] I wish Rocky were here. [pg.438] I always wish Rocky were here. [pg.438] Rocky tends to find elegant solutions to complex problems. [pg.444] He's one of the most talented engineers on his entire planet! [pg.445] All of the hard stuff is already done, thanks to Rocky. [pg.451] There's nothing Rocky can't fix. [pg.454] Rocky could probably whip something up if he were here. [pg.457] I wish Rocky were here to help me save Rocky. [pg.457] "I have full faith in your abilities." [pg.488]