Lesbian

Hereditary was very well done but I would rather Marathon every MCU movie than ever watch that again. I cannot deal with the pit that has settled in my stomach. Though I do think there's something to be said about putting ourselves through uncomfortable situations.

I want to go to sleep but im halfway through watching hereditary for the first time and after the car scene I just have this awful pit in my stomach so I can't sleep. But like I feel I need to finish the movie for closure. But I also want to watch something silly and light to forget what I saw.

Reflection on my communication at work is hard because I know i do it damn well. There's a reason families and patients like me. There's a reason I can often connect with confused patients and they remember me. There's a reason patients tell me they like me as a nurse because I talk to them like a human being (which dont get me started on how fucked up that is that it's something they don't experience regularly. Don't assume because someone can't communicate the way you do or looks different that they can't completely understand you and comprehend everything you're saying. And fuck even if they can't you should still talk to them like they are a human being. People remember the way you make them feel. I see that over and over in my work). There's a reason I've had patients genuinely thank me for the way I interact with them. And also There's a reason students enjoy being with me even on the fucked days. There's a reason people know they can come to me with all kinds of questions even when they're new to the ward and barely know me. Like sorry if I sound up myself, but I do know my faults. I know where I need to work harder. I know i still have so much to learn. But I also know my communication is one of my strengths.

It'll be nice to see my friends and family over the next few weeks but im going to miss the ocean 😭