tanisha

I have the opposite of a victim complex I have a Bastard complex 9 times out of 10 i am convinced I Am the problem and everything is my fault and I should Die

We can't achyutam keshavam krishna damodaram our way out of this, gopiyon

the older i get the more sensitive i become to warm genuine words, like wow you really think that kindly of me? hold up, lemme cry

oh my god there are so many books to read and instruments to learn and languages to speak and poems to write and oranges to eat and ideologies to study and songs to sing and films to watch and people to kiss and

bitches hate me for my earnest whimsy and my pathological degree of avoidant behavior

my kink is when everyone shuts the fuck up

one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.

how am i supposed to relax when there are things

it's actually so so sexy of me to be the worst parts of both my parents i think more people need to acknowledge that

taylor and aaron are always like. this sounds depressing as hell. release at midnight x