It's now been 47 minutes and I've finished analyzing the kiss. The kiss itself lasted approximately 6.9 minutes. To fully understand why this has me so deep in thought, it's important to understand the original purpose of our little experiment.
Several days ago, Light became irritated by a joke suggesting that his attachment to me, both physical and emotional, might be interpreted as homoerotic. This was a predictable sequence of spending every waking moment handcuffed to another person, me, an emo hottie, no less. Light's solution was to suggest a kiss. According to him, if he kissed me and felt nothing, with @matsugoi and @misamisalife as witnesses, then it would conclusively demonstrate that he is, wholeheartedly, heterosexual. Immediately, I noticed three flaws.
Firstly, heterosexuality cannot be proven through experimentation. Second, a sample kiss of one is inadequate. And third, I am not entirely certain why I was expected to participate. Light seemed not to have these same thoughts, which is consistent with his personality. It's also consistent with the profile I've build for Kira.
Kira has repeatedly demonstrated a belief that intelligence grants authority over ones own emotions. When feelings become inconvenient, Kira does not adapt to them. Instead, he attempts to construct situations in which the facts will support what conclusion he desires. Light does this constantly as well. When accused, he doesn't defend himself, per se. He creates elaborate narratives.
A 6 minute kiss, meticulously designed to prove a completely unrelated point is exactly the sort of absurdly elaborate strategy I would expect from Kira.
Of course, this does not prove he is Kira, it merely fails to lower that probability. The experiment began at 5:02pm.
The first several seconds were awkward. His posture was rigid, his eyes closed.... At approximately 23 seconds, I expected him to stop, pull away, and leave (or as far as he could, since he's still cuffed to me). The objective had already been finished. At about 40 seconds, I considered pulling away to ask whether he'd forgotten his own hypothesis.
This was all so... unusual. By the second minute, the experiment had lost all scientific value, each slow embrace and stroke of fingertips against skin... Even I had forgotten what the initial hypothesis was.
After 6 minutes, the kiss ended. Light stared at the wall for approximately 11 seconds.
I suspect that Light will try and make it clear that the kiss "didn't mean anything." I have not once suggested otherwise. This is one reason I suspect him of being Kira. I estimate a 67% probability that Light is Kira. I estimate roughly a 91% probability that he is currently pretending not to think about the kiss.
I also estimate a 0% chance that either of us is fooling anyone.
Unfortunately for me, the person I am least capable of analyzing objectively at the moment is my main suspect. This is greatly inconvenient. Kira could not have thought of a more effective distraction.
Perhaps what trouble me the most is that the qualities I admire in Light are the same that make me suspect him. Kira is brilliant, as is Light. Kira is obsessive, much like Light. I've spent years pursuing a mind I could respect, only to find it sitting beside me in handcuffs. If Light truly is Kira, then somehow, my greatest distraction was created by the very person I cannot stop chasing. This is... infuriating, to say the least.
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