A message to you:
Youâre pushing me away and I donât know what to do. I care about you, I always have and I always will. Do you, do you care about me? You say you do, but then you ignore me. âIâm that way with everyoneâ you say, but there you are laughing, having a thirty minute conversation with another. When I try to talk to you, you barely respond; you brush me off. Youâre someone I thought Iâd know forever, but there you go slipping away from me. Although Iâm fully capable, I donât understand and I donât think I ever will - because youâll never tell me. Inseparable one minute, barely talking the next; oh, how the times change. Iâd do anything to help you, and Iâve proven that. Once things got better for you, do you leave behind the ones who have helped you in the process? Is that what this is? You should surely be able to clear this up, but you wonât.
Iâve hurt my self to help you. Iâve made sacrifices to be there for you. Is that not enough? Is wanting whatâs best for someone 24/7 not enough? I never asked for anything in return but honesty. This is didnât even get.
So itâs been almost a month since you last texted me first to talk. And I realized that I shouldnât have to question if you still want to be my friend or not. So our friendship is in your hands. Take care of it or donât; I donât care anymore. I love you and Iâll miss you and our close friendship but Iâve learned where I hold myself as a person. And I will never beg for someoneâs attention, I will never force a friendship, and I will never keep myself in a toxic one-sided relationship. Iâve made the effort, now itâs your turn. Iâve shown you that I care, prove to me you do too. Nurture our friendship back to good health, if I really mean that much to you like you say.
I care too much about people. People take advantage of this. I get used; my feelings abused. Hopefully you wonât do the same.
Thereâs a chance youâll see this but a very strong one you wonât (I assume you donât pay attention to me as much as I do to you). If you do see this, youâll know this is about you. I want you to see this, in fact Iâll be happy if you do.
Do what you want; itâs your life. But donât you ever say I was the one who drifted away from you or that I was never there for you. I was, however you wernt. I still want to be friends, but a friendship canât work if itâs only one way. At the end of the day, if you wanted to be my friend, youâd be acting like it.
- Your âFriendâ
