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Not to be a total stereotype...

...but sometimes (due to the magic of a hormonal female body) I just wake up feeling terrible emotionally. Today is one of those days. I cried 3 times on the way to work alone, a 20 minute drive. There’s no real reason, just an accompanying feeling of impending doom and the thought that everything is just one thin tread away from falling apart.

I’ve never been a huge one for ascribing every minute thing to the supernatural, though as a Christian I believe in the existence of this potential. I do feel like I’ve found that, while I don’t know that God’s ever like verbally spoken to me, I see His hand in my life in uncanny circumstances that come at just the right moment. When I find myself floundering, oftentimes something comes completely out of left field that solves the problem in a way I had never even considered.

I promise these two points connect. :)

Today as I’m sitting at my desk, trying to not cry for a 4th time, the perfect tweet shows up in my timeline. One of my new favorite podcast hosts had made a playlist of songs that puts him into a good mood and had shared it. The timing was perfect, and the playlist was straight fire - including some of my favorite pump up artists. My connection to this podcast is also 100% due to a certain sweet sweet boy in my life.

As someone prone to just diving deep into this tutti-frutti “everything happens for a reason” stuff, even just seeing this tweet was like a weight lifting off my shoulders. It was a reminder that everything isn’t doom and gloom and attitudes are temporary. And (I know, I know...) that I don’t need to worry about things at least in regards to the sweet boy. Everything is working out, and has worked out, so there’s no good reason to think that is suddenly going to change.

I know it’s a total stretch in logic, and maybe this is all just hormone-fueled rambling, but...now it’s out there on the internet, no takebacks.

I’ve forgotten how to be alone... Sitting here with music playing, TV on, facebook and tumblr up, lots of lights on...

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