i dont know anything about the scholars story, im of the opinion that it doesnt really feel cohesive - narratively speaking - i didnt really pick up any overarching plot, at least in my listens. anyways this is just my interpretation of some of the lyrics i found most interesting.
"pull me out of the fire, tell me you love me, then throw me back in" i think the overarching motif of the relationship between a deity and their creations/believers is a really interesting part of the album and i think this line kind of encapsulates it perfectly - of suffering, being reassured by the comfort of faith or whatever and then going right back to suffering, in the context the love feels like a meaningless comfort, something like 'oh it is what it is;' just something to get you through it.
"I always heard as my granddad's name/The first time that i felt its weight I cried..." This coming right after the line of wishing for something that will last makes me think of lineage (kinda culty but i dunno) and the ever presence of the past, since it cant be altered in any meaningful way in our memory. this is our protag finally seeing the light, or feeling the weight of the words, um, imo.
"There's a kid who don't know what to do/ He waits in the silence to hear" Prayer. Yeah, seeking guidance through some kind of prayer, waiting in the void of no response yet still waiting eternally for some form of path to walk on.
"Here's a heart for guilt, a mind to think again/ Out of my garden! Out of my life!" I didn't want to connect this too much explicitly into christianity but.. I think this is God giving Adam and Eve the knowledge of good and evil and kicking them out of Eden, of course the guilt being of living at all since sin is just an inevitability, a mind to think (again) since you dont really have to do that with god coddling you at all times. Sidenote, the turning animals to men, to me, is Man going from a hedonistic, unthinking creature in the garden to what we are now, yeah.
"I wasn't born to be this, I was born to fight dragons with a cowl on my face and an auspicious birthday" The theme of being dissatisfied with one's self is also prominent in HTLT (Kimochi Warui omg love that album love that song i love csh so so so so much) and i think its part of this to, with the belief that protag was born for greatness, to be believed in and special. (The auspicious birthday is christmas to me. the birth of mr.christ. ik i said no christianity but...)
anyway thats what i found most interesting, im sure theres like an explanation of the whole story somewhere but uh i havent seen it. i love this album though its taken over my life.
