my (new) manly diary

hrt start date was december 10th 2025, and my dose is 2 pumps aka 40.5 mg of gel each day.

ok, still no *huge* changes in the past couple months, stuff is just slowly and steadily going by!

body hair: my stomach hair has gotten thicker though :3 plus my arm hair is just starting to reach my hands too! but overall, still mostly the same. just slowly growing more.

for emotional changes, i am realizing that i am more horny now on testosterone. like yeah i know i'm hornier, but i thought i got used to it? but yesterday i saw a joke post about balls and i was all like "mmm... i love dick and balls...." so. my emotional introspection sucks, in my defense.

it is still much easier for me to access my sad emotions and is easier for me to cry too 👍

uhhh. two things i'll put in here even though it has been changes for a while.

i have tmd, temporomandibular joint dysfunction, which means my jaw sucks. i must have had this early on in my life, since you can see pictures of me as a little kid smiling, and none of my teeth would touch eachother. as i got older, started estrogen* puberty, my jaw started making a bunch of popping noises whenever i would open and close my mouth, and it would start getting sore pretty often. i ended up getting most of it fixed via headgear and then invisaline, but even then i still experienced jaw soreness and popping. until i started testosterone. that is completely gone now. idk when specifically it stopped, i just noticed it one day a couple months ago. "hmmm my jaw hasn't hurt for a while" LOL.

*estrogen is theorized to make tmd worse

also idk if this is mentioned in my archived posts, but might as well reassert it here. i've experienced no vaginal atrophy. i don't get super wet when i'm horny anymore though, that only starts happening when i'm about to orgasm. so i'm glad about it! wet enough to not need to buy some stupid cream, dry enough to not wanna kill myself everytime i'm aroused.

ok now voice changes >:3

hiiiii. guess what?

6 MONTHS ON TESTOSTERONE

heehee

this is the month in which i am noticing how hairy i actually am getting. like i notice more substantial hair growth than the last couple months. or maybe i'm finally just noticing it?

either way: more belly, arm, leg, thigh, and even armpit hair is growing more :3 (and of course. my feet hair LOL)

facial hair is still growing steady! eyebrows FOR SURE have gotten darker and thicker on the ends. some people have noticed my face shape getting more masculine? which i *kind of* see? it's subtle at least lol.

a week ago i measured my bottom growth, like with a shitty flimsy measurer so whatever. and i confirm that my dick size is 1 inches 💪🔥💯 (1.5 when hard btw)

and now my voice! yay! my voice feels more loud and less mumbly than it did pre testosterone. it also has more depth too :3

hiiii i am now 4 months on testosterone :3

my arms are for sure getting hairy LOL. like my friend jonah pointed it out to me. other than that, my leg and thigh hair are thickening out more, i'm slowly growing more armpit, stomach, and chest hair. just more of the same, again. literally just checked and i'm starting to grow feet hair LMAO.

i haven't shaved my facial hair in a while. this is because i promised jonah that i would dress up with him for halloween and i don't wanna wear fake facial hair. and yay 💚 i love my neckbeard life 💚 like wow i sure do have hair on my neck and chin! it isn't *too* visible yet? but like if you're looking for it then you'll see it.

my voice has FINALLY started getting changes! my boyfriend and jonah have both noticed it getting deeper :3 and my adam's apple is now slightly visible! i took a video of it moving up and down to show my bf. yay!

i have a cold rn so i will do a voice update when my throat is killing me 👍

our period is just about gone. our last period was literally just light spotting. didn't even need a pad! it will probably be gone next month?

and the most important change:

3 months on testosterone 💪🔥💯

it really is just more of the same, so this will probably be a small update

the main change i've been getting 3 months in is just all the hair LOL. i am starting to grow more hair on my thighs so that's a new change?

my facial hair does grow back after being shaved, though it does take a couple weeks lol.

no major changes in voice, but i can finally feel my adam's apple when i place my hand on my throat and hum! before i couldn't feel anything there at all, so even if the voice changes are slow, there are changes going on 👍

i think our bottom growth is just about done. just eyeballing it, it is half an inch when soft, and an inch and a half when erect.

i am still learning how to like. jerk off with it though LOL. literally drugs are a godsend, i have little sensation from direct stimulation otherwise. #dysphoria

(as a quick note: if you're like me, and don't get much pleasure from jerking off your bottom growth directly: GET A PACKER. packers are the only consistent way for me to get off. i have a normal soft packer that i wear daily, and a hard packer: a realistic dildo with a suction on the end that i put on my dick. you don't have to be stuck masturbating with your current genital situation, you can literally have fun with it and experiment.)

hair: more of it! more belly and leg hair is the most noticeable, though my chest hair has increased a bit too. i've also *just* started growing hair on my thighs too.

my arm hair is just starting to thicken too, as in i have 7 dark strands of hair on my arms instead of just 1. <- i wrote this part on the 6th, and literally the day after, i started growing *more* arm hair LOL. idk if this looks like a lot of hair in the grand scheme of things, but like. i had almost literally nothing there beforehand.

[i don't still have the pictures anymore but just imagine a few dark strands of hair on an otherwise bare arm]

pubic hair has thickened out + i have more of it, i have grown more hair in my ass crack too lol.

my facial hair is continuing to slowly grow. it really is mostly regulated to my jaws. i have a couple hairs on my chin and neck though. and after shaving my peachfuzz mid january, it has slowly started growing back darker but patchy.

my acne levels have gone back to almost normal. slightly more acne than usual? but definitely not as intense as it was for a bit.

voice is for sure deepening. no huge voice drop yet, but it is just more of the same slow changes from last month. easier to go into a deeper register and harder to go into my wacky high pitched voices. oh, on the 2nd of february we had quite a lot of almost voice cracks, if that makes sense.

i've gotten completely used to our new smells, and my stinkier pee just smells normal to me now 👍 (yay!)

definitely hungrier. there was one day in which i had to make like 3 lunches and was *still* hungry LMAO. and since we're on the topic, i have gained 11 pounds since starting testosterone. it has all went into my stomach. i'm personally happy about my weight gain, i like it because it balances out my figure and makes me feel more masculine.

i think we've gotten a little bit more bottom growth? i have no tools to measure so i'm just eyeballing it lol. but no changes in bottom growth.

we still had our period last month, but it was 3 days long instead of our usual 4/5 days. no other changes in period other than that.

for my first month, i'll be recounting what i experienced here real quick 👍